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try to write but the words won't come out (right/write)...
sorry I have not been around to other j's in a while I have been in a funk!
My mood is not listed not sure what I feel at the moment! Confused maybe a bit betrayed... a little sad! And I am trying hard not to feel that way! I haven't written in a few days because the words just won't come out the way I want them to! I will try my best, BUT I just wish I could get the words out the way I am feeling inside!
Brittany will be graduating here shortly!Where did the time go? She's grown up so fast!!!!
I miss the way we use to talk! I am afraid to even talk to her anymore. Afraid she will get upset and yell, most of not listen. Because she is in love and I know nothing!
I just want the best for her! I don't want to see her hurt and maybe someday alone! Yeah yeah he says he would NEVER do that to her! BUT David said the same thing!
So NEVER say NEVER!!
I am upset that she sort of wasted a years and a half at the tech school in something she doesn't even plan on doing after she is out of school! Turns out it was EASY and that is all she wanted was EASY... She has no real plans with her life and when I try to bring it up I just get attitude! She works maybe 18 to 20 hours a week and what she doesn't spend she put in HIS account! She won't listen to me to put it in her own! That she never knows!!! BUT NOPE I am stupid and they are going to be together forever!
There is talk of them moving out, OUT of the state!! I asked her about family! He chimes in and says "That is what holidays are for!" That was hurtful!
She acts like she has it so rough here and it is going to be smooth sailing when she moves out!
We can never talk like we use to because he is always here and when he isn't she goes to her room and gets on the phone to him! The other night she came in from work not even a hello to me but snaps at me where is the phone! I says don't talk to me like that! she says she had a bad night at work! takes the phone and goes to her room to talk to her bf!!! She ignores me when he is here and I am trying to talk to her. Then when I say her name to get her attention I get snapped at WHAT?
It is just hurtful the way she is acting towards me lately!
I just want the best for her and I don't want to see anything bad happen to her! I want her to be able to stand on her own 2 feet , just in case!!!
Her bf is a good guy and all! BUT I just don't get how she can jump into a serious relationship so quick , I mean within days of breaking up with D she was going out with her current bf and 2 days after that was already using the L word!!!! shaking my head... I don't get it!
Then there was Brent last night at the dinner table he asked when we were going to Hershey park.... I told him one day in the summer... He then tells me "well dad is taking us there 6 times this summer! what are you going to do to beat that?" I told him I won, That I don't need to take him to Hershey park 6 times to show my love. That his dad forfeited when he walked out, KIDS!!!!
I had a trigger the other day after my last post about the respect entry... Pat asked what prompted me to post that one! At first there was nothing, I just liked it... Then something in my mind clicked and right after David left my ex MIL called here I thought she was being nice at first, but then she tells me that I should read the book of Hosea ... That I need to honor obey and respect my husband! I said to her "How am I suppose to respect my husband when he broke our wedding vows?" She had nothing to say to that! I honestly think he told her I cheated first!
So maybe that is where that entry really came from, something deep within still lurking!!!
Brian is testing me!!!!
So far Bethany is still listening to me!
And Butthead has not really seen the kids since before Easter except maybe here and there to get Brent to take him to his drum lessons and even then it is Sophflea that takes him to his lessons!
So I haven't had much me time. And I don't see any, anytime soon!
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Hi Sharon,
I don't have girls - but I have a teenager with a Big attitude issue that thinks he knows everything and last year and this year he has said some very hurtful things to me - and when he does talk to me - it's usually because he wants something from me.
So, I understand the hurt factor! HUGS!
I know I also thought I knew everything at 18 (now I know nothing just ask my son) and it's something that sometimes you have no control over. we just have to hold our breath and pray they come to their senses and make somewhat good choices.
Hopefully they are just big talkers - as bad as giving him her money is - she's still home- and that's hopefully where she'll stay for now and in the forseeable future,
Hang in there - I'll keep you and Brittany and family in my prayers.
Love,
Michelle -
Wow Sharon, I'm so sorry for your hurt. As a mother reading that entry tugged at my heart.
It's hard having teenagers, sooooooo hard. My girls never gave me much in the way of attitude but I had the same issues you are having with Brittany with my Son Andrew. He turned 20 today and believe it or not we are just starting to get closer now. I too had my feelings hurt and cried many tears while he was in this "stage". Hang in there, it'll be ok.
They all think it's going to be so easy out on their own until they actually do it. It's a life learning experience and I guess they have to learn it themselves
Just keep being there for her, she'll come around (I promise).
Take care,
Julie -
I know its hard but they do and she will learn from her own mistakes.
You just have to have faith in all the work you put into raising her.
Hang in there...I know its easier said then done. -
Know exactly how you feel, got one of those at home too.
She's a good kid, but thinks she knows it all... i think all teens could use a little attitude adjustment... don't give up on her, keep talking to her and as i am hoping on my end they will thank us in the end... keep your spirits up
thinking of you
Kelly~
5/22/08 11:05 AM
Kelli
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