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Woke up today to tempermental weather. One moment it looks grey and the next the sun is trying to peak through the clouds. I have managed to finish up the last load of laundry (whites -- what is the last load of clothes that you put in??) and put a roast in the slow cooker. If I eat any of it, it will be a very small portion. I will load up on green vegetables and have started take the natural menopause medications again. I need to be consistent with them in order to feel the progress, lol. Yesterday, was a wake up call that I was at that moment the doctor referred to as: When your family can't stand you anymore, come back and see me", moment.
May I say in my defense, I was being pushed into a bad mood because I was not receiving cooperation from the family masses. Most people would of gone off or ran away by this point in time. I'm just a sucker for punishment at times. It began with my sister calling at o'dark thirty on a Saturday morning and waking everyone up. We have this same conversation with her over and again to please not call that early on the weekends unless it is an emergency. Thus, the reason I do not turn my phone off. I live the closest to my parents and have to leave the line open just in case. She can be inconsiderate, what can I say?
The husband was amost right about the furniture people. They showed up at 1250 pm. The husband was in a bad mood all day and its carried into today. He did not go paintballing and will not tell me why not. I tried talking him into a good mood and I might as well of been talking to the wind. So, I've stopped trying and I am not even making the effort to talk to him at all.
I almost allowed his mood to control my focus on studying and homework, but finally got a grip, and decided eh, not worth it. I wrote in my private journal exactly how I felt about it and then let it go. Finished up my home work and tried out the quiz. Will take it again shortly now that I'm more awake, lol.
Now onto DD2. I got tired of having to repeat myself about her cleaning up after herself. We also have had repeat conversations where I have asked her to please take her laundry down on Friday evenings and bring the clean stuff up. It never happens. So, yesterday since I was in a cranky mood, it did not go over well. It was also a mistake for me to allow her to have a bunch of friends sleep over. There is too much going on right now and I needed peace and quiet, everything but with a bunch of girls around. So, unfortunately she decided to try and be a smart mouth in front of her guests and it did not go over too well. I did not raise my voice but I hate getting on her in front of her peers. I try very hard not to do so, but this time it was warranted so I looked like the big, mean bully-mom. I apologized to them later and said I hope I did not make them feel uncomfortable. As far as the DD2, we had a side line talk and she was informed she will do her own laundry from here on out. I have kept to my word, as all her stuff is still sitting down stairs in a laundry basket waiting for her to tackle it. I am not going to mention it again, and will keep putting her stuff aside. She needs to learn how to do it and be more self-sufficient. And I need to let her take responsibility so I'm not stressing over one more little thing. So part of this is on me too.
I need to call my sister today and ask whether she will need me to take her for her treatment tomorrow, or not. If she doesn't then I am debating whether I should stay home and study or go to work. It will depend how far I get done today. I just need to take a quiz over and then do the prep for tomorrow nights exam, so I am really doing good on time. For the moment, lol. I'd like to go to church today, I need to (obviously). Church is my fuel for the spirit. When I get drained in other areas, this is the one safe zone that helps me keep my emotions and life in control. It sets the pace. When its off, then I start finding myself losing my temper more easily and as some refer to it, losing my christianity. Hey, I'm not perfect and will be the first in line to admit to it. If I was perfect, I'd be in heaven and I know this aint' heaven. And you can quote me on that one.
So, today's plans - a little peace some how and don't let the small stuff worry me. My heart is already in the right direction because I'm not going to let those around me that are sometimes selfish and inconsiderate, or unreasonable get me down. I can only control my actions or re-actions and right now, I'm feeling pretty good and very positive. Great place to be.
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There's a last load of clothes?..... LOL.....
My son just has to bring his laundry to the washer and I'll do it, however if it's not by the washer, good luck with dressing for school, lol....
and I warn the family that I am 'grumpy' and to save themselves but do they leave me alone.... nooooooo......
Happy Studying!
and have a quiet evening.....
Linda :) -
Hi Lynne,
Good for you ... don't let this little things get you down. Am glad your daughter will do her own laundry now. That sounds like the best solution and will probably make her appreciate you more (particularly when she doesn't get around do doing it on time).
Best,
Marty
5/5/08 7:51 AM