ELNSR's OVCA and OTHER BLOG

I have always said "never waste a good panic: and that holds today as well.  I know things are going downhill but they still are holding tight to the soil that's left there.  I know this is not depression, thank G-d, as I lived with clinical depression for years.  I see it so plainly gong back now and I recall the signs in my mother.  It is a facing of reality which can be hard but very cathartic. 

Will update you all soon.

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• #2 Comment from reynolds2xtree 
  12/12/07 8:33 PM | Permalink

  Was glad to see your post tonite.  I still wish I was closer so I could put up your christmas decorations.  I got my christmas cards out this week and went shopping for stocking stuffers this afternoon.  The hustle and bustle.  I absolutely hate it.  I enjoy the season and exchanging gifts with family and friends but the stress of it all kinda ruins the whole meaning of christmas.  It is a celebration of the birth of Jesus and what He means in our lives.  
  
  Can I ask you a question?  What do you believe happens to a person after they die?  Are you really fearful right now?  Does Jesus live in your heart?
  
  I continue to pray for you daily.
  
  Take care,
  Tammy
• #1 Comment from jerrykerryas 
  12/12/07 5:40 PM | Permalink

  Ellen,
  I wrote the below a few days back.  I just thought I would repost in hopes you can answer some of it.  My thoughts are with you... often.
  
  POSTED ON DAY YOU WENT TO HOSPICE (before I knew):
  Today I was dagling my feet in the pool (I live in FL) daydreaming and my thoughts went to you as they often do.  It dawned on me that I know very little about you.  I know you are a courageous woman who is facing death with sensibility and honesty.  What can you share with me about you that is distant from your illness.  Like did you ever own a hoola hoop, do the cha, cha or make out at the local drive in?  I don't mean to intrude and since I am such a huge lurker I understand if you prefer not to answer.  It is just that you strike me as avery interesting person.
  -Kerry