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JUST SORTING THINGS OUT FOR MYSELF
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
12:00:00 PM PST
What things? Love mostly.
I heard a man say "We see what we love." Is this not true?
We do! We truly do! We're not drawn to things that repel us, that upset us, that make us crazy, but to those things that make us smile, laugh, feel good inside; to things that allow us to experience to the utmost, our sense of touch, sight, smell, hearing, and taste.
I heard, many years ago, a friend say," My scale says I weigh 172, Barb, but I feel much heavier. His tone, when he spoke, was sad, troubled, made me think, rather than of his body weight, how we sometimes make mountains out of ant hills. The thought reminded me of the same man who made the remark about love. He said too:
"We ought to follow what we love and give away what we don't need, like anger, sadness, fear, and those anxious feelings that steal our joy away.
What we find ourselves loving says a lot about the kind of people we are, and teaches us things too (about God, others, life, nature, and ourselves).
I wish I could remember all that this man said. But I can't. But it doesn't matter really, because the things that stayed with me obviously are things that have helped me grow. are things I needed to hear, to learn from.
One of the things I remember him saying was:
"What we tend too will grow." Six small words, but words that can change the quality of our lives if we allow them too. I need to allow them to. And I need to give myself permission to follow after my dreams, rather than walk in another man's footsteps.
When we live life according to what God says love is, we soon discover how much we've been missing in our life. This is true of me, and perhaps some of you. We live our life according to how we've been raised, according to what others have taught us, according to what others tell us is the right thing to do. But every man is accountable for himself- for what he says- what he does.
Kindly overlook this entry if it makes no sense to you. I am writing it for myself. I have backed myself into a corner and this is my way of finding the right, appropriate, best, easiest, most fair exit. Sorting out what is going through my head enables me to get back on track.
So...continuing....
My next thought (not being morbid here) is about death.
The Bible tells us that our days are numbered, and I believe this, so what then, must I do, if I wish to live out my life in a good, positive, helpful way?
I think the answer would be," Realizing how short life actually is, that it is as a vapor - here then gone, I'd be wise to use my time well; to not forget how important every conversation, every embrace, every kiss, every action, every opportunity is. I would put to use that which I have learned. Doing this would make me a better listener, more kind, more gentle, more tolerant, more patient. It would enable me to brighten my corner of the world.
The best things in life are simple things; those things that cost nothing, things we too often take for granted. Appreciating the simple things in life: cooking, interacting with our families, gardening, painting, hiking, listening to our favorite music, chatting with a friends, reading the latest book (whatever brings a smile to our face, makes us more pleasant to be around).
Now, not tomorrow, is the time to contemplate the legacy I will be leaving behind. Now- not tomorrow, or next week, is the time to stand up and be counted, even if that means disappointing people who love me and admire me.
It is time I took care of myself, time I treat myself with as much compassion and gentleness as I do others: and it is time to do it without feeling guilty.
People remember the good done to them, as well as the bad, so I will have no regrets. When I look in the mirror at the end of the day, and ask myself, "Have you done your best?" the answer will be yes.
A question for my readers:
If you told yourselves "I could die today," and believed the possibility of it, then TODAY would be a gift, wouldn't it?
If you believe, as I do, that it's true, then wouldn't it be wise
to reconsider how you have been living out the moments of your days?
Please be reassured that I am not depressed - have been
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JUST SORTING THINGS OUT FOR MYSELF
What things? Love mostly.
I heard a man say "We see what we love." Is this not true?
We do! We truly do! We're not drawn to things that repel us, that upset us, that make us crazy, but to those things that make us smile, laugh, feel good inside; to things that allow us to experience to the utmost, our sense of touch, sight, smell, hearing, and taste.
I heard, many years ago, a friend say," My scale says I weigh 172, Barb, but I feel much heavier. His tone, when he spoke, was sad, troubled, made me think, rather than of his body weight, how we sometimes make mountains out of ant hills. The thought reminded me of the same man who made the remark about love. He said too:
"We ought to follow what we love and give away what we don't need, like anger, sadness, fear, and those anxious feelings that steal our joy away.
What we find ourselves loving says a lot about the kind of people we are, and teaches us things too (about God, others, life, nature, and ourselves).
I wish I could remember all that this man said. But I can't. But it doesn't matter really, because the things that stayed with me obviously are things that have helped me grow. are things I needed to hear, to learn from.
One of the things I remember him saying was:
"What we tend too will grow." Six small words, but words that can change the quality of our lives if we allow them too. I need to allow them to. And I need to give myself permission to follow after my dreams, rather than walk in another man's footsteps.
When we live life according to what God says love is, we soon discover how much we've been missing in our life. This is true of me, and perhaps some of you. We live our life according to how we've been raised, according to what others have taught us, according to what others tell us is the right thing to do. But every man is accountable for himself- for what he says- what he does.
Kindly overlook this entry if it makes no sense to you. I am writing it for myself. I have backed myself into a corner and this is my way of finding the right, appropriate, best, easiest, most fair exit. Sorting out what is going through my head enables me to get back on track.
So...continuing....
My next thought (not being morbid here) is about death.
The Bible tells us that our days are numbered, and I believe this, so what then, must I do, if I wish to live out my life in a good, positive, helpful way?
I think the answer would be," Realizing how short life actually is, that it is as a vapor - here then gone, I'd be wise to use my time well; to not forget how important every conversation, every embrace, every kiss, every action, every opportunity is. I would put to use that which I have learned. Doing this would make me a better listener, more kind, more gentle, more tolerant, more patient. It would enable me to brighten my corner of the world.
The best things in life are simple things; those things that cost nothing, things we too often take for granted. Appreciating the simple things in life: cooking, interacting with our families, gardening, painting, hiking, listening to our favorite music, chatting with a friends, reading the latest book (whatever brings a smile to our face, makes us more pleasant to be around).
Now, not tomorrow, is the time to contemplate the legacy I will be leaving behind. Now- not tomorrow, or next week, is the time to stand up and be counted, even if that means disappointing people who love me and admire me.
It is time I took care of myself, time I treat myself with as much compassion and gentleness as I do others: and it is time to do it without feeling guilty.
People remember the good done to them, as well as the bad, so I will have no regrets. When I look in the mirror at the end of the day, and ask myself, "Have you done your best?" the answer will be yes.
A question for my readers:
If you told yourselves "I could die today," and believed the possibility of it, then TODAY would be a gift, wouldn't it?
If you believe, as I do, that it's true, then wouldn't it be wise
to reconsider how you have been living out the moments of your days?
Please be reassured that I am not depressed - have been
most of the past two weeks but God has brought me out of those dark moments, is enabling me to walk a better path, a healthier, better one. As for the love, prayers, and friendship you've given me and my family...
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Hi Barb,
I do not know why I missed this posting,but I sure am glad I found it going through my favourites.Probably didn't get an alert for it for some reason.Yes I think we all need to love ourselves more .You especially.You deserve so much love for the kindness you have paid to others.Know I love you Barb and your posting does make sence to me plenty sence.I am sending big hugs and I am so happy you got yourself out of that dark corner.I have been there many times.Prayers continueing for you and yours and I hope your daughter is feeling much better now too.Take Care God Bless Thankyou for your kind words.You are an Angel.Kath
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I agree we see what we love ...
You entry made sense to me even if you were writing it for yourself. :-)
Blessings,
Monica
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Hi Barb.....i'm finally here!! I'm making my rounds to catch up and get everyone's journal alerts turned back on.....you are now up and running in Poohland again :) I have missed you!
This was a wonderful entry and it is like I've never been gone, I just step back into all your beautiful words of wisdom and they life me up. Sometimes it is hard to allow God to take care of us, we want to handle it all ourselves, even our depression. But when we open up our heart to him and people who truly care about us....our lives do get better.
Thank you for truly caring about me and so many others....you are a blessing.
Pooh Hugs,
Linda
2/5/08 7:44 PM
Glad to hear you're out of your depression.