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9:48:19 PM EST

STOP BY AND BRING YOUR FRIENDS!!!!

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9:48:17 PM EST

STOP BY AND BRING YOUR FRIENDS!!!!

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8:52:43 PM EST

If anyone is still getting alerts from me I am sorry I have disappeared for so long.. I was planning on starting a new journal this weekend.. But, I might just use this same one.. Haven't decided. As far as my weight is concerned I am up to 252. And starting over AGAIN!!!!

But, for now I have a plea....

If anyone out there has the set of World Book Childcraft series I am looking for the author of a story in volume #2 titled "Poppet". I loved this story growing up and  I haven't had any luck finding it. At the moment I do not have the funds to purchase a set of Childcraft Books. I will as soon as I can. I'm hoping that if I can find out who the author is I can find the story elsewhere.

I'll be back Friday!!! To spill my guts bout my going ons...

Love Ya's...

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1:45:01 PM EDT

I went on a date last night... With myself... I had dinner at Panera... I tried to come up with excuses to cancel my date but, I wasn't buying into any of my lies. LOL. I was apprehensive but, with all of the comments I got I knew I couldn't back out. So, off I went with my quilting magazine, that I didn't even read. I skimmed thru it a little. I had a choice to sit where there was no one or sit where there were other people. I chose to sit where there were other people. After dinner I went to DSW and looked around. I didn't find anything that I liked. Stephanie txt later and asked how my date was and if there was gonna be a second one. Then she said you might get lucky. I said I would of got lucky tonight probably if I hadn't had french onion soup. LOL.

Well, I am at my sisters for a Back to Bama Cookout. My parents are leaving next week to go back to Alabama. So, we are all getting together today.

Hugs to all

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5:28:16 PM EDT

I forgot to tell ya's. Stephanie made me an appointment to see my old nutritionist. He weighed me and is sending me a new diet. His name is Jim. I weighed 238 on his scale. 6 lbs heavier than what I weighed the first time I saw him 3 years ago. :(  Anyway he has started a new online supplement supply company. So, I thought I would pimp it out.

http://www.i-supplements.com/

 

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5:18:14 PM EDT

 

I had a wonderful time with my folks. Mom and I did alot of bonding and talking. She's trying to understand how she didn't know I was depressed. I told her cause I can hide it very well.

I have posted some of my pics from The Creation Museum. We had a good time and it was very interesting. Thought provoking. Plus, if I'm at a gathering and it is in need of a good debate I can tell people I went and the theories start flying. The theory behind the museum is that dinosaurs roamed the earth with Adam and Eve and were destroyed by the flood. Part of the museum is dedicated to Noah and the flood including feeling like your inside the arc while it's being built. Way cool.

  

 

 

Adam

 

 Adam, Eve, Cain and Able

 

 

 Cain killing Able

 

 Workers building the arc

 

  Look closely at the rocks. There are people trying to survive the flood.

On Monday night I went to my first "Lose IT for Life" session. We haven't gotten our books yet. I hope to get them soon. I'd like to get started. Then on Tuesday night I went to my first Alpha session. WOW!! We had dinner and listened to our Pastor tell his story of coming to Christ. From drinking and doin drugs to a Pastor of a VERY large church. What a story. Then we sat and had a table discussion.

My therapist assignment is to go to a restaurant and have a meal alone. I'm thinking I might trying lunch or dinner on Friday. I was thinking I could go to Applebee's. That way I can sit at the bar. Hope I can do it. I'm always afraid that people are gonna look at me and think "poor fat girl doesn't have anyone to have dinner with."  I know that's crazy.. But, hey that's why I am seeing a therapist.

Well, I'm off to read. My book is due at the library today and I'm not done with it yet. HUGS 2 ALL!!!! <3 <3

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8:01:24 AM EDT

I'm heading to my parents today, right after my therapy session. Stephanie and I got up this morning and went to the fitness center here at the apartment complex. They have these things that make you move your feet. I think it's called cardio equipment. LOL. Stephanie hasn't been doin cardio and I haven't been goin to the gym for anything. So, this was a big step. We are sitting at the dining room table. She's looking at a fundraiser and talking to her boyfriend on the phone and I am talkin to you all.

I am addicted to my Sims game. Of course I have a character named after me and she has a hot boyfriend. And my character is getting more action than I've seen in YEARS!!

I have not binged on anything in 3 days. I have 3 days of clean eating under my belt. Yay for me. Just in time to go to my parents where I tend to overeat. So, send good thoughts my way.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. TTFN

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9:41:35 PM EDT

Janis was the first to ask "What is the creation museum?" I am sure others will be asking also. Here is a description from the web site.

The Creation Museum presents a “walk through history.” Designed by a former Universal Studios exhibit director, this state-of-the-art 60,000 square foot museum brings the pages of the Bible to life.

A fully engaging, sensory experience for guests. Murals and realistic scenery, computer-generated visual effects, over fifty exotic animals, life-sized people and dinosaur animatronics, and a special-effects theater complete with misty sea breezes and rumbling seats. These are just some of the impressive exhibits that everyone in your family will enjoy.

Here is the link.  http://www.creationmuseum.org/

I'll take pictures and share when I get back. Nite

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9:02:26 PM EDT

I am off the rest of the week. My parents ended up at Hueston Woods which is fairly close to me and I am spending Thursday- Sunday with my folks. The weather is perfect camping weather. 70's low 80's. Called my Mom today and said "Did you order this weather for me?" LOL. My Mom and I are going to the Creation  Museum on Friday. I'll fill you in on it after I go. I'm just gonna enjoy spending time with my mom. They leave on the 25th for
Alabama.

I'm watching Biggest Loser and talking to my friend Rose, and typing this entry all at the same time. I am so talented. LOL. Good thing I'm DVR'ing Biggest Loser. Cause I'm missing most of the show.

I joined a small group at church called "losing for life". It begins on Monday night. It was an answer to my prayers of frustration on Sunday morning while I was trying to get ready for church and all my new clothes I recently bought because of my weight gain are getting tight. I can't afford another new wardrobe. Yet, I can't seem to control the food that goes into my mouth. So, we shall see if this new small group will help me.

I joined another small group on Tuesday nights called Alpha. It's a Bible study. I can't wait to tell you all bout both of these next week after I go.

I see my therapist on Thursday morning to get my results of this personality test I took. I'm gonna learn that I have no self confidence, I care WAY to much what others think about me, and that I feel like no one likes me. I know all that. I need to know how to fix these issues. And feel like I am worthy of others love and affection.

Well, I am off here. Love to all

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9:24:55 PM EDT

My demons name is DEPESSION!!! This is one battle I want to end. I mentioned before I was seeing a therapist and she reccommended I see a pychiatrist. Well, I've seen him twice now. My first appt. he ordered a sleep study and blood work. And messed with my medication. I was taking Celexa. He put me on Risperdal at night. And cut my Celexa back. Was gonna ween me off. Within 3 weeks I was crying ALL the time. I was having trouble concentrating, I wanted to stay in bed all the time, it was bad. I called him and told him how bad it was so he went ahead and gave me the Cymbalta. Things are better. I am good most of the time. I am still weepy at times at least it's not constant now. My sleep study came back all good. And at my second appt with Dr. J he said "On paper your perfectly healthy" My blood tests came back good. So, I am mental. LOL.

I think that living with Stephanie and her girls might not have been the greatest idea of all time. But, we are managing. She is having a battle with her 15 yr old right now. And I am having a hard time not telling her my point of view. My tongue is gonna start bleeding cause I am constantly "biting my tongue" lol.. Only 6  more months.

On the job front. I am trying to transfer to a closer branch. I am currently driving 35 mins in the morning and 45-50 on the way home. I hate it. I have decided that I am gonna move into a one bedroom in the same apartment complex as Stephanie and her boyfriend when they get married in March. I have talked to a manager at a location that is 15-20 mins away. She wants me so it's a matter of the powers above. Wish me luck. I think I could use the change.

I really like my laptop. The only thing is I got one with a 17 inch screen. So, it is bigger than I expected. lol. I just love the fact that I can sit in the livingroom with everyone else and still do what I love.

The sermon at church today was great. I love it when there is a humorous pastor. I'm signing up for a couple of small groups. Let you know bout them tomorrow. I'm getting tired and I need to call my Mommy.

Love to all....  

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