A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery

Day 179

Ahhh the joys of parenting..The kids are up, Shy-anne had a 2 hour delay becasue of the snow so instead of having 3 kids home, I had 4 kids. She finally got on the bus and now its just the other 3 fighting and screaming, whinning and yelling...grrrr...Ok God take over.

I read something last night in my little red book which you may or may not have read. It's put out by Hazelden and is often used in A.W.O.L's. It really breaks down the big Book in detail and if you use it with the big book and the 12 step book, you can get a pretty good idea of how it all makes sense. So anyway I had started over at the beginning and I came across this...

In regards to step 1....admit you can't take it (alcohol). Consider your inability to take it or leave it alone, remember your inability to leave alcohol alone in the face of impending disaster. If you drink, it defiantely marks you an alcoholic....Hmmm

Step one is one that I do not question anymore, havent for a the past 5 months. I know that I am powerless over alcohol and my life was unmanageable. hence my journey back to recovery. but boy oh boy had I read that page oh say 1 yr ago, I would have 1 yr on Monday....well maybe. lol

I like that page a lot, because its so true. When my life was unmanagable I drank...but i drank to escape it and in turn only made it more unmanagable by the things I did...Insanity

So Im looking forward to this afternoons meeting...a round robin on whats good about today...and what is good about today? Well for me its that I am in recovery and this program is all starting to make perfect sense to me. I know that no matter what if I just keep pluggin along and trying to do the next right thing, it will only get better, cus it certainly cant get worse when your trying to do the right thing...well unless you take your will back. RIght? Im happy, healthy and free..I have 4 kids who have the ability to fight (their healthy) and drive me nuts, but Im grateful as Im learning patience.

Have a great day everyone :)

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• #1 Comment from doran5gs 
  2/11/05 5:40 PM | Permalink

       doughgirl, i can't believe the strenght you have in your writings.  i just started reading yours.  jeeeezzz o petes. i'am comming up on 6 months and the gifts i have gotten so far in recovery are truely a gift from god. that i know. your very blessed to have what sounds like 4 beautiful kids, doing what kids do. i always wanted children in my life, but, i guess it wasn't ment to be. i guess that is why i get along with children so well. i treat them like my own. they are gifts from god. if your children grow up to be like you are in recovery today the world will be a better place. keep the faith, be strong and god will find a way. p.s. i sent a note regarding the words to "holy water". POWERFUL ...TAKE CARE, GOD BLESS, DORAN.