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Sunday part 2
Back from church and all worked out. So now its time to write so everyone can know what is going on with me right?!?
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Of course I texted my baby as soon as I got out of church because he had to work today so I just wanted to let him know that I loved him and see how his day was going. On the 15 minutes it took me to get the family home, I missed 2 of his calls. When he calls me from work I have to text him back and tell him to call me, although I have the number I don�t like calling the Depot and I don�t have his extension which I would need to call, so our system works better. So text him back and he replied that he was bored and got off at 5pm. I responded, while since you get off soon hit me up when you get off, that way I could start my exercise and be in wind down mode by the time he calls. Nope he wants to call me right when I am stretching it out with Bob and getting my warm-up on. I felt so bad that I had to end that conversation because I haven�t talked to him in about 16 hours and I miss his voice, but I needed to get my workout done. Told him to call me back at 3pm and I should be done by then, I wasn�t but I just let the phone ring and as soon as I was finished I called him back.
I didn�t cuss Kim out much today but I was on the verge of doing it. I have to get a medicine ball and I am not sure about my stability ball. They seem to have bigger ones and I have a small one because it is based on my height. I am 5� and the one that I have I got from target and is for people that are 5� to 5�4� I believe. I�m pretty sure that the people on the video are taller than that so that is why theirs is bigger but I don�t want to be missing out on the benefits. However, even without the medicine ball I felt the workout in my arms..still getting one though! Today I worked out for 45 minutes again I did the warm-up, functional flexibility, power sculpt for women, boot camp, and some stretching. I wanted to do cool down because I haven�t done it yet. Keon called me today and I wanted to speak to him and I had already let about 6 minutes pass on his 15 minute break and Friday I was about to pass out so I ended that early. I love the way that I feel after getting these workouts in, but I know me and I have to leave them to weekend workouts because I will get tired of them quickly. I am still trying to figure out how to get strength training in at the gym but I believe that I have found some great answers. I can use machines but I can also use the stability balls and get it in that way. Or I can do the DVD in the morning and then do cardio at gym. I might try that in the morning and see how that goes. I can get up 20 minutes earlier and do a warm up (5 minutes), and choose from power sculpt for women(10 minutes) or boot camp (15 minutes) or functional flexibility( 10 minutes), and then do the cool down (5 minutes). That sounds like a great plan! I can switch up which ones that I do and since there are 3 options, only 3 days a week do I have to get up earlier and do them. And the weekends it�s a full fledged workout! Works for me!
I have been reading a lot about outside support and what is right and wrong and who would I be without commenting on it. I believe that the support of our loved ones is extremely important but what happens when you don�t get the support you need, do you stop or find another means of support? I believe that a lot of us have used the later. Almost every reader of my journal has great �significant other� support, online support and family/friends support. But each of us are different in the support that we need. Personally, I need my support to come in the form of hard loving. My online support know that I respond better to �Tia get your ass moving, you can do this and have done this so what the hell is your problem� vs. cuddling me. I will use that cuddling as a reason to have a series of weak moments. Sure we all fall short but don�t pacify me when I have one. However, with others it doesn�t work that way. If you get drill sergeant on them they will break down mentally and not respond the way I would. I can give both forms of love. But when it comes to that significant other support, I notice we all vary in what we need.
Keon is the type that will not pacify me or cuddle me. He is not one to NOT eat something because I can�t have it and I love that about him. If we go to a restaurant and I say, �I�m eating healthy� he says �Ok�. He is not going to be like �areyou suppose to eat that�� or �don�t eat that� that is not his personality. He thinks more along the lines of that its MY decision and I need to take control of my actions. He is not going to be a food police for me. However, if he knows that some place has NO healthy alternatives then he won�t eat there. I love the responsibility that he puts on me for my decisions in life. He understands that I struggle daily with this and he praises me daily for my success. Weekly he texts me about my WW results, if he doesn�t get that text from me by a certain time. I love him for that. He is always there to listen to me and add advice, but never puts me down.
After reading journals on this and how different people get support it helped me understand that we are all different in how we perceive support from others. I am sensitive about my weight loss process overall and I need a partner that understands that but doesn�t feel the need to be a food police for me. If I want something Keon gets it for me and never questions me, I respect that because this journey was my choice to make. I can either make bad choices or a good ones.
I can not wait to see him on Tuesday night. I am taking my B.L 2 DVD with me up there so that I can get some working out in on Wednesday. We go and check out the mansion on Wednesday and prayerfully we will able to go ahead and reserve our date. I know that everyone is anxious to see the dress and when it comes, after I order it, I will model it for you, I promise. I will keep all updated on that process.
Speaking of process, this morning when I got upstairs to leave for church my sister commented on my taking my shoes off because they were heels. Now yes I am 267.4lbs but I do wear 3+� heels. I have A LOT of them. My pair from Aldo are about 4.5� and yes they are not the most comfortable shoes but they aren�t that bad either. You get used to them. I found a cute pair of brown crocodile skin heels for $7 at Target on Friday, they are so cute, probably 3.5� heels. I started wearing them over a year ago and they are getting easier to walk in. I love them because I am so short that it saves my pants from scraping the ground and they are cute on my legs. I have muscular calves and in skirts my legs are nice, thick, and very well sculpted. I believe that every lady should own at least 2 pair of them�It was definitely a process for me learning how to walk in them and the pair I had on today, I almost broke my neck in them last year when I first put them on, but now I can run in them�reminds me of my weight loss, definitely a process..
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Tia, Someone is going to understand my love hate relationship with Bob big time! LOL. I have to tell you, reading about your desire to work it in them heels had me giggling a bit. The part about first almost breaking your neck and now able to run was just the cutest thing. LOL. So in your honor I made dinner in my highest heels last night. Once a Diva always a Diva! :wink: Your determination and committment to your exercise is infectious. You work it girl!
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When Paul and I were married, he made me wear the highest heel I could stand (about 3 inches) because of the 12 in height difference between us. I really don't care for shoes that high... but when I can find a comfortable heel, I do think they look nice. Estela
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OMG ... I did the medicine ball workout with 5 pound weights the first day, I felt nothing so that's when I bought the ball. It is so worth it, it's a much harder workout!!! Emmi
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love the graphic's tia way to go on the work out
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SHerry
1/30/07 9:47 PM
I can't wait to see your wedding dress. I know it's going to be gorgeous on you. You are such a confident woman. I can just picture you in those heels!! I don't have any 3 inch ones.. I think about 2 is my max.. but I am pretty short too, so I always have something with some kind of a heel.
Hope you're having a great week.
HUGS
Melissa