Insanity Isn't The Disease, It Is A Symptom

3:40:57 AM EDT
Feeling Quiet

 Well, the Sister comes home today and as I mentioned before, Doug was summoned to the airport to meet her with their dad. I am hoping and praying that she will be announcing that she is moving to Europe. But my luck isn't that good. LOL. Yesterday was a lazy day of sorts, I did laundry for me.

Well, today I sent my first fax from my printer. It says that it was successful, I hope so as it was paperwork for my student aid! But it was pretty easy, the hardest thing was plugging the phone line in to the printer. It is nice to know that I can fax now.. Just in case, you know?

It stormed pretty good last night/ tonight. I had to shut down the computer for a bit it was so bad. Not that we don;t need the rain, well, some places don't but it isn't that bad here. Funny, still haven't heard from the Warden. Hmmm. He's such a jack ass anyway and I am a jackass for buying into his mind game. I know better. Oh well.

Ithink that this is it for now... Ciao!

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7:34:52 AM EDT

This movie was very gritty and realistic. They shot it on the streets of Boston where the book that it was adapted from took place. They even used real people who were not actors in this movie.

This is a movie about a little girl that goes missing. Through out the film there is a running commentary on how we are not protecting our children. This movie is not for children to see.

I am very impressed with the ensemble cast in this movie, Casey Affleck, Morgan Freeman, and Ed Harris to name a few. There are people in this movie that you will recognize from other movies and possibly T. V.

This movie being Ben Affleck's directorial debut, I would have to say that he hit this one out of the park. He is an amazing director and got amazing performances out of his cast.

Once you think that you have the movie figured out, it throws you a curve. It in some ways is a bleak movie but definitely worth watching. Casey Affleck in his first major role was so good in this part, he really is believable as the main character.

If you can handle watching this it is a great movie. Although it is sad and there are parts that will make moms cry. I know because I did.

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4:22:44 AM EDT
Feeling Quiet
Hearing My MP3 Player~ all 472 songs

Hey all..... Well, as I have said previously last week was hell on Earth for me and I am trying to move on from that. Mentally, I am still having issues with some things that happened, but physically I am glad that last week is over! The Sister comes back from Europe on Tuesday. And her majesty has commanded Doug to be at the airport with his dad when he goes to pick her up. <sigh>

I have no idea why above the " I want to talk to you" that she said. So I am thinking that I may sit this one out. I have school going on and I am in week 8, so one more week to go and my classes are over and I start new ones.

I have Gone Baby Gone to watch, maybe I will do that this morning because if I wait on Doug, I will never see it! So, I will probably do that this morning and then I will let you know how it was.

This Sam has really hurt me. Well, thrown me for a loop mostly. I am not sure what I am going to do with that. I am still thinking about the email that I am going to send... We will see... Well, I think that I am going to go.... Ciao!!

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6:46:06 PM EDT
Feeling Inquisitive

Balance is something that I strive for everyday in my life. Sometimes I get it and everything works out perfectly and sometimes I miss the mark and everything falls apart so easily. This last week has been hellish on me because of the Warden in Florida ( yep, I am back to calling him that) and because I lost a good friend, now Sam is not dead, b ut he is out of my life.

First of all, I will explain about Sam. This last week, he has done things that I am confused about and I am not willing to go into them here. He has not contacted me at all. Hasn't even left a email that says I am okay. Nothing. Silence. So, I am sending one last email sometime this week and then I am moving on. Although I am not as crazy as to think that will be easy because it will not be.

I have been so very stressed out this last week, so much so that it is affecting my mental processes. I hate feeling this way and somehow this week I have to find balance again. That place where everything works and I am not so stressed that I can't concentrate on anything.

Saturday I sent out a $50 payment to child support. Just so I could say that I am trying and I feel better. The fact is though, I am really pissed off about this whole situation with the Warden though. He has been on unemployment in Florida. For a while, and keeps saying that there are no jobs, but, I know that there are, but he doesn't want to do them because he thinks that he is too good for them or that they won't pay him $15 an hour. Even with my skills in Customer Service and Retail and having been in Management, I won't even get $15 an hour. Not even there. So that part pisses me off, then for him to sit there and tell me that he is on my side, when all the while he is pushing them to put me in jail. Yep, I found that out this weekend too.... From a good friend of mine in Florida.

So I am working on balancing my life out again. I have to get rid of the toxic things that will make me sick and hold on to the things that are good for me. That is hard to do sometimes though. Especially when I have history with some of the people that I have to get out of my life. Hopefully this week will be better.....Ciao!!!

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3:47:18 PM EDT
Feeling Chillin' 1. Do you like bleu cheese??  Depends. On what it is in or on
2. Have you ever smoked?? Yeah for like a minute then I got sick (I have asthma) 

 3. Do you own a gun?????  Nope, but I will soon....
4. What was your favorite Kool-Aid flavor?? Cherry or grape
 5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?Oh yes! I worry that the DR. will be mean....
6. What do you think of hot dogs?? I like Kosher hot dogs, but not really the regular ones
7. Favorite Christmas movie?? I don;t really have one
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?? Pepsi or sweet tea
 9. Can you do push ups?? yes, but not the Marine variety
10. Who's your favorite neighbor? I hate my neighbors
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My Solddiers' Angel Dog Tag necklace

12. Favorite hobby?? wow, I have a lot... reading, blogging, cooking, baking..... You get the point
 13. What station is your radio on in your car right now?? Prolly some sports talk as Doug was the last one in the car
14. Do you have A.D.D.?? Sometimes
15. What's one trait you hate about yourself? I get emotional way too easy
16. Middle name? Elizabeth
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
1.) Yay I am done with assignments for school!
2.) What is going on with my friend Sam
3.) I really need a nap
 19.Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Pepsi, Tea, and lately lemonade
 20. Current concern?? Finding a job and not going to jail, oh and Sam
21. Current hate right now? My ex in Florida
 22. Favorite place to be?  in bed reading
23. How did you bring in the New Year? spent it with Doug watching T.V
24. Where would you like to go? camping in Gaylord
25. Name three people who will complete this? Have no idea....
 26. Do you own slippers?? yes! Linolum floor in the computer room is cold!
27. What shirt are you wearing? my tie dyed Sloppy Joe's Key West tank top

 28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?No I slid out of bed the last time I tried that
29. Can you whistle??  on a good day
30. Favorite color? blue, black, and pink
31. Would you be a pirate? as long as I could have a cool ass pirate name
32. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don;t
35. What's in your pocket right now? no pockets right now
36. Last thing that made you laugh?? an email from a friend
37. Best bed sheets as a child??  My flowered sheets that I loved
 38. Worst injury you've ever had?  broken heart,I would have to agree or the time my ex husband used a baseball bat on the back of my head.
39. Do you love where you live? no
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?  2
41. Who is your loudest friend? don;t know
42. How many dogs do you have? none
43. Does someone have a crush on you?? i wish
44. Guilty pleasure? watching 80's movies
45. What is your favorite book?  I have sooo many!
46. What is yourfavorite candy?? peanut butter cups
47. What is your favorite football team?don;t have one
48. Favorite brand of jeans? Old Navy brand
 49. What were you doing at 12 a.m.?  Sleeping
 50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? I have an assignment to do for school......



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9:17:11 AM EDT
Feeling Thoughtful

Yesterday was nice.... I went to my "interview" and I am hoping that I get a call back here soon for a second one. I have a $50 payment for child support ready to go into the mail this morning. So, that is good... We really didn't do much yesterday, Doug worked the night before and didn't get any sleep before I went to turn in my resume, so when we got home he went to bed and I have a TON of work to do which I am so happy to report that I got finished.

I finished my rough draft for my paper and I got my paper on the theory of love finished and my grammar exercises. Whew! It was a lot, I still have one more assignment that is due on Sunday.

My friend Amanda turned me on to this webs site called Pandora. It is an Internet radio site that is free, you put in a favorite song or artist and they create a whole station with music like that. You can rate songs and they are not supposed to play the ones you don't like. It is really cool!

Last night we went to American Pie, this all you can eat pizza, pasta, and salad buffet for dinner. It was not busy so it was nice.It was really good too.... Hope you had a good day!!

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10:05:24 PM EDT
Feeling Irritated

So it must be a month for the ex's to be jerks. Mine is trying to pull something and I am not exactly sure what it is. He called me on June 30th at 6:30pm asking if I knew that I had a court date here in Michigan for child support on July 1st. I was like, no I haven;t gotten any paperwork on it or a phone call. Everyone knows where I am, so it isn't like they sent the paperwork to the wrong place. Then he calls me on July 1st and asks if I went to court. I had no idea where it was what time it was or who to call about it. Now the messed up thing is that he is saying that HIS caseworker in Florida is calling him telling him that I have a court date and all this information. Supposedly. So, now he was telling me that it was a contempt hearing, well, if it was I was not notified, so how am I supposed to know about it and show up? The last few days have sucked as I have been nervous about this. But if the choice is to go to jail here or go back to him, I will go to jail here.

Then later I will play my trump card with the kids, I will tell them both that their dad PUT me in jail. He claims that he is on my side, but I don't believe that anymore, I think that he is pushing them to arrest me. Which pisses me off.

So there is good news though. I have to take my resume in on Friday and talk to a lady about a job. Hopefully I will get it and I can deal with him. I also am borrowing $50 to send to Florida to start paying something towards my child support.

I have had $900 taken from me in the form of my tax return and my income stimulus payment this year to go to child support, I am not bitching, it goes to my kids... But when he mentioned that he hadn't gotten the stimulus payment, I was like well, I got a letter and I didn't get it. Then we were talking and I mentioned that it was $300 instead of the $600 that I thought it was, he was like "I thought you said it was $600." So, that shows me that he is behind all of this.

In the first place why would HIS caseworker in Florida call HIM about MY court date? And why did I not get papers on this court date? All of  this is strange.....

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5:32:17 AM EDT
Feeling Grateful Click Image For Full Size Lance Cpl. Julie Martinez Lance Cpl. Julie Martinez, a radio operator with the 31st Marine Expeditionary Unit, checks the communication capabilities during a backload of Marines from Combat Logistics Regiment 3 to the USS Essex June 9.These brave men and women sacrifice so much in their lives so that others may enjoy the freedoms we get to enjoy everyday. For that, I am proud to call them Hero. We Have Every Right To Dream Heroic Dreams. Those Who Say That We're In A Time When There Are No Heroes, They Just Don't Know Where To Look This post is part of the Wednesday Hero Blogroll. For more information about Wednesday Hero, or if you would like to post it on your site, you can go here.

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8:30:39 AM EDT
Feeling Sad

This movie was such a sweet romantic comedy about a woman who has been a brides maid 27 different times and has kept all 27 dresses. I watched this movie this morning and I laughed really hard at some parts and I cried at the end.

If you love romantic comedies you will love this one. Katherine Heigl does such a fantastic job in this movie and James Marsters is really funny and witty as well. Over all, I would definitely watch this movie again. It is good for kids there is a little swearing but not a lot. Truly a good funny movie.....

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