MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS!!

This depression and bipolar is really taking my life for a whirl and back...Dang sometiimes i just wonder is it worth all the living if i gotta go thru all these ups and downs.I wanna get off the merry go round im on..... getting really dizzy  and dang tierd of goning round and round ..Gotta be another way to deal with this monster they call bipolar

WELL I MADE IT THRU THE NIGHT...BUT DANG WISH I COULD GET OFF THIS LOW IM ON..ITS MAKING ME CRAZY...

LET ME TELL U IM TREMBLING INSIDE MY HEAD HURTS AND I JUST AM SICK AS U KNOW WHAT ON MY STOMACHE,,MY NERVES ARE SHOT..MY BRAIN IS FREEZING ..AND CANT EVEN THINK STRAIGHT DAMN THIS SHIT CALLED BIPOLAR THINK IT WOULD BE ALOT EASIER IF I WOULD JUST DIE...I JUST DONT KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS..JUST DONT KNOW IF I CAN GO THRU THIS ANY MORE..

WELL I GUESS ONE THING IS GOOD I MADE IT THRU THE DAY...STILL FEELING ALONE AND WORTHLESS THIS EVENING

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• #9 Comment from eternallife23 
  4/24/08 6:43 PM | Permalink

  I have not heard from you! Let me know how you are please. You are in my thoughts and prayers my friend!
  *Louise*
• #8 Comment from helmswondermom 
  4/18/08 11:08 PM | Permalink

  Are you taking your meds?  I hope so.  I don't have bi-polar, so I can't completely understand the anguish you are going through right now.  But I know that you have to hang in there.  Please email anytime you need to.
  Lori
  http://journals.aol.com/helmswondermom/DustyPages/
• #7 Comment from chatzeekay 
  4/18/08 8:29 PM | Permalink

  there is light and calming yourself down is one and giving yourself a time out, may work i have agitated deptression so i get mad then sad. its a death sentence i haev bad days, and well i am happy for the one or tow good moments. hot baths an dprayer. and reading on copeing, and self help articles. redirect and refocus yourself;
• #6 Comment from eternallife23 
  4/16/08 9:43 AM | Permalink

  Hi my old friend! I am so sorry to hear that once again you are going through all this. Are you on your meds? I too had some really bad weeks not too long ago. I know exactly what you mean by the merry go round.  This too shall pass, it may not seem like it now. Very soon you will look back on all this and say I made it thru. Take the meds and give it time. If you can't deal with a day at a time take it to an hour at a time. That is what I do when I feel I just can't go on. You are in my prayers and thoughts.
  
  *Louise*
• #5 Comment from pprrrr39 
  4/15/08 8:55 PM | Permalink

  I am so very sorry that you are feeling down........... Keeping you in my prayers
  hugs Jayne