Sometimes I Think

I just wanted to let everybody know, especially those of you who have expressed your concern to me in a special way, that I am not depressed.  I guess some of you all misunderstood after the last entry.  While it has been a little overwhelming lately, I'm doing just fine!  I just wanted to let you all know what was up with me when I wrote that entry.

When I said in my previous entry,  "Sometimes I think the world is going too fast, and I just want to get off", I merely was trying to make a statement similar to this:

I feel like my life is a fast moving train.  It is going faster and faster.  I want it to slow down.  I want to jump off the train and go at a slower pace. 

I of course still want to participate fully in life, just at a slower pace.  Just not be on a train that is running out of control, heading for a train wreck, LOL. 

For anybody who thought I wanted to, oh sheesh, do something drastic, to be out of this world, to not be on this world any longer, to really get off for good, I'm sorry if I confused you.  I would NEVER do anything like that.  Okay, I'll just spit it out.  I'm talking about the S word here.  Suicide.  Yes, I did get asked about that.  Yikies, of COURSE NOT.  I am merely writing this entry in case anybody else was confused.  

I LOVE life.  I'm not depressed right now, I'm fine.  I'm just going through a lot.

Okay enough of this.  I hope this clarifies. 

John's fine too.  He's neutropenic again though.  His immune system is severely compromised.  There's no explanation. 

I don't know why I always talk about his health first.  There's a lot of good things going on in his life right now.  He is really enjoying doing his journal.  And lots of other things.

And I am enjoying lots of fun things too!  And work, LOL.  I had better get back to working on my apartment...

Love you all...

Krissy :)  

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• #24 Comment from kaydeejay5449 
  11/3/07 7:40 PM | Permalink

  You are so sweet!  I couldn't help but smile when I read this entry.  I'm glad you aren't depressed.  I must say, though, you have every right in this world to feel overwhelmed and like the train is going too fast.  My Gosh!  You've been through so much.  I wanted to say, I'll hold your hand while you jump on a slower train.  LOL  I'll pray for things to slow down and mellow out for you and John!
  Hugs, Kathy
  http://journals.aol.com/kaydeejay5449/a-little-left-of-center-ii/
• #23 Comment from jmorancoyle 
  11/3/07 4:42 AM | Permalink

      Been there. Done that. Sometimes it helps just to have the opportunity to as they say, 'smell the roses.' I know exactly where you're coming from.
  Jude
  http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay
• #22 Comment from princesssaurora 
  11/2/07 11:22 PM | Permalink

  I am glad that you are okay... everyone has ups and downs, and you have been having quite a frenetic pace to your life....  Prayers...
  
  be well,
  Dawn
  http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/
  
• #21 Comment from winivere2002 
  11/2/07 10:32 PM | Permalink

  I THINK WHAT YOU'VE GOT IS GOING AROUND. LOL... GLAD YOU ARE DOING OK.
  Win =.)
  http://journals.aol.com/winivere2002/TheGlassBox/
• #20 Comment from merry1621 
  11/2/07 10:30 PM | Permalink

  Krissy, I wasn't worried about you.  I felt you were just being honest and who wouldn't be overwhelmed with all you have to do.  
  
  Sorry to hear about John.  
  
  Love you Krissy,
  Merry