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Briege has been sick(I took her to the vet right away. She is on meds.), & last night she was up softly, pitifully, mawing into my neck. Not to diminish my parents pain at all, but this did bring up such memories of them & the caregiving I was lucky enough to participate in.
They needed me, & catch as catch can(I was very young with Mom), I did the best I could, but never felt it was enough. In the middle of the night, I realized it was enough. It was just enough. If I love you I give 120% of me, but never felt before, well, never felt at peace with it. Not totally. Last night I did. I held her & comforted her, she would cry then lick my hand, then maw. I realized my parents taught me well how to do this.
Neither one of us slept(She little cat naps, if you will excuse the pun), but she is sleeping peacefully right now, for which I am grateful. And my parents are peaceful, for which I am overwhelmingly grateful. I did enough. I did my best, & somehow a little 4 pound kitten, crying & sleeping on & off on my lap showed me that.
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Dearest Mary, now that I've JUST discovered THIS journal hmmm, yes, you give of yourself. I think that's one of the best of gifts, and sometimes, yes, it has to be enough. I'm glad Briege could help you to know this, and be at peace. I know your parents are, and they both loved you very much.
I've heard that children who grow up with animals can learn more about caring for others, can become more compassionate, et al, as I suppose they can if having someone in the home with "different" abilities could. So you did this in reverse order....... what you needed to, what worked. All loved and cared for.
Now, being Briege has posted a couple entries on her own since this, and this one is a month old today, presumably Briege is feeling super better by now:) -
I hope you are feeling at peace, also :-)
xoxo -
Briege~
You got a good Momma there. And you gave her something most HUMANS never find..........
Your Friend,
Coco -
So glad I found Briege's journal. And I am even more glad that she is helping in your healing process. Nurturing is a wonderful thing, be it parents or pets.
Hugs,Ash
7/14/08 12:26 AM
We learn a lot from our kids -- and our pets if they are our kids. :)
Lori
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