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Saturday, September 13, 2008
5:28:54 PM EDT
Feeling Thoughtful
"But I'm the godmother!!"
This is my excuse for stealing the baby all the time :)
And spoiling her rotten.
Shes growing up already :(
She smiles and giggles and she doesn't cry when I hold her. Often. And when she does I go "ahhhhh" and she stops...Its pretty funny.
Shes gassy.
Shes still perfect.
Me on the other hand...I've been better.
I've been getting...panic attacks? I don't know.
Yesterday I had a real shitty day at work, And I came home and I was just tired and hungry, and when I was explaining it all to my parents I broke down. Just a few tears at first, then it got uncontrollable. I was shaking and sobbing and I couldn't breath and I felt numb. Then I got even more upset cause as much as I tried I couldn't stop and that just made it worse.
As much as I sleep its never enough.
Work is sucking, all my work buddies left. And they don't wanna hire more people which means I get more hours and while yeah cool more money...I really don't want to be there any more than I already am. I don't NEED the job, I just have it to get me outta the house.
After that there isn't to much going on.
I've made a new friend. His name is Gil. I figure I should get that out there, If He's gonna be a part of my life you'll hear more of him and Don't want you to be all "who?"
He's hot. Just saying.... :-0
I have a psychiatrist appointment on Monday, Because like my mother, I am crazy. Only I have insomnia also. They put me on Lexapro but If I'm going thru what I'm going thru I don't think its working very well. And the sleeping pills stopped working, Actually they aren't even sleeping pills. I don't remember what they are but basically its just to calm me down, not put me to sleep.
I guess I'm done, not to much else is going on...Right now we are watching Zely so I'm gonna go steal her from mom....Cause I'm the godmother!! :)
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008
2:04:24 PM EDT
Feeling Excited
Hearing Nothing :( to many people around.
Babyyyyy!!!!!!
People say that birth is a Miracle.
While this may be true...
it is a very very not pretty miracle.
So Thursday the 17, i get off of work, Have dinner with my dad, and head on over to Krissy's, shes having the baby the next day. And she wanted me there with her, so I spent the night.
Her due date was on the 16th, but baby girl didn't wanna come out, apparently She was waiting for her Grandmas birthday.
That night...we're laying there talking about stuff. Next thing you know
"ow!"
"what?"
"cramp"
"oh...dude what if that was a contraction, that'd be funny cause its 12, so technically it's your moms birthday"
After 4 more "cramps" I had to make her go tell her mom. She didn't want to, she wanted to put make up on so she would look pretty when she had the baby.
"mom....happy birthday!! Will you take me to the hospital?"
so at one we show up at the hospital and they set her up.
It was me & Tia Vicky in the delivery room.
For most of the labor the drugs didn't even work on her! That's a long story of stupid doctors.
Me and Tia were a complete mess, Its scary seeing someone who you know is sooo strong, hurting so bad and theres absolutely nothing you can do.
Then skipping all the gross stuff, with me on one side and tia on the other...my beeeeautiful Arazely came!!
9 freakin pounds!
Hee...told you she'd be fat.
After the baby was out it was still horrible for krissy. She tore REALLY bad...and again, stupid doctors didn't fix her up right. She ended up having an anxiety attack. After it all Krissy fell asleep before she was able to feed the baby...So guess what??
I got to give her her first meal :)
One of the coolest moments ever.
Krissy is feeling ok, she still hurts more than she'll let on but shes strong.
Shes got no Idea how proud everyone is of her, me especially.
And the baby, shes absolutely gorgeous. And really funny. I don't think anyone can get enough of her. So far I've done everthing but change her Diaper. I'm scared to do that lol. Shes soft, and smells like baby, shes got tons of hair!! Shes perfect :)
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Sunday, June 29, 2008
3:09:56 PM EDT
Feeling Bored
Hearing ....Nothing :(
A phone conversation with Ryan...
I'm gonna go to the bathroom then go to bed.
*...go to bed?
Yes. I'm sooooo tired. I went to my grandmothers house and helped cut down a tree.
* your grandmothers?
Yeah the white one.
*hahahaha the white one??
Well its true!! She is!!!
*yeah but that's funny.
Ok, well love you! goodnight!
*love you, night
K
*WAIT
Huh?
*Huh?
Huh?
*Huh?
Huh?
*ohhhhhhh bye.
Ok.
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Sunday, June 22, 2008
6:39:46 PM EDT
Feeling Bored
Hearing Simple - Katy Perry
Chickens and Cows can too dance!!
I go to my friend "Funky chickens and dancing cows!!!"
He says "ohhhh i want steak and chicken!!"
....That's as interesting as it gets.
I made baby shower invitations for Kristy, they needed help getting started so I offered to help with that.
And they came out freakin awesome. They look all professional!
Yes, I AM bragging.
I worked for 10 hrs straight on them, i got mad cause the bows wouldn't come out so I'd have to re-do it.
But the look on my aunts face when she saw them made that work totally worth it.
:)
Then I downloaded a bunch of Princess songs for the baby shower, since its princess theme.
I got soooo sick of the love songs! I'm sure the Disney princesses had to get Angry every now and then, why didn't they ever sing about that?!?! And now I have some Pocahontas song stuck in my head.
Gar.
Being stuck in this house is driving me insane.
Everyone always comes over here, which i love, but then it never gives me a chance to get out. Its really frustrating. And then when I say something I hear "wanna go to HEB?".
Sooooon I will have a job, a license, and then i wont want to go out cause the job makes me tired and gas is to much.
Isnt life wonderful?
Yep.
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
4:22:21 AM EDT
Feeling Happy
Hearing Hot N Cold - Katy Perry
Pictures & stuff
I finally have pictures :)
Did you look at the pictures?
Go look!!
NOW!
So you wanna hear stupid?
Erick pulled the "lets just be friends" line on me.
Which I was totally fine with, I learned my lesson when i just jumped into a relationship, i did that last time and looked what happened. Lets NOT try it again. But then it got all awkward. We're still friends, and we still talk, but now I feel like I have to watch everything I do or say, I cant send him a random email saying something stupid cause I don't know how he'll take it. And its mostly me that feels that way, it isnt like he's doing anything, but still. ::sigh:: There goes another one. Doesn't that suck.
Krissy is due next month. I'm scared for her. She made me watch some stupid birthing video with her and now I am completely grossed out. And scared....she better take the drugs. She wants a natural birth and I think she is absolutely insane.
Who's heard that Katy Perry song? "I kissed a girl"
If you haven't, go listen.
And then when you're doing laundry and realize you are singing that stupid song, I will laugh at you.
OH. MY. GOD.
**** BRAIN I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT MY PERIOD****
Ok.
So.
I go to Six Flags with my cousins Andy, Diego, My dad & My brothers. Only I'm on my period, and brilliant me doesn't bring a spare pad.
Well, they made me go on a water ride. DAMN!
Then they wanted me to go to the water park. DOUBLE DAMN....
And of course I'm a go with the flow - non-party-pooper type person. Fine. So I have to go into this store and ask if they sell tampons, I'm completely relieved cause its a chick (at 6 flags there is a large amount of good looking guys working there)...but then she says no.
So i have to go to another store, and to my complete horror.....Its a guy, my age, and completely hot.
oh.my.god.
But, because I have a loving father, he sees my face and goes and asks if they sell them. And for some reason, the guy looks RIGHT AT ME.
again.
OHMYGOD.
Then he smiles. Kill me now?
That's when i turn around and leave.
Then my dad comes out practically waving the thing around. Wonderful.
***OK BRAIN I"M DONE***
I babysat Valencia today, We played dress up (who cares if shes barely two! She loves her tutu!!) and then I gave her a lollipop which was the funniest thing ever. Her mouth was all green.
I guess I'm done. I have nothing else to talk about Unless you wanna hear about killer cramps and idiot boys, which really, who wants that?
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Sunday, June 1, 2008
2:44:55 AM EDT
Feeling Mellow
Hearing Metro Station. I'm ashamed.
Dont touch the bunny!!
You...are now reading the journal of an official 18 year old. You're so cool. :-p
Thank you for all my birthday wishes :)
This was the first year that everyone in my family actually said happy birthday to me. Whoa.
Last night Adrian came in at 12 and sang me happy birthday, it was cute :)
Anyways...I couldn't sleep, so as any normal person would do at one in the morning I'm writing an entry.
There aren't any pictures yet cause we didn't really do anything today, I went to the movies with my friend Erick (JUST a friend! Gosh!! For now anyways. Kidding!!!!....OR am I?? hmmmm) and he made me a cd for my birthday with a bunch of punk bands on it. Cool.
It was kind of pathetic. I was paranoid I'd run into Jackass. I hate how hes ruined so much for me :-/
Oh well. Knowing so many people want to severely hurt him, really does make me feel better. ::giggle::
But I did have fun, we went to see Iron Man, and he laughed at my stupid jokes, and actually talked back. I hate when the most people can offer is a "yeah".
Speaking of movies.
I went to see Shutter, my very first scary movie in a theater, with my mom a few days ago. I didn't think it was very scary, but it was fun, I always get jumpy & giggle alot whenever I see scary movies.
And some old dude was sitting alone in the back of the theater, with a stuffed bunny...He was a little too friendly with that bunny.
Poor bunny. It will never be the same now. How sad.
I had to tell one of the employees to wear gloves when he went to clean up theater 8..so as to not touch the bunny. He just looked at me funny and said ok. I hope he doesn't think I did it. Ew.
Lets see...What else..My party is on Saturday...Yay!
The evil doctor has denied me my sleeping pills and Lexapro.
I think that's why I've been feeling gross. Cause I havent been taking them. I'm fine without the sleeping pills, I didn't take them every night anyway. I hope I'm fine without the Lexapro. I didn't see much of a difference, but then I dunno. I don't wanna like start stressing big time again. Eh.
I guess I'm done.
I'm starting to get boring, its ok, I can take the truth. :-p
I dont know who this is, but this picture makes me laugh. I always knew something was scary about Ronald!
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Saturday, May 31, 2008
2:44:26 PM EDT
Feeling Excited
WooHoo!
I'm legal!!
Celebrate with me as you wish. I shall be adding party pictures eventually.
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
10:24:57 PM EDT
Feeling Quiet
Hearing The Cab something or other
Yo.
I.....am....Irritated.
grr.
We are running low on midol, fear for your lives people!!
Thank you for all my support.
I felt like such a loser...my first boyfriend and I did a crappy job at picking him :-/
He called me a bunch of times after that entry, then got mad cause I didn't answer. So he sent me a very rude message. F this and F that and I'm not worth it and blah blah blah.
Well I must be worth something if its taken two weeks for you to quit calling.
Then He sent another starting with "slut sluty slut slut...there are some last words for you"
Yeah well Meanie McMean Mean, take those words!!!
;-p
::giggle::
I didn't bother writing back. He hasnt said anything to me in two days so hopefully he got the hint. And a very bad rash on what he was thinking with.
My grandparents are in town :)
They brought back pictures of me.
I look gooooood.
Nah just kidding. But they are pretty :) Most of you read my moms journal, so you can just go look on hers when she posts them.
annyyyyywaaaayyyyssss
I'm out. I'm gonna go find some music to listen to.
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
12:48:59 AM EDT
Feeling Angry
Hearing Taking Back Sunday
Heartbreak, Anger, Revenge (Which I'm still Planning)
So. Me and The Jackass broke up.
Ask me why Me and The Jackass broke up.
Well, since you asked...
He was a bit of a druggie. He'd get high and call me at three in the morning. Which I would be like "whatever" to...Its his choice to do that crap, as long as he didn't pressure me into it, or do it around me I didn't care.
Well...about a month ago he started getting pretty rude when he would get high. To which I raised my eyebrows and told him I was going to bed, call me tomorrow.
About one week ago, The Jackass gets drunk, calls me, and says to me "You know, you're a crappy girlfriend."
So of course I say what the hell and ask why.
He says to me "You dont DO anything for me, things a girlfriend should do. Show affection and stuff, maybe if you did I'd treat you nicer."
By the words "do" and "affection" he means, I'm not giving anything up, yes those things, and apparently this is what a girlfriend should do.
Yeah. I dont think so. He says we are more friends than anything else. I'm sorry, but I dont go around kissing my friends.
So then I brake up with him, and the next day he calls me back, and tells me he loves me and crap and he wants me back... he was drunk when he said all this....as he is drinking some more, he goes on I guess getting a little more drunk as hes going, and suddenly it turns around and he tells me he never really loved me (which hit me kind of hard. I didn't expect him to be IN LOVE with me...But you know..at least love me) and that he was going to break up with me various times, and that he just wants me to know that he has two other girls on hold, so i should feel important because I have first pick. At this point I'm thinking "You're and Idiot."
Really. WHAT boy says that?!?!?!
That's just the short story...he then went on to disrespect my father, my cousin, me even more.
We haven't talked for three days.
Today was the first day that I wasn't depressed, heartbroken, I didn't even think of him that much. It felt wonderful.
I still miss him, But I miss who he was before all this crap. When he doesn't drink or smoke. Not how I left him.
But I'll be ok :)
He was short anyways.
Right now I've just been keeping myself busy, Hanging out with my parents who have helped me out a lot, I'm lucky that way, I dont know anyone else who has parents like that. Whenever I miss him really bad I call Krissy. She tells me he was a jerk and I didnt deserve the treatment I got. Then threatens to hurt me if I call him...Which I believe she would, You don't mess with Krissy :-p
From now on, we shall call him, The...
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Monday, April 21, 2008
3:23:28 PM EDT
Feeling Chillin'
Hearing Lost In December...they kinda suck.
Baby Update!!
Yay!!! Pictures!!!!
Ms. Kristy.
Shes like 5 months pregnant.
That baby is gonna be huge.
I'm the godmother :)
I call her (the baby) Chanchita. What this means we are not sure. But if you've seen Nacho Libre you'd probably get it :)
Here's the normal pretty picture...
Then because I'm a dork.....
"SEXY POSE!!!!!"
And this is what I get heehee...
Who wouldn't wanna be that baby's daddy!?
:-p
Theeeeeeeennn,
My beautiful baby cousin, Ms. V
We got her a kiddy pool and I demanded we get the little mermaid swimsuit to go with it.
Can you stand the cuteness. Bet you cant.
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