Cae's Cookies

I've been kind of shaking myself recently, trying to wake up from the rut I've been in for over a year now. Lately I've found myself in the same place, socially and financially, as last year, and it's not really appealing. I thought I wanted to graduate and move on, go somewhere where I'll be happier or at least have more possibilities, so I took more classes to excell my graduating date. After doing just that, I'll be graduating this fall, and walking with the other graduating students this coming April,  but in a way I still think I'm in the same postition as I was a whole 365 days ago. Things are supposed to change between then and now, right? With this exact question in mind, I've been thinking about what I really want to be doing. Living with the parents isn't going to work out, for either party, forever and I'm not sure if I want to stay in Sonora or maybe even work at the same place for that long. I hear stories of my friends and family on where they are in their lives right now, some have good careers, others are in universities, or raising a family. Seems more exciting than the whole everyday routine, that doesn't jive with what I think might really make me happy.

So, now, I'm thinking if I should move to San Francisco area even if I don't get accepted to Berkeley. Maybe that's where I can start fresh with something I want to really do...of course, there is always the possibility that it will be a linear move on my part. I don't want to move to a new city and get a similar job and be stuck doing the same stuff I've been doing, just a change of geography with no family or friends nearby.

I don't think my body can handle another major decision like this one. I remember starting this job and throwing up every morning for the first month because I was so nervous...but I guess those are some of the things a person needs to overcome, right?

On the upside, I have a new nephew, Etienne Sebastian St. Germain, and that's without his last name. Like his brother, who got a new haircut as you can see, they have many initials to their names. Whew!

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• #2 Comment from alainngaelcaelaEntry Author 
  11/10/06 3:20 PM | Permalink

  Thanks Enid. Perhaps it is time that I join an activity of some sort, get my mind off of school and work and onto something fun, like you said. The local ski mtn is opening soon, and I hope to learn to snowboard. That could be a start.
• #1 Comment from gwydryn 
  11/10/06 3:06 PM | Permalink

  It's normal to feel lost once the date of accomplishment comes closer. Trust me, your friends life with the careers/families is NOT as grand as you imagine, in fact, sometimes having a family is overwhelming. Sit down and figure out what you can do with this new degree, you don't need to move on right after graduation, you could stick around and go for a masters or wait till the dream job comes along. You wont have the expenses of college credits if you choose to wait and you can save to move on to a better place when the job comes along. Every job I know of ( except maybe my stint as a zookeeper) is a rut, so if you crave some excitement go find it in your hobbies. I'm with ya, I was lost and aimless for 4 years after college, so don't think you are going to get it together overnight. In the meantime to hiking, skydiving, heck, even a run around the park will do you good.
  Much love!