AMMERICA SUCKS!

You know, after all the crap we have been through these 2+ years you would think that I would be absolutely one hard a** B***h.

In many ways I am...these things threatened my children and still do and God only knows I am one wicked mean Moma Bear...but it just isn't in my soul, my very being to go out and do the very things that have been done to me and my family.....call it a true sense of what is right and what is wrong or maybe a true belief in and fear of my God and an expectation that truth and honesty delivered will be received as such and returned with the like......or maybe I have just given up.........and what for the end.........knowing that I did the best I knew how, knowing that I gave much much more than I ever expected to receive....maybe there really isn't any hope for this world, it's just too far gone and is well on its way to what has been written and predicted....Revelations......I just don't know..........

Friends and family tell me over and over that they are praying for us with out end...after almost three years of hell .....and yet it just keeps coming, day after day....one begins to wonder and question...I know I haven't been perfect, an angel, but day after day I look up and say, OK, whatever it is I've done I (and my family) have suffered ten fold........What AM I missing?????? About the only thing I have left to give is my life....is that what is expected? I really need to know.

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