Sometimes I Think

In some ways it seems like we have been married a year because we have had one year, more or less, of normal married life.  The first two years were hospitalization, and outpatient treatment, and trips to Hershey.  And me being too sick to do anything.  So it was like we had one kind of marriage the first two years, and a different kind of marriage this last year.

 

How does it feel being married?  Even though it hasn't been a typical marriage, I am very glad Krissy is my wife .  Being married to her seems natural.  I wouldn't want any other lifestyle than I have right now being married to her. 

 

We have a strong commitment to each other and our marriage.  We must have had a strong commitment, because we survived.  Some other couples would have split up, or wouldn't have gotten married in the first place.  I mean, I was diagnosed with Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma a few months after we started dating, ten years ago, and Krissy stayed with me.  Also, we knew there was something wrong with my health again when we got married, and we still got married anyway.  And she stayed with me through the bone marrow cancer also.

 

Being a lot more healthy this past year has been a challenge to me because I have almost had to redefine our relationship.  For a year and a half I was mostly laying in a hospital bed and  Krissy spent fourteen hours a day with  me in the hospital.  For that year and a half she was my wife and my caregiver.  Now that my health has improved considerably she's still my wife, but she's no longer my caregiver.  And I am trying to be a more normal husband.