Fury's Fiancee

The motivation fairy has officially taken vacation here.  This is how bad it is,  I can't seem to remember to make a list of things I've been thinking of doing for the past couple of weeks.  I'm procrastinating on a stupid list of things that I'm apparently procrastinating doing.  I'm not usually a procrastinator.  I'm a doer.  I don't like this change that has cropped up on me every once in a while for the past year and a half.  When I think of things I need to do,  the thought that follows is "I'll do that tomorrow".  Next day comes,  I think the same thing.  It's not that I dread these things.  I just find myself not wanting to do them.  I find myself just wanting to think about other things,  or trying to not think about them at all.  I'd rather think about Rick.  I feel closer to him when I'm thinking about him.  The things that I have to do, I feel like I'm doing those things in parts.  My laundry,  I'll start it one day and then maybe the next day I'll fold up the things that need folding and put them away.  Yeah, I said maybe.  I feel like I can't finish anything when I set out to do it.  That's frustrating too,  just adds to the already existing frustration.  I think back to this past week and I've gotten one thing accomplished.  Mom and I seeded the rest of the grass outside before we started getting rain on Thursday.  That was my accomplishment for the week and I had help.  It just makes me want to go to bed and wake up tomorrow to see what happens then.  That fricken motivation fairy has been on vacation for a good three weeks,  I need to fire her and get a new one.

Never give up, Never give in, Never let go!

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