The Wisdom of a Distracted Mind

Thursday, May 1, 2008
11:15:00 AM CDT Yowza!

I'm in a dreadful mood today. I think it has to do with the fact that everything hurts (as usual), and I am just beat.

I think that's one of the things about living with the constant bite of chronic pain. It's not so much that things hurt. It's the fact that things just don't ever stop hurting. It wears a person out and runs them down, and no amount of coffee can give me the energy I need to trudge through my day while silently hoping that either later in the day, or tomorrow, will be a better day.

The thing is, I'm not tired. Not in the least. I have absolutely no desire to sleep or anything. But, when I dragged my inflamed carcass out of bed this morning, I took the usual inventory of aches, and before my foot found its place in my slipper, there was an col, iron anvil placed upon my shoulders, and I knew that anything I would try doing today would be made more slow difficult by this crushing dead weight of constant pain.

Even reading a book is a chore as, rather than actually concentrating on what's printed before me, my mind sits there chattering like an obnoxious toddler saying Hey! Hey! This hurts. Hey! This hurts! Hey! Hey! This is hurting! Hey! This... ad infinitum.

On the plus side, tomorrow is supposed to be a better day weatherwise. And, I'm hoping that things will improve accordingly.

Right now, however, the bits of my shoulders are grinding together with a sickening cacophony of bone scraping against bone, and the joints are popping with a stomach-churning wet slurp as things just try to find some comfortable equilibrium.

So, I'm off.

I do hope you all manage to enjoy your internets today without me.

-DP


Hey! To help you enjoy your internets today, I strongly recommend you go and check out Rachel's latest poem. She seems to have found inspiration in a picture I took, and I am very flattered that someone with such talent would take a simple photo of mine and add something to make it astounding and more beautiful than I originally pictured.

Thanks, Raitch! I'm both flattered and honored to see my picture placed beside your beautiful words.

Ya rawk!!!1!one!!

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Posted By Dan to The Wisdom of a Distracted Mind at 5/01/2008 10:29:00 AM


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• #5 Comment from sendflowers2me 
  5/2/08 8:39 AM | Permalink

  Dan,
  
  I feel your/my pain.  When I finally got my back loose enough to get out of bed, I had to clean up my new puppy's pee/poop papers from last night's activity, I thought I was going to have to call for help to get back up. (I needed a new Yorkie like another pain in the bones!)  Ah well, anyone interested in a charming four month old Yorkie?
  
  You're right about the weight of constant pain.  Soooo depressing.  The weather?..
  it's a beautiful morning is SW Florida....so I'm not so sure we can blame our aches on that.  But I do know that cold hurts a LOT more ....so why do you live there?
  
  I enjoy your pics and prose every day.  Hope you find the remainder of your day is less painful.
  
  Char
• #4 Comment from dpoemEntry Author 
  5/1/08 5:16 PM | Permalink

  Hahaha...  Thanks Sue.  Brilliant!  
  
  -Dan
  Who needs to eat more bran...  
• #3 Comment from suehertz 
  5/1/08 5:09 PM | Permalink

  Dan
  
  Your words about chronic pain are most honest and true.  It is a fact that things Never ever stop hurting.  And losing my eyesight aint no picnic either.  Ok enough about me I wanted to cheer you up.  I can do that most easily by making a fool of myself, here goes...
  
  Dan
  He's the Man
  Smarter than Stan
  Probably likes Fran
  Can't stand Diane
  Cooks in a Pan
  Uses roll on Ban
  Plays kick the Can
  Turns on the Fan
  Doesnt like Jan
  Been awhile since he Ran
  But loves to CanCan
  Wants Summer so he can Tan
  Drives an old Van
  Needs another ct scan
  His photos does Plan
  Takes pics of a Span
  Wants to go to Japan
  Eats Steak Diane
  Needs to eat raisin Bran
  
  Hang in there Dan
  
  
  
• #2 Comment from luvrte66 
  5/1/08 4:14 PM | Permalink

  If I could, I would smash a beer can on my head to cheer you up, a la Bluto Blutarski, and give you a happy face, like, "Eh? Did you see that?"
  
  I hope it lets up soon.
  
  All my best,
  Beth
• #1 Comment from katerh99 
  5/1/08 2:05 PM | Permalink

  OK, J-landers, put out the word(s) that might cheer Dan up. I don''t know what is going on with the moon, but a lot sure are in pain, physical and/or mental right now.