The Sailor's Wife

I guess that today was just not or day!  First I was up until after 3 am with insomnia.  Then I dont know what I was thinking  at 2 am when I decided to take a prescription sleep aid.....Because I just wanted to sleep all day.  Unfortunatley my duties as a wife and mommy did not allowed to sleep past 9am. James was bouncing around this morning wanting Sausage Biscuits and Gravy.  He was having a bad craving I guess cause he was no caring that I was a walking Zombie. 

So I basically have been a crabbey abbey all day long. Not to mention that the first thing I see after I woke up was some smart ass email.  Now I am not sure if it was supposed to be funny yet sarcastic or just Bitchy.  None the less......being as it was the first thing I saw it really pissed me off.  Sometimes I am just so tired of trying to read people and walking on eggshells all the damn time hoping not to upset them further. And I am obviously not good with boundries like "be here for me today and the not again for a week or until I need you again."  James says I just put too much of myself into relationships and I need to take a giant leap backwards. 

On a side note.....tempura night was awful.  Not sure what happened but it was not like last time at all.  Oh well...maybe next time.  The only good thing that came out of today was the APPLE DUMPLINGS that was posted on Pioneer Woman and Full Bellies.  OMG!!!!!  They are sinful!   Easy and Quick.  Of course......I had to change a few things and put my own stamp on it!  I added extra apples by cutting up an extra 2 apples and tossing them all over the top after putting it all together.  YUMMMMMMMMM

Everyone loved it!  This is for sure going in the family cookbook!  I highly recomend this to everyone!  Everyone needs to go get the recipe, buy the ingredients and take 5 minutes to make it and feverishly wait until it's done...then dig in! 

My other website is still not up and running so for now it will just sit and wait for a miracle. I agreed with James that if it is not up and running by the time the next billing cycle comes for it, then I should let it go.  Every day it cost money and when it is not up and running it is a waste of money.  He is right. 

I am feeling kinda blah lately and just getting really tired of things. Not sure why. I know one thing for sure though.  I am sick and tired of LIARS and USERS. Why do people feel the need to lie to me? It is so many people not just one so obviously I am the common denominator.  I am really taking a good look at myself and stepping back for a while to see what I am doing wrong and how I can fix the situation.  And ya know what...I am sick of always being in people's lives when it suits them and their needs. I do belive it is time to re- evaluate all the relationships in my life again. Spring cleaning for the soul of sorts.  I mean sometimes you just wonder why you hold on to a relationship when you are not getting anything out of it but grief? Some relationships are like seasons and when you try to hold onto them past the season things just get messy. 

I just need a BREAK.......

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• #4 Comment from my3gifts 
  3/4/08 12:22 PM | Permalink

  That looks awesome! As for the friend thing, there are friendships that are simply put seasonal and it's hard to let them go or to just accept that for some that's all you have, seasons. Some are worth those seasons some are not and that's what you have to decide if it's worth being available or not. You're in my prayers over that decision, I've had to make it a few times and it's absolutely not easy.
  
  God Bless
  Christy
• #3 Comment from glensfork4 
  3/3/08 10:06 AM | Permalink

  That looks delicious!!! I am going to go find the directions.
  
  
  Michele
  
• #2 Comment from dondieroy 
  3/3/08 9:09 AM | Permalink

  Those pictures made me so hungry !! I need that recipe??  
  Hope you have a great Monday.
  Dondie
• #1 Comment from breakaway1968 
  3/3/08 5:42 AM | Permalink

  Your so right about the seasonal friendships. I have some of those hanging around...the good thing...I think they feel  the same way so we live through our season and then wait for the next season to come along.  Sometimes it's very sad though and  it always makes me wonder if I'm just  a sucky friend to them that they only want to come around every once in a while! So I really see your point with that one.  
  
  OK the apple thing looks divine!  I'm going to check that recipe out.  HOpe your able to get some extra sleep today!!!  Seems like many Jlanders were not getting sleep last night!