ELNSR's OVCA and OTHER BLOG

tryng this

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 11:52:07 GMT

if you can try this, you're alive. it's been up and down. pain is up and down . Insurance co. nowwill not take oxyconton for first visits and only for cancer pain. Also it sounds as jf extended release morphine is out--thank you. I use that.

I hate to tell you what copay is reaching/

Still i remain a certain level of hope. If they take that from us! Weather is settling but subzero. So everyone went to the mall, naturally.

bxe4ro

I will try this

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 22:38:20 GMT

Ignore all typing errors. I shake awfully until maybe a half hour out.

Iam here. I talkd here to the hospice doctor yesterday (NOT) my regular Dr. and asked him about being here for Maille the of April and he said , I hve been amazing in this fight (I hated that term until now and he said that "I'd say it's even right now."

I have had 2.5 days that were goode and am going back again. By back l mean back to crappy. I get up and even putter.

DYING

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 15:21:08 GMT

LAST NITE THEY SAID THRY SEE

Update

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 19:29:22 GMT

Update is not good. The shakiness I get at the start of a session n myopinion is bad today and will take a minute to clear up. It starts out off every session. Starts out with every session now.

I spend a lot of time in bed, sleeping and resting. You lof laz y dogs will understand this. We have wondered what this is I feel it's the beast moving along chomping as it goes, killing good thing as it goes.

Clothes and Updates

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 21:13:28 GMT

The good old days of going to the store for clothes is gone. Also somehow I missed or lost a robe and a nightgown so the excietment there is merely two robes and two nighties so I need't wear the hospice stuff around here.

My cousins have about all my stuff moved out of my prior apartment and given or tossed. SoCousin tells me renters/staff will be able to use some of it.

I really feel lost right now.with having no real home to speak of. Just another rental that real isn't a rental. I get reminded of this pratically daily when I check obituaries and see see someone here die. They do it very quietly, dignified, and respectfully.

Made boo-boo

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 16:03:21 GMT

I am not at home. I am at hospice care care permanently. I do feel better though and even got some new clothes!!

Still missing notes to you

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 21:44:11 GMT

I see my notes don't always work. I don't always work either. I just keep at it. The RN I saw today says I am doing well. I just am tired a lot. I've even gotten up to clean a bit and my company says I look well. Got /christmas cards from Maille, the dog, Her antics would have me in tears laughing so hard. We are having more snow and I hear it's baq. I no longer have to go to the MD--if he wants tests they take them here and the nurses from here bring them. Wishing you all the best. This is a hard road I'm on and I still wonder how it ends.

I see "back notes" bu not ones I wrote.

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 22:39:28 GMT

I see "back home" notes but not the ones I wrote after. I am home--sahky and going downhill. It was spooly. Welcomt to all of you. I know some saw too.

I AM BACK|

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 00:04:26 GMT

i hope that this will take this so I will take it short fjrst. I have moved to hospice as the pain has been unbearable at times. I am adjustiing tt\to the morphine has been worse than the pain. It does work much of the time. I won't see my old MD any more and my aunt is in her rehab with her own problems as well.

Update

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 12:48:47 GMT

Ambulance en route to take me to hospice with acute pain management crisis.