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Feeling Sad
~ Saturday ~
Assume: to take as granted or true: suppose [I assume he'll be there.] One of the definitions of the word.
Take for granted: take to be the case or to be true; accept without verification or proof
The definition of these are so similar, most likely they have been interchanged. I feel this would be a true statement, especially in my world, and I'm sure the people that used them was thinking there were very different definitions for the respective words.
I'm sure there are those wondering why I started my post in this manner. It's because things are sometimes sent our way that makes us stop to think; to take an inventory; to realize just how much we assume/take for granted...even if we make a concerted effort not to be assuming and/or ungrateful.
Yes, I'm guilty of being an assuming person, and taking things for granted...just by reforming myself into a positive thinker. Stepping out in faith, as some call it. There's a lot of truth to that statement ["stepping out in faith"].
I try to make a whole-hearted effort not be assuming...of thinking my Lord will endow me with blessings simply because I believe in his word, in him, and in his eternal Kingdom.
Why you may ask is my mind awhirl with these thoughts? When I was pregnant with all 4 of my children I simply felt confident there would be nothing wrong. I "assumed" they would be born in good health - physically/mentally/emotionally. My children were born before ultrasounds and aminos were standard procedures. So, it was really a roll of the dice, wait and see process. Even as a young pregnant woman, I read...I knew the possibilities of various birth defects and such. The knowledge didn't scare me. The not-knowing-for-sure- until-birth didn't scare me. I simply trusted and believed the best would happen. Fortunately, it did happen.
I'm sure my children have also believed the same when they were expecting their respective children. My grands have come along during the age of routine ultrasounds, etc. [I have 10 grandchildren,of my own.] We knew what their genders were before they arrived. We supposedly knew of any impending problems.
Looking at a perfectly formed baby, when we see two eyes, ears, hands and feet...complete with all the other things such as mouth, toes, fingers, etc., we assume/take for granted all is well. The baby is "normal" and/or perfect. [I've come to loathe the word normal.] Little do we know what may be lurking inside, unseen...that may not be found for months, or even years.
Yesterday, my daughter took Landry to be evaluated for speech therapy. He is 3.5 yrs. old and still has trouble with "R", "K" and some other sounds. We all thought it was due to being a Momma's baby, and being home with her so much. [And yes, he had suffered some hearing loss before putting tubes in his ears, but in the docs opinions not enough to warrant aids.] However, in the assessment, his vision was also tested...and to the astonishment...and fear of my daughter, he can't see out of his Right eye. As yet, we don't know if it's like a legally blind [20/400] or if he "sees" black. He had never mentioned it until his left eye was covered and he went into melt down about not being able to see. If he were born this way, or if he detached the retina when he took a horrendous fall around 12-15 mos. -we don't know. He has obviously compensated beautifully with the Left eye.
He will be evaluated by an Ophthalmologist on Wed. the 23rd...hopefully, there will be some answers then. The eye looks good, it moves, etc. as if everything were as it should be. He will have to begin speech therapy...but after the news about his vision, the speech has not been on the front burner.
My daughter was understandably sick with worry. She is so in tune with her children she knows they are sick when a doctor is saying they aren't...she's never been wrong. She feels she should have known Landry couldn't see from that eye...and there's no way that's true. Thankfully she held herself together in his presence. Our little guy who has/had no fear, found a fear, sadly.
Again, here is a lesson from the Master...a test for all of us, and a reminder to never take his mercies and blessings for granted.
Have a great Saturday. Blessings.
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Linda,
I have 10 grands of my own children. I have one grand by my step-son.
Thanks for your concern. -
I can say I'm sorry about the news with Landry, yet in my mind that would be almost pitying because of his eyesight. What I see is a mother who loves him and is concerned, a grandmother that will accept and love him unconditionally. It won't make things right with his eyesight but it says alot for him already. With just those 2 simple things he will be alright in the long run. Whenever anything happens to a young child the support he recieves from his family could make all the difference in the world. I'm keeping little Landry in my prayers on the smoke, that creator will give him the tools he needs to survive this.
The reason I said what I did, because although my mother was hearing impaired herself, she wasn't supportive of me. In more ways than one she despised me for my imperfections. I see hope for this little boy and that says alot to me. (Hugs) Indigo
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Oh such sad news...
Special thoughts for Landry and his family....
Linda...
and I didn't know you had ten grandchildren...
4/20/08 6:30 PM
Thanks for your concern and prayers on the smoke. Landry will be fine. He's made it this far without any of us knowing there was a problem. As that is how his life has been, he didn't know a difference, and didn't know to say anything.
It's natural to question ourselves as to why we didn't notice...yet, there was never a clue. This finding doesn't change who he is...an adorable, funny, bright, loving child. He can charm with just his smile. This will be a blip on our radar. We'll make the necessary adjustments, and go forth.
As much as I've said in this post about assuming/taking for granted, I do realize and accept that we're all given trials, for unknown reasons. I'm thankful our family has been blessed with the children who have the special needs, for they are indeed special people.
Love you dear friend.