Jessica Holland

Okay well I haven't written in a little while. And I was just sitting here, thinking about a whole bunch of stuff all at once, which is SO not good to do, I thought I'd give a quick hello. Things are great here at home, very thankful that life seems to be hitting a normalcy once again.

I'm literally here, sitting in my bed, thinking about everything that has happened to me in the past year and a half. Some of which has still not really hit me yet. But I kind of just needed to write it down. And don't get me wrong, this isn't a complaint entry, this is more of a frustration entry. Of why certain people go through what they do. Of why some have, and some do not. Of why some smile and some cry. I really am at a point where I'm ready to make a difference with this whole cancer situation. I was just reading the website of Shelby Richter, www.weloveshelby.com , and I am so taken back by her, her family, and her friends - and how they've changed so many lives and have no idea. I cannot say enough how much everyone in my life means to me. Not that they didn't before, but now knowing them and having them takes on much more meaning. And especially those who have been there. You'd be surprised on how those who you would think would be around, are not. And those who shock you by being there. To those of you - I love and thank you. My doctors and nurses, and everyone who has helped me medically through all of this, has astonished me with their wisdom to allow me to survive. And of course not only to grow to be healthy, but to grow mentally as a much more deeper person. The staff at Cooper Hospital has provided me with the ability to see things in such a different light, and I thank and love them so much for that!!! To those who I have come to know through all of this ... Kait, Randy, Shelby's family, the other patient's at Cooper and their families, and everyone I've met through the internet who has gone through similiar situations ... THANK YOU!!! You have all taught me and inspired me some way or another, and I cannot say enough what you all mean to me.

Sorry for such a deep entry, I'm like emotional Jess tonight or something?! I just felt that I needed to write some meaningful words, because I haven't in a while. Well thanks for listening!! and listening to my YADA YADA YADA's. My prayers are with everyone and I hope all is well!!!

I'm still working on the better site, don't worry it'll make it's way soon. Take care .. xO

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• #1 Comment from cuttiepie0506 
  4/25/05 12:49 AM | Permalink

  Hey Jessica, it was nice talking to ya. It's nice to talk to someone who knows what i've been through and can understand it. Thank you, and I will let you know how this week goes.
  
  Take Care,
  
  <3rittany