Meet Me At The Breakfast Table

6:31:42 PM EST
Feeling Quiet
Hearing Mom reminiscing about Rene Friends,

You have humbled and amazed me and my family with all your comments.  There are no words to express the gratitude we feel for all your well wishes and prayers. Thank you. 

My mom asked me to write.  She wanted you all to know that Rene had a beautiful memorial.  Yesterday was a difficult day, but we had a wonderful tribute to my sister.  The room was filled with people who laughed and cried as we remembered  her. 

Rene touched so many lives.  I pray for each one of you that through my sister's life and death you have had a life altering experience.  Don't take anything for granted.  Life is precious and short.  Love the good times and learn from the bad.  Be a blessing to those around you and you will feel blessed.

May you always feel the love of God.  He has a perfect plan for us all.

With much love and gratitude,
Pamela




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6:23:06 AM EST
Feeling Sad
Hearing Quiet Just under an hour ago my dear sister got her angel wings.  She is sitting at the breakfast table knowing we will be there shortly.  Our time here is so temporary.  Please pray for our family.

Be blessed,
Pamela


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11:07:04 PM EST
Feeling Anxious
Hearing quiet It's me, Pamela.  Please lift my sister up in prayer.  Rene was admitted to the hospital today.  She was suffering from horrific headaches and vomiting and taken to the hospital in an ambulance.  She is bleeding into her brain.  Rene is on morphine and heavily sedated.  She is physically feeling very little.  Her pulse is strong, her blood pressure is high, and she is breathing on her own.  My parents are by her side.  At this point it seems that medically there is nothing that can be done.   PRAY, PRAY, PRAY.  I know God is capable of miracles.

Be blessed,
Pamela



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10:08:23 PM EST
Feeling Quiet

My sister is fabulous, isn't she?

OK--here's the deal. I'm at home. (There's alot to be said for begging your doctor not to keep you!!) No results on the scans yet.  The way I figure, no news is good news.  As you know, PT/INR is 7.4.  I'm on house arrest until further notice.  No driving, no running around.

Thank you for all the prayers and comments.  As soon as the doc calls, I'll let you know what's going on!

I sure do love y'all!  Good night.

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4:24:28 PM EST
Feeling Happy
Hearing No music~ excited children baking in the kitchen Hello everyone! For those of you who don't know me, I'm Pamela, Rene's sister.  For those of you who do know me, don't worry!!

Rene knew you would all be wondering what was happening, so she asked me to do a quick post.

Rene's appointment was moved up to 2:45PM.  She's still there. Her PT/INR is 7.4.  The PT/INR is a measure of her blood clotting time.  Average time varies, but is around 2.5-3.5.  The higher the number, the slower your clotting ability.  Needless to say, with a number like 7.4 it's best to stay close to the hospital.  Please keep in mind, I have no medical training, I'm just doing my best to explain it the way I understand.

The docs are also doing scans of Rene's liver and gall bladder.  They haven't decided yet if they are admitting her.  I'll let you know when I hear something.

For now, please pray that the docs make good, informed decisions about how to proceed.  Pray for Rene and her acceptance of the "doctor's orders."  Mostly, pray for her healing and for her to feel the presence of our loving and  comforting God.

More later,
Pamela





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10:16:25 PM EST
Feeling Quiet
Hearing LA Ink

My blood is still way too thin and the doctors don't know why.  My appointment tomorrow is at 4:00pm.  If there is no improvement...I'm getting admitted to the hospital.  

FUDGE---I hate when that happens!  

 

Please say prayers for: Dawn Brown*Sherry and family*Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew. 

If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entryon 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!

 

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11:47:40 PM EST
Feeling Quiet

Thank you for all the heart warming,  supportive comments (and compliments)!  I am blessed and so very grateful for the inspiration to write.

I met Joey Lee today.  She's a nurse that educates cancer patients on the fun of radiation.  :)  I learned more then I knew, and was even able to come home and explain everything to Mom and Dad. 

My PT/INR is 6.  Houston, we have a problem.  Funny thing is, they don't know what it is!!  Seems to be my heart is having issues again.  I'm still off of the Coumadin.  I get to see Ms Val tomorrow for blood work again--Wednesday, my oncologist and cardiologist.  You should see all the places they stuck me with needles . Ahhhh the beauty of bruises!

I spoke with a friend who I met years ago at a wedding.  It seemed too long since we talked and even hours after we were catching up, there was still more to say.  Priceless. 

I'm 35 years old and live with my parents.  I have cancer, diabetes and a heart condition the doctors still can't figure out.  I have a sister who has never given up on me, friends that continually support me and great faith in God that didn't exist until I "got sick".  Look at me any way you choose to. No matter what you say, I promise you life is oh so good.

 I love y'all.  Thank you for taking this journey with me.  Good Night.

 

Please say prayers for: Dawn Brown*Sherry and family*Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew. 

If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entryon 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!

 

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10:43:20 PM EST
Feeling Quiet
Hearing Moments - Emerson Drive

There are times when you give up.  When you feel like you've had enough and don't think you can go on.  There are moments when you're positive it doesn't get worse, that no one else has ever felt this way and that it happens to only you.  You wonder what if life were different, if you did something to deserve what is going on and if something brilliant could change it all now.  Then there are moments you remember pride never saved a life, crying often releases the sadness and it could actually be far worse than it is.  You begin to let the sun in again and realize what is actually important and there truly is a reason for your life, as it is and who you have become.

Today, I am grateful for my parents who when I was growing up, didn't think Jordache jeans were a necessity.  I'm grateful for a sister who was so concerned about my health she was afraid to tell me my outfit didn't match (we were in grade school).  I am grateful for a grandmother who lived to be 98 and died knowing how loved she was, but it was time for her to go "home".  I am grateful for a love that came around a second time--giving me a chance for something I never imagined could ever be so perfect. I am grateful for friendships that remain patient and supportive--who understand even the moments when I am impossible. I am grateful for a tiny life that lasted nine months, that taught me things can change in an instant.  I am grateful for my cancer, as it is a constant reminder miracles exist, statistics don't mean everything and attitude is more then half the battle.

A good friend of mine sent me this link. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=8577255250907450469  The video is about 12 minutes.  It's heart warming and heart breaking in a sense.  Grab some tissues and watch it and then make sure you pass it on.

I'm not perfect.  I don't always get "it"...the first time, second or even third.  I try, but I am still learning and I don't regret that one bit!

  

Before I tuck in--MN and Pamela, we did have heart shaped hamburgers!!!!!!!!!!!

I love y'all.  Count your blessings.  Good Night.

 

Please say prayers for: Dawn Brown*Sherry and family*Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew. 

If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entryon 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!

 

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10:55:33 PM EST
Feeling Quiet
Hearing Seven

             

Happy Valentine's Day!  Aren't my flowers beautiful??  Dad always gives me my favorite, Gerber daisies!

I'm still not feeling great and I'm not keeping any food down.

I hope today was a joyful day.  I'll write more tomorrow. 

Love and blessings to y'all.

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10:30:29 PM EST
Feeling Frustrated
Hearing Not sure what's on TV.

From 10:00 am to about 3:30 pm I drove back and forth between blood work, my oncologist and cardiologist.  When I came back home I napped for a little while.  Mom called me for dinner around 7:00 pm. I woke with a brutal headache and after eating yummy enchiladas my tummy decided it really wasn't all that tasty.  I'm drinking my tea.  I've taken all the meds I can.  I know it could be far worse, but I'm not too happy and feeling a little blue.

                     

Sorry it's short.  I'm about through with today.  I love y'all.

Happy Birthday Michelle!  I miss and love you!!!!!!!!

Please say prayers for Mary Nell and family and for my Michelle too.

Please say prayers for: Dawn Brown*Sherry and family*Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew. 

If this is your first time readingmy journal, PLEASE go back to my first entryon 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!

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