Fury's Fiancee

Today is our anniversary.  Rick and I met two years ago today.  It's a good day and then it's not.  The chances that I'll be able to talk with him today are not good.  I didn't get to talk with him for our first anniversary.  I will hope until the clock turns midnight here that I might get to talk with him.  I already do that on a daily basis.  It just means more today.  It's my gender,  we always look at days that are special to us.  Some of the time, Rick hardly knows the date.  He knows a day has passed but he has a hard time keeping track.  I've turned into his calendar, to remind him of holidays and birthdays.  It's a hazard of the trade and an understandable one.  I keep track of the number of days, the months and such.  He doesn't,  he always says that when a day passes it's one more day closer to me.  I wish I could look at it that way.  I keep trying to. 

Today, the missing makes me hurt.  I want to hear his voice so badly,  I think of the minimal thing that I want to happen.  Just to hear his voice is the least that I want.  It seems that over time,  the wanting him here is almost too much to ask for.  It sounds stupid to think that.  I've begun bargaining though, as if I have a leg to stand on to barter for anything.  I think "Ok, if I can't have him here,  then just to talk with him for a little while.".  It's crazy the things you think of.  The crazy things you pray for.  A sign,  the phone to ring,  a text on the cell. 

So, today I'm trying to think of the good.  Everything that Rick means to me.  All the reasons I love my darling man.  There are so many and yet one simple answer,  it's Rick.  A force to reckoned with and yet the most gentle and good hearted person you'll ever find.  I fell in love with his intelligence, his wit and sense of humor,  his big laugh and even bigger heart.  I have the honor and pride of loving this amazing human being.  An even bigger honor and pride in Rick loving me as well.  No matter how independent I am,  I've never needed anyone like I need him.  Or missed anyone as much as I miss him. 

Van Morrison -- Someone Like You

I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.
I've been travellin' a hard road
Lookin' for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin' my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come
Shining through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.

I've been doin' some soul searching
To find out where you're at
I've been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you...

I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different
Drum.
But just lately I have
Realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you...

Never give up, Never give in, Never let go!

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