Y2K Survivor

I always heard that after all the holiday treats people feel awful and start making deals between God and themselves to be better, eat better and lose weight.  That never made much sense to me.  When I wanted to quit smoking, it was not a time of the year thing.  I suddenly felt I had the resolve to try to quit.  In spite of the fact I had an unopened carton of Marlboros and over a half of an open pack.  I just quit.

When I decided to move away and chance a better life elsewhere, and I have now done that twice, without a job or a promise of a job, just a strong feeling it was the right thing to do, for me.  I simply did what I felt was the right thing to do, while keeping a short term and long term plan firmly fixed in my mind.  I even once quit a good paying job wiyhout having secured another job, just because I knew it was time to go.  I had a pretty good idea I would get hired, and it worked out pretty good.

But today I just finished off a piece of pie after eating a dinner I worked all day making.  This is the day after a feast I worked all day yesterday making.  And this is after cookies and treats and carbs and.... OH MY GOD I promise I will be better for the rest of the year!!  OH MY GOD I am so stuffed!!  Oh MY GOD I feel awful!  OH MY GOD help me!  Help me be a better person!!  Help me eat better!  Help me lose weight!!  OH MY GOD Help me!!  Help me!!!