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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
11:19:21 PM EDT
Feeling Grateful
Wow it's been awhile
Wow its been awhile sense i wrote in this journal. I'm still sober coming up on Five years just got so tied up into life that i forgot where my life started hahaa.. Life is busy and I'm feeling grateful today the things that materialized in these past years are something else. I'm proud to say that my trouble child Anthony is now clean & sober for 90 days after hitting a horrible almost deadly bottom, and now has his own journey to go on. he looks and seems so different this time, I pray.. I have a friend in the program that i watched come in and grow for two years now and she is just wonderful and to be around long enough now to see someone else blossom is such a miracle. Summer is here my favorite time of the year and my busiest but i love it. I stuggle to stay in One day at a time but working on it. I want to try to get back into my writing I didn't realize that i missed it so much ( my time for me) and to reach out to people that understand me in whatever spills out.. lol.. i pray everyone is doing good I'm so blessed to be sober. My daughter was married on may 16th what a gift to be sober to attend that event. I took advice from someone special she told me before you walk into the room and face the ex-hubby and new wife people from my past and the fantasy of the big party just Let God walk in before you he will be your best escort you know it work.. A drink never came into my mond and the wedding was beautiful even with the little stuff that goes wrong in the course of a event & to add it rained Hard all day and night but it was ok.. Thank you God for helping me and thank you to my family in the rooms of AA for helping me with my LIFETIME journey..
Until next time Love you all::: Gail {jersey shore girl}...
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Saturday, January 19, 2008
9:59:13 AM EST
Feeling Chillin'
Great Picture of Rob
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008
9:53:11 PM EST
Happy new year... Let this one be the one.. Happy 2008
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Monday, November 12, 2007
11:19:46 AM EST
Feeling Quiet
Does Time Heal???
Well I've been sober for a little over 4 years now and time does heal some hurts. Hurts and hates i thought i would never get over I did in TIME. But some regrets are harder then others. God has a way of keeping certain people in your life for some reason. I never realized why I had a hard time getting into a new relationship and three years later now I know, Somethings take more time then others. They say when you come into the program no relationships for one year they should change that to four years.
Past hurts like loss of a marriage family splitting up and heart break can be cured with a easy fix by replacing it with someone else but in the long run the old wounds never heal and they just carry over into any new relationship that is started. i never really got over the loss of my marriage and home, having to start out all over again after 18 years alone it has not been easy. I still find myself stir crazy in my head sometimes. I pray.. & pray, I know today that this will pass the roller coaster ride they talk about doesn't end in the first year, I think it starts in the fourth. I have the not drinking down but emotional soberity is just important as being sober.
At the shore it gets boring in the winter and meetings get small the ocean gets cold and I still have to learn to overlook those defects and remember the positive like for example where was i 4 1/2 years ago.. With that thought I'm going to start my day all over again ' Thats the great thing about being sober WE CAN START ARE DAY OVER AGAIN AT ANYTIME!!!
Talk to you all later, With Love Gail ( jersey shore girl ).
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Tuesday, October 2, 2007
11:50:43 PM EDT
Feeling Quiet
My silent prayer
Dear God,
Please help me except everyday as it is, and no more.
Please help me not to read things into other peoples statements.
Please help me for a lifetime to free myself from bondage of self. Please God help me understand and except things as they are dealt to me. Please help me keep my eyes open to everything you put in my path via' awake or asleep. Thank you for tomorrow in advance for just One Day At A Time I seek. Please hold me accountable for my actions today for when i was in my addiction I wasn't accountable for nothing. Please don't ever let me forget the days of gloom and be forever grateful for the life I have today. Please comfort the people out there still suffering in there addiction and let us in recovery forever work for you.
Thank you for my Family, Children and love I have in my life today. And last but not least Thank you for Oct. 1st. 2003 when you gave me a second chance on life. I'm now 4 years clean and sober.. Thank you!!!!!
Love you all: South Jersey Girl Gail
P.S Thank you for my wonderful trip to Ohio To see my friend of 20 years ( Now we are both sober ) what a blessing. I love it out there.. Goodnite
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Monday, September 10, 2007
Monday, August 20, 2007
12:59:21 PM EDT
Feeling Sad
Hearing waves
Summer is going to Fast.
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