Insanity Isn't The Disease, It Is A Symptom

New Blogger blog

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 03:49:06 GMT

http://insanityisntadisease2.blogspot.com/

Not sure that I will keep this when the other is moved.... but I started it.....

Kind of Tired....

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 03:38:09 GMT

I joined the Nielsen Home Scan panel because well, they give away cool stuff and it is fin. Basically how it works is they send you this scanner thing and you scan the things that you buy and send them the info, in return they give you points for really cool stuff. So, far, I love it and I don't mind it. It is something else to keep me busy... LOL.

So, I decided that since they would be moving this blog that I would continue to journal here up until they move me. I am planning on keeping the same title and my email is the one on the account, so you can find me that way. If I don't get to email you that is. I am tired right now and I am not sure why exactly, oh yeah, cause I got about 4 hours of sleep today. Ugh. One more week of my classes and I will be starting my new ones that should take me right into the Christmas holidays....

I think that this is about it for now.... Ciao!!!

A New Favorite Song & Other Stuff.....

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 08:15:33 GMT

I have found a really good new song that I really love.... Here are the lyrics:

When You Love Someone By: Kid Rock

Oooh..Ooooh
I tell you it will shake the earth beneath your feet
The light that shines will redefine your old beliefs
What you reap is what you sow and so it goes
Where you plant your needs is where your garden grows
Before you think about yourself
Think of someone else, it will make you feel

Each day ain't wine and roses
I doubt it's meant to be
Always a cross to bear salvation don't come free
A heart that beats is a heart that bleeds
And you know that's true
So don't deny yourself of something good for you
Before you do it for yourself, do it for someone else
That makes it real

*Chorus*
'Cause When You Love Someone
It don't matter what you say
When you love someone
You will dance the night away
When you love someone
There ain't nothing you can't do

Ain't that right
Yeah I want to love someone tonight

Will you believe in love or just sit around and judge?
Can you forgive someone or will u hold a grudge?
Cuz above selfishness there lies a bright blue sky
And wealth and happiness can be a long and lonesome ride
Yes it's hard to steer yourself
Without that someone else to take the wheel
Take the wheel

*Chorus*

Do you believe in the art of growing old
Do you believe that rock n roll can save your soul
Do you believe in everything you do
Cuz when you do that's when it all comes back to you
Before you think about yourself
Think of someone else
Do it for yourself
And do it for someone else

When you love someone

So on to the other stuff, I was starting to worry because I was getting a "forbidden" message when I was trying to log into my journal here. So, I was about to send the journals editor an email, although not sure why.... They don't do anything anyway anymore. I miss Joe!!! But all of that is neither here nor there because if he was still here he would be out of a job again... I think that when he left, that should have been a clue to the rest of us.... Oh well, <sigh> ..... I have the song Warrior by Kid Rock that he did for the National Guard, OMG, it is such an amazing song.... If anyone wants it let me know.... The video made me cry, I got to see it when I went to see The Dark Knight.... Anyway, I think that this is it.... Ciao!!!

Blogger Here I Come..... Again....

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 22:40:02 GMT

You know, I am not sure why I was so upset about the Journal thing, well, other than I am attached to it. I do like some change and if the AOL system will copy my journal over there for me, then I am all for it. I am only so tech savvy. So, I am looking forward to opening shop there and meeting new people. I was thinking of maybe creating a web ring of people who are moving from AOL. or even compiling a list to add to a blog log or something. I have checked out Blogger and they have added new features that are pretty cool, such as you can have fans of your blog, that way you can see who is reading it.

I have to say that Blogger has so many features that AOL could only wish for. Such as drafts. How nice will it be to be able to work on an entry and save it as a draft before you publish it??? That way you get it right before you publish.... There are many other features as well.... So we will see.... As soon as my journal has transferred over in the next few days I will put the link here..... Hope to see my readers there!!! Ciao!!

Since It Is Official

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 02:20:34 GMT

Since it is official that AOL Journals will be closing as of November 1st, I guess Insanity is headed to Blogger. I have a couple of blogs there already for different things. One is the SA blog, so at least I will have them all in one place, although different screen names.... I am so saddened by this. I mean, I thought that the Banner issue was bad, but t his is so much worse!!! I just found out about it today and I had no clue, I tried clicking on the banner ad, but it led me to a blank page. I am not sure if I will post here until the move or not, it is something that I have to think about.....

Being Positive..... Not As Easy As it Looks!!

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 10:35:28 GMT

When I was younger, I was not positive at all. I didn't try to be positive, I just was wallowing in my negativity. I was happy that way back then. I always wondered why nothing seemed to go right for me. Uh, stupid, because you are always negative!! My friends would always say " You're so negative" and it never dawned on me back then that it was a BAD thing.

When I finally got to the place where I had to look long and hard at my life to see what I had to change, and I realized that if I changed my out look just a little bit, things looked different to me. I mean not like happy cheerleader kind of positive, but just saying that I was good even though I felt terrible, changed how people looked at me.

Now a days, I say that I am cautiously optimistic. I can't bring myself to be the cheerleader happy, but I am a lot better than I was before. I see the good things and the bad things too, but they are more balanced these days. I have been in the dark home of depression and I have been on the mountain top of happy. I am satisfied being in the middle now. It took a while to get to the middle ground but I find that I fight harder to stay here.

Thank You

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 07:53:27 GMT

First off, I want to thank all of those who have left comments and have emailed me about my brother. In no way have I closed that door, but next time it will have to be him that walks through it. I am sad that his wife would deny us the chance to get to know each other, but there is nothing that I can do about that. She made a decision where she did not know me or anything about me. It is sad and I am sorry that we will have to live with it, at the same time, I am hoping that it shows him something too.

School is good, one more week to go until my current classes are done with. I am also planning an angel get together for local angels with SA on Oct.11th. It should be fun. I am looking forward to it.

Doug has decided to stay home this morning, not exactly sure why... I am not sure who I feel about this. I had a really great conversation with my psychology teacher about what is going on with my brother, and it has helped me alot. I am glad that I had decided to do that. All in all, I am okay and will continue to be okay. I always am.... Thanks for caring everyone!!! Ciao!!!

Moving on....

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 08:18:14 GMT

So, having decided that I have spent enough energy on this thing with my brother I have decided to move on. I am to that point now, where if I stay upset it would be so easy to slide back into a depression and lose focus with school. I can not let that happen, so before it does, I am moving on... Not that it is that easy, but I have to for myself really.

I had a horrible migraine yesterday again. So, I figured that I would kill to birds with one stone with this entry. I am starting a migraine diary, and I figured that this would be the best place for it. Since I am here almost everyday anyway. Yesterday's headache was pretty bad. No nausea, but a little dizziness and sensitivity to light and sound.

School is going well. I am almost done with my Diversity class!! Yay!! My next classes are another psychology class and a history class. I think that it is called the American Experience since 1945. I like history, so I think that it should be fun.

Next month is my birthday. Not sure how I feel right now about that. Yes, I am glad that I am alive to see another birthday. But other than that..... I think that this is it... Ciao!!

Still Angry & Hurt

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 20:01:45 GMT

I know that I should not be surprised that my brother ditched me like he did, but I fell for it. Hook, line and sinker because I wanted to have some of my family back, and for while I did. I guess that I should be grateful that I had him in my life just a little bit more, but I am hurt because after all he did tell me that he wanted to be a brother that I could count on. Yeah, that lasted all of five seconds.

I know that I should not let this get to me, but it does. A lot. I am really hurt and angry about it. I am feeling a profound sense of loss and I am not sure where that is coming from, I guess that it feels like I have lost my family all over again and it hurts as much maybe even more than it did before.

I had whispers in my head not to get to attached and not to let him in so close, but I did not listen to those whispers and now I am sitting here heart broken yet again. I put on a brave face to the world and pretend that it does not bother me, but it does. I knew better and now I am suffering because I believed him.

This is worst than losing any romantic relationship in a lot of ways and the same in some as well. I am sitting here going between hurt and I knew it was coming. It seems that everyone in my life hurts me like this eventually, so this is my fault for believing what he told me and letting him get close....

Caping Trip Pictures

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 16:36:25 GMT

There were not as many trees as I would have liked that were changing colors, most of it was up in the UP ( Upper Penninsula) still, although I found a few tress in the campground that we were at. We went to Clear Lake State Park in Atlanta, MI. It is so beautiful there and the weather was wonderful!! We also took day trips around and some of the pictures are from one of our trips to Mackanaw Island. It was REALLY windy there!! But I managed to get some pretty good pictures of Lake Huron and some boats there. Enjoy!!

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