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To Kevin With Love...Mom Part 2: The Painful Grace of Flight...

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4:36:00 PM EDT

TO CAROLANN - WITH LOVE...


Death is the veil which those who live call life:  They sleep, and it is lifted.
~Percy Bysshe Shelley

Dear Kevin,

There is so much death and devastation going on in this beautiful world of ours.  Makes one wonder...  With all the attention centered on Katrina, we tend to overlook those other very "ordinary" people who are also facing their losses, their devastation - their world is about to be turned upside down.  My prayers go out to them - those extraordinary people living ordinary lives. 

I have a very dear friend who is facing the loss of her beloved mother.  She is a very loving and caring daughter.  She does her mother proud.  I am so happy that her mother got to see and experience the type of daughter she raised.  This is for you, Carolann, and your beautiful mama.

When we are caregivers of those we love, their impending death looms over us like a dark shadow.  We watch as our loved ones prepare to leave this world.  And, we cry.  We cry for ourselves and we cry for them.  We cry for ourselves because we are losing a very special loved who has been so significant in our life and will no longer share our world with us.  We cry for them because they, also, will be missing us and perhaps, a little of their life and their world. 

We dread each new day for fear it will be our last day together.  We pray, beg, plead, and bargain for God to grant us a miracle and try to get him to change His mind about taking our loved one.  We know in our hearts, though, there will be no more miracles.

Carolann,  I know how much you're hurting and how frightened you are right now; and, that life seems filled with uncertainty.  It must be frustrating to hear people say how strong you are when everything inside you just wants to fall apart -  like smiling on the outside, crying on the inside.
No one can truly understand the pain that is felt by your heart for your mama.  Yet, as a caring friend, I feel so helpless...  I want to take away your pain and know I cannot.
It's just not my call. 

What I can do is offer you my friendship, my love, and my heartfelt prayers for you and your mama.  I can offer you a cup of coffee by osmosis, spiritual hugs, my support, and words that I hope give you some comfort.  And, with that said, I offer you the following words and thoughts as a symbol of my love and support...  they have no limits and there's no expiration date attached.  Take them one by one or all at once.  The only thing I ask is that you have  HOPE...
HOPE for a better moment, a better time, a better place.  HOPE that you will feel joy in your heart once more.  Until then, let my words comfort and support you...
    
I offer you prayers that will ease your burden...

I give you quiet time - via email - to reminise or time to vent...

I will cry with you when you hurt...

I will smile with you when you can...eeeeeeeeeeeeek...

I'll take walks down memory lane with you...

I offer you peace of knowing - knowing that I will be here for you when you feel like smiling or just being sad...

I offer you my unconditional love and friendship...

I'll let you "bug me"  whenever you feel like doing so...double eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

Take care my friend, I'm right here...

Kevin, my love, I need prayers from above for all that's happening here, below... and,  a whole lot of help!  I love you, Kev, more than life itself...

Your mama who still misses you.




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