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Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Subject: The IRS
Time: 3:12:13 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Frustrated
 So I had to call the irs this morning...lucky for me my wait time was short and the person I talked with was very nice...however stupid stupid IRS was not able to process my return and has to start all over because last year when we filed Kevin was the "tax payer" and I was the "spouse" this year I put myself and "tax payer" and Kevin as "spouse" well apparently when you do that it messes with the irs system and it puts up a red flag and until they figure out why the return was filed differently you don't get your money...however I will be receiving my State by Monday..thank goodness! I called the bank today my rent check was returned...so hopfuly it does not come back through again for at least a couple of days. So I wonder what is next bad luck usualy happens in three's!!LOL
Hope all is well I miss all my journal buddies...come back!!!!
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Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Subject: Hello All
Time: 10:52:41 AM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Anxious
Music: Wonder Pets (NickJr)
Hello all...
AJ you are totally right..plus now we do not have a computer so he can't check up on me anyway..plus back then when we were having issues with my journal and other stuff I had changed my password..LOL!!
Well I done messed up again...I called my bank today to check my balance and as of 12:00 today I will be overdrawn $404 yuck my rent check bounced...I figured he would wait to cash it as he always does and he did not. Friday my direct deposit for my taxes should go through and all will be ok but I did not want to bounce a check..in the end though it was my responsiblilty not to write a check I could not cash...now it is dealing with my landlord and the bounced check fees on his end...hopfuly his bank will put it through twice and then I will not have to write another check to him....I hate these ruts I get into...It is not like we are even wasting money any more it is just soooo hard to keep up with bills. Waiting on this stupid tax refund is all great but once all our bills are paid then that will be all gone..no fun this year!! It just sucks being broke with no money to our name.
On a happy note Elisia had her birthday party this past weekend I let her invite 5 girls from school. We played limbo, the egg walk and crossword race game..the girls had fun we made homemade individual pizza's had cake and the kids went home!!
Our car broke down a few weeks ago and we put the car my mother is selling us on the road. So we now drive a 2001 Dodge Intrepid...I like it but it is a gas hog compared to my little 4 cylinder Kia Spectra. So that is the first thing that will be paid with my taxes. Then since we are almost out of fuel oil and have been adding 5 gallons here and there we are going to put like $200 worth in plus pay off two months worth of rent and oh yeah Kevin's back child support will be paid also then guess what we are broke as a joke! My luck we will end up not getting our refund back on Friday like expected cause we will get audited for some stupid reason!!
Ok enough is enough..hope everyone is having a great day, talk to you later
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Thursday, January 3, 2008
Subject: Good Mornig
Time: 8:46:03 AM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Happy
Wow, I forgot how good journaling used to make me feel....I always looked forward to the comments...Kind of like your own little support network.
I will have to read back in my own journal to find out where I left off....in the end Kevin was not to fond of me having a journal cause he felt like I was attacking him in a way...and I could not understand the big deal...I don't know anyone personally or I should say in person...I need to vent and would rather on people who do not need to like Kevin than on lets say my mother or my sisters....I would hate for them to hear how I feel when I am at my angriest-sp? I guess what he does not understand is we all need a way to vent and my journal was my way and to have support and guidance from someone outside of the box is nice....in a way this journal allows me to still wear a mask but I can openly and honestly express how I feel with out caring what others think...and in the end, I end up with great friends and positive advise....
But I am going to go do some catching up on everyone's journals....this will probably take days...LOL!!!
Daniella
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Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Subject: I'm back...as long as I can find my Journal again!LOL!
Time: 2:23:14 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Hopeful
Music: nadda
OMG I am so happy to be back...hopfuly you guys will find me again on the off chance that you may have me on alert still!!! Oh how I have missed my Journal you don't even know!!! I will start with the new and work my way back to old as short and as sweet as I can. So I am baby sitting now...I have use of the computer and the little ones are sleeping so I have a break. I live in Hammond now...I like it some what..I mean it is better than BInghamton but I am not as happy as I thought I would be...ah oh well my kids are in the best environment I can offer them and they love it!!!
Kevin and I are ok rocky as usual money is always the issue...living in the middle of know where it is kind of tough to find a good job...that is why I am babysitting..the money isn't great but at least I am happy and I get to have my kids with me while babysitting. Kevin just started a new job after being laid off from construction....the money sucks but these people are willing ot train him for his CDL so I look at it as an investment into our future...
Ok so I am going to do some digging around and find the rest of you!!!
Love always,
Daniella
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Thursday, February 8, 2007
Subject: Really Quick
Time: 4:10:50 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
I will not be receiving alerts for your journals for 72 hours. I had so much spam mail going into my yahoo account bulk folder that I have set the settings to automaticaly delete as the spam enters. Unfortionatly yahoo views aol journal alerts as spam and I don't know how to change that...bottom line I switched my email address to receive alerts so that way I don't have to fish throgh over 250 email per day to find them!
Hope that made sense..so I will still visit your journals if I have them saved in my favorites bar on my computer!
Daniella
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Subject: I need to vent about Secretary "B"
Time: 1:25:23 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Frustrated
I am getting to the point at work where I don't care anymore but I do. See working for two firms makes it hard because the one firm I love working for and want to be all I can be but the other one I could give two...well you know! Anyway, it is reflecting in my attitude and well I am about to just start getting sarcastic when needed. Secretary "B" has always been bitchy, it is just her personality anyway I have always overlooked it why because this is my job and I don't want to start any beefs here I like a happy environment. But I was talking and she just interrupted me with "Ok, whatever" ummm do that to me in the real world, you will receive a toung lashing you can't handle I would make her cry! All I am is nice to everyone here. I do not cause conflict and well I go out of my way BIG TIME to make life easy on everyone. I don't mind either why because it is making someone happy and I don't mind doing it! I don't even know where I am going with this just that she needs to knock her attitude down a few notches cause I am about to say something to her about it!
But as I write I am able to calm down and look at things in a bigger picture I am extremely exhausted dealing with a commen feminine problem that comes with taking an anti-biotic..yeah I did not want to really go there!! LOL! Plus Paige (my 19 month old) has been sick these last three nights..mind you all day eating and fine but abotu 3:30-4:00 a.m.different story. First night was just puke, next night was just aweful but she did go on the potty, only cause that is where I put her..I was not trying to change that diaper!!LOL! Last night was a combination of both...I told while she was sitting on the potty at 4:00 a.m. "that we have got to stop meeting like this" LOL! Not that she understood me but I thought it was funny! So of course today..I have problem "A" which I told ya then lack of sleep plus I have what Paige has just not puking..so yeah I am pretty miserable!!!! LOL! Hungry but can't eat cause I don't wnat to feel sicker!
Why isn't it Friday yet huh? can some explain to me?
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Monday, February 5, 2007
Subject: Full of ideas...job starting to get on my nerves!
Time: 3:57:48 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Happy
Arlene, I wanted to post today..and you know I think your comment pushed me to the "actual posting point!!" LOL!!!
I have been wanting to write but have been at a loss of words..you know what I mean. I can't even comment right in other journals..I need to start though before you all think I have not been reading!
Work ahhhh...I love my job I have always loved my job and never have I had a problem. And well in a way I still don't but yeah I do! Let me go back about a month, I close files it is not part of my job but it is a job I took on. Well the big guy's (my boss...the one that all descions go through) wife who is like our office manager was looking for a file, a file I had not closed yet and had issues finding it (in other words it took her more than a min of her time to find) well I get a email from her saying that she was unable to find a file cause it was on the "to be closed" shelf and now I need to report to her daily my status of files closed. Are freakign kidding me. First of all I work for two law firms...I look at the attorney's as my bosses, but now little miss wifey who really has no pull in the office wants me to report to her my progress. So I did like a good little worker and now all of the files are closed. So I was a little mad to say the least not because I was told what to do but who told me...she is not my boss and she walks around this office with a power trip!! Kevin tells me basicaly I am the only one in the office she can get away with acting like the boss to..and he is right!!
Ok so lets speed this up to last Friday. We have a meeting at 8:00 with the computer tech people and I decide I don't want to be there..I am not getting paid for it so I am not going needless to say I still had to attend because again Wifey came out of the meeting asking me to join so I had to let the other firm know they needed to answer their own phones to go sit in there and not say a word cause again the meeting really had nothing to do with me and it had all to do with technical problems that I do not experience. Either way who cares well then all of the attorney's and Wifey were left in the confernece room and guess who got the pleasures of staying.....ME! First part of the agenda was how Kevin calls too much. Ok I can live with that no biggie you are right and no I should not be taking personal calls at work unless it is an emergency, but lets looks at the flip side for a min...I was told that the attorney's had a talk with the other secretaries about personal calls too. Again I was feeling at fault and happy to hear the other secretaries were spoken with also since they receive personal calls all day too. So since the beginning of the day Secretary "A" has received 3 personal calls all lasting between 5 min-15 min and Secretary "B" has received like 5 personal calls lasting about 5 min. But yet I can't take calls from my husband who is home with my kids all day that crap really pisses me off! Anyway back to the meeting, I was then told how the attorney's realize that I do not have one specific go to and that the secretaries do not have someone to go to specificaly to bitch about me so guess who my go to person is...guess really..give up that freaking boss wanna be "Wifey" are you freaking kidding me, first of all I can't get along with her on that level..in ways we are way too much alike...both Virgo's!! Her idea of organizing and how to do work is way different than mine but yet we both have strong personalities and it is hard to disagree with either one of us! Anyway it is a conflict for me and I do not take kindly to being told what to do or I should say how to do things. In my opinion I think you should be able to do things the way you want to and if the end result is the same then no biggie! So anyway now "Wifey" wants me to give her a list of tasks that I handle in the office so "she can coordinate it for me and figure out how "we" can get the work done in the mose efficent mannor" (just answered the phone at work to pass along another personal call to Secretary "B" whats that make 6 calls today) The rest of the meeting was great full of complements...I ahve noticed my bosses like to bring me down and then bring me back up again with kindness. I think they could tell I was upset..I am thinking my eyes watering gave them their first clue..the min they told me "wifey" was going to be my "boss" my whole expression changed...I know it was obvious!! I remember about 2 1/2 years ago wearing in a pair of blackjeans well they were faded in teh front..boarder line dressy but still jeans. Anyway Secretary "A" & "B" saw me in jeans and I swear did one of those look at you from top to bottom...never guess what an email went aroudn a few days later saying that there are to be no jeans and that this is a small office and we can't dress down here that we need to look professional at all times..blah blah blah..well guess who wears jeans at least once a week if not twice or more...Secretary "A" & "B" pretty shitty if you ask me. If it is not obvious it is me they have a problem with..the only reason why I have a job is because all of my clients love me...all of the attorney's say it that they are always getting complements back from clients about me. So yeah lets just say I am pretty upset about how I am treated one way and the other secretaries can do what they want. On the other hand (and this is what keeps me going) I look at it as I am the only one working here and in a professional environment those rules would have been manditory day 1 and there would not have been a meeting I could have lost my job...so taht is that!
Back to good news....Kevin and I have decided...seriously decided to move up north where my mother lives. Not until June of 2008 though. I do not want to pull my kids out of school mid year so June it is and June of 2007 is way to soon! My grandfather still has 6 acres left across the road from my mother. Kevin and I may get a used double wide trailer to put on there. Or we may just look for a house on at least an acre in town. Yeah it is really gonna suck leaving here because I have lived here for so long..but I think once I get up there and am around positive people then everything will work out. Like up there Kevin and I will be able to go out to dinner and not have to worry about a babysitter for our girls, something we have not done now for 2 years..sick right..we do not do anything together at all we never get out if we do it is with kids or on our own but never jsut me and him. We have friends around here but then we don't. We never get any visitors people hardly ever call and for that matter his family around here are useless to us..I won't even get into his mother...all if this has a very negative impact on our lives. Granted Kevin is taking pills now and things are sooo much better, but they would be even better around non-negative influences...And as for me..I will be me again able to chit chat with my sisters again. I miss them I miss my "real" friends up there I miss my mother and all of this would be soooo positive on my kids. Cause they know that their own grandmother (meaning Kevin's mother) does not want them around cause she has no problem making them feel that way. My sisters my friends or my family would never treat my kids that way. My kids need family around them that love them..up north that would be available to them. Not to mention schools don't get me wrong drugs and crime and garbage is everywhere..however in a small farming town it is not as commen or as thick as say Bingaling where I live!
I have been searching jobs up there and have been finding some perfact fits...that was my only hesitation to moving up there...finding a job!!! The pay is the same and the job would be an extra 15 min drive..no biggie to me cause they at least know how to plow the roads up there!!!
Ok I think this has gotten long enough!!LOL!
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
Subject: It has been a while....
Time: 2:01:00 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Happy
What prompted me to write in my journal was sweet Miss. Shelly!! She just commented!!! :0)
So here it goes..alot has happened well little stuff but all interesting I think anyway.
Remember a few entries back I was talkign about Kevin's mothers dog. Well his hips got really really bad it seemed over night. Then one day he had a seizure well at least that is what I think and just stopped eating unless it was non dog food and stopped drinking water. I even tried to get him to lick it off my hands and nothing. So Eddie Jo made the appointment. The doctor did not even have to give him an exam to see if he was ready he just could tell by looking at him. So now it is just Rocky her black lab puppy! Eddie Jo handled it well, she broke down at the vet and that night and well I think seeing that Buster is much happier and no longer in pain has helped alot. She is not so stressed anymore about him falling or just getting hurt or breaking a bone. All of that stress has been released!
On a happier subject my friend April had her baby at 28 weeks gestation. The baby only weighed 2lbs 9 oz. on Dec. 12 well as of a couple of days ago this little piglet weighed a little over 4 pounds!! He is sooo cute they have taken all of his monitors off so you can actualy see his face now. I have not met him yet but I have seen tons of pictures! The only real complication he had was he was anemic and they had to do a blood transfusion...but let me tell you that is when he started to pork up!! Once he is eating out of a bottle and not a tube and doing 100% wiht it he can come home. Crazy thing is this baby's due date is not until the end of Feburary.
Staying on happy notes here...We filed our taxes and they are already spent...but it was fun while it lasted!! Bills are paid, my car is back on the road all is going good I even got a few outfits out of the deal!!LOL!
Not everything is perfact at home but we are getting on a more positive road..so its a start!
Love you all and thank you for always supporting me!!
Daniella
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Subject: More level headed
Time: 2:26:24 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
It's crazy how other peoples lives could sadden you so much and you never even met them. A fellow journaler has opened up and just let out alot of deep inner feelings...I care about this person so much, it is this persons journal that I would go to to bring a smile to my face now the inner side is coming out and I hate to see this person hurting inside....you know how some people you just wish you could take it all away for them and just provide happiness forever and always...well I would love to do that for this person. I just feel so sad now.
On the other side..my reality, well people I decided this I am not leaving him, I can't bare the thought. I have realized I have some changing to do and no it is not my fault stuff happened the way it did but at the same time I did not help situations. I am not a very emotional person, honestly I would rather just go to my own room and not be bothered by anyone. I lost that love for Kevin a long time ago and I don't know why or how. I have pushed him away over and over and over again, most of our fights start out because I have pushed him away again. See in life all Kevin has looked for is love and yes he expects more from me but it is because he is lacking it everywhere else. We have decided to just start living our lives for us...so far so good. Really it has feld different, maybe inside I needed this to show myself that I really did love him...I know I used to question my love for him. I am not giving up on 7 years or a marriage this easily. We decided to cut his mother out of our lives all together. She does nothing but bring us negativity. Last straw was Sunday when she wanted to scream on me cause of what her son did to me. She even threatened to slap me....I told her well come over and bring it..that way you can be arrested for putting your hands on me in my own house. I reminded her how she treats her grandkids and her dog like crap when she has no weed..oh did I forget to mention she was a pot head..yeah big time I mean a true crack head for the stuff....example a few weeks ago she got mad at Kevin telling him how he was not her son she does not love him anymore and so much as told my little girl that her father is mean why cause she had not pot. She will go to bed mad early if she has no pot...itis crazy and I can't live with that addiction next to me anymore. Kevin and I have alot of negativity that surrounds us daily some we cause some from outside influnences. I am just done dealing with it, I just want my family and nothing else. I want to smile again daily and nothing else
I know some of you may be thinking oh this girl is dumb how could she stay with a man that tried to cheat on her and fights with her, but I guess being in my shoes and seeing it for yourself you may have a different opinion..to know the Kevin I know you may have different opinion. Kevin is not a bad person he was just dealt a messed up hand in life. Something he has to work on himself. Yes counseling is in the near future for the both of us. For now he has his pills...3 weeks now...I can see changes, but its not perfact..but I guess a pill can't do that.
So jsut know that my house has been happy and calm and children have been smiling since Christmas Eve night. I have actuly kissed Kevin in a way I haven't for a few years now..we sit on the couch and talk now...I havent done that with him in forever and that has been part of his bitch for months...and part of the reason..I think anyway why he went looking for love online I think just to validate he still has it and it is me that has the problem...do you understand where I am going with this basicaly if ther eis no love at home then you look for love elsewhere...I believe that both ways and all kevin tries to do is love me and I keep pushing him away telling him I am tired or don't touch me or one little peck here. I am cold hearted I am and I have been learning to change that..I hope it works out for us I do..I know if it does not it is not because of lack of trying!
Thank you everyone for your kind words and help...I really lost it this past weekend..and to my new friend..thank you for yoru comment and thank your friend who sent you my way!
Love,
Daniella
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Subject: Been a while..my yearly review...and Christmas...
Time: 2:12:20 PM EST
Author: daniella12800
Mood: Happy
Been a while....sorry I have not written..haven't really felt like it I guess. So all is well with Kevin..I don't even want to get into it, but thank you for all of your advice!!
Well I am done with my Christmas shopping..not as much as last year but still a good Christmas. I went to Boscov's and they were having great sales...50% off tons of toys. I bought quite a bit there!
So I had my short yearly review and will hvae a longer one once Kurt is available to speak with me. I guess everyone is happy with me no complaints, I am getting a raise not sure what yet but I will be..however there is an issue with my sick time. Yep I knew it was coming!!LOL! I have taken quite a bit of sick time. I don't mean to it just kind of happens that way. But I will suck it up and deal with it...cool thing is Kurt is so calm and easily spoken to, so even though he will be speaking to me about my sick time he will still not be a jerk about it. Hugh is the one that gave me the short review..he is leaving for out of town and wanted to speak with me prior..now I have to wait for Kurt.
Lets see, oh my friend April's baby is still doing really great!!! THe doctors and nurses are all shocked at how well he is doing...not your typical baby!!!
I just can't wait until Christmas. Elisia wanted the Bratz Fashion Head sooo bad. Lucky for her most bratz stuff is on sale right now. I bought her lots of stuff bratz.
Ahhh now see I am startign to stress about my damn attendance....I always pull the negative and dwell on it..I should just be happy I am getting a raise and they are happy with me...I guess that is my perfectionist side coming out.....does not happen too often.LOL
All my gifts are wrapped. I finished up last night. What I have been doing really is wrapping them as I buy them. Now all I have left is the stocking stuffers and a bed set for Jessica. So I guess I am almost done not all done. I bought Jessica a lava lamp and this really coollight for her bedroom! Oh yeah..shoot I have to get her a stupid gift card for Napster so she can record songs on her MP3 player her mother bought for her. Let me tell you this Christmas is breaking me!!LOL!
OMG the most important thing. I work for two firms right now that is why I have two people talking to me for my year end review. Anyway the one firm has 3 attorney's I guess one of the attorneys is retireing in about a year...and the other two attorney's are not sure what they want to do. Meanign stay here or go to another office or what. He is telling me this now so later it is not a surprise. I think it will help me alot only having to work for one firm. In a way I look forward to it. Not because it will be less work but because the two firms do not get along very well..I mean yes they are civil but you feel the tension..if ya know what I mean. So basicaly if I am away from my desk for the one firms stuff and do not get to the other firms phone I feel bad..now I can leave my desk and do what ever I need to do and not worry about pissing the other firm off. Not that anything has ever been said, but I just feel bad!
Ok enough rambeling!!! Hope all is well with everyone!!!
Love,
Daniella
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