MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS!!

                              HELLO TO ALL

SOME HAS EMAILED ME WONDERING WHERE I AM..!!!!  SHOWING CONCERN OF MY  WELL BEING...

LET ME TELL U IM REALLY FIGHTING WITH THIS MONSTER  NOW THEY CALL BIPOLAR..THE  WHEELS IN MY HEAD ARE GOING ROUND AND ROUND....AND IM ON A ROLLER COASTER I CANT GET OFF OF...

SOME OF U THAT HAVE FOLLOWED MY JOURNAL KNOWS THAT MY LOVELY DAUGHTER GAVE ME A LOVELY GRAND DAUGHTER 15 MONTHS AGO...THE FATHER IS A REAL DEAD BEAT  AND HASNT DID A THING FOR THIS BABY...I HAVE MAINLY DID IT ALL.. DAUGHTER HAS RECENTLY FOUND A JOB SHE HAS BEEN THERE FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS NOW...OK OK SOME MAY ASK WHY TOOK HER SO LONG FOR A JOB TO HELP...

WELL SHE ALSO HAS BEEN HAVEING TROUBLE WITH ABNORMAL PAP SMEARS  WHICH IN TURN CAUSE NEED FOR BIOPSY..SHE HAS HAD PRE- CANCER CELLS APPEAR...THEN THEY TURN OUT TO BE OK..

WELL FOR 15 MONTHS WE TOLD HER WE WILL HELP YOU RAISE THIS BABY AS MUCH AS WE CAN BUT THERE WILL BE NO MORE BABIES ..SO TO PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU TAKE YOUR BIRTH CONTROL RIGHT SO THERE WONT BE NO MORE BABIES... AND IF YOU DO GET PREGRANT ...YOU WILL HAVE TO MOVE OUT

                          WELL NOW FOR THE DRAMA!!!

 MY DAUGHTER HAS BEEN DATING THIS GUY FOR A WHILE NOW...THEY HAVE BEEN JUST FRIENDS FOR MANY YEARS BUT HE  HAS ALWAYS WANTED MORE...BUT SHE DIDNT WANT TO MESS UP A GREAT FRIENDSHIP  WELL SHE  SEEN HOW GOOD HE WAS TO THIS BABY  THAT WASNT EVEN HIS..AND STARTED SPENDING MORE AND MORE TIME WITH HIM......AND THEY STARTED SEEING EACH
 
                                 OMG OMG

        SHE FOUND OUT A FEW WEEKS AGO SHE IS   

                          PREGRANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

                               NOW WHAT??

                        I CRIED AND CRIED OMG

NOW  THEY ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LOOK FOR A PLACE TO LIVE...WHICH THEY HAVE ALREADY STARTED LOOKIIN

HER DADDY SAID SHE HAS TO GET A PLACE BEFORE THIS BABY IS BORN!!!  HE TOLD HER HE ISNT PUSHING HER OUT ...BUT THEY HAVE TO BE IN THEIR OWN PLACE  WHEN THIS BABY IS BORN...SO THE BABY GOES TO THEIR HOME NOT HERE WITH US...
                                         ...CRYING HERE...

DONT KNOW HOW IM FEELING ...I KNOW SHE HAS TO GO ..BUT IM SO DAMN ATTACHED TO THE FIRST CHILD I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT IM GONNA  DO WITH OUT HER HERE... BABY NAVAYA IS MY WORLD

       HELP ME PLEASE

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• #11 Comment from chasferris 
  5/17/08 3:14 AM | Permalink

  My vote is...keepthe family together.  If you have to fine a larager place or enlarge te one where you are...keep the family together.  They will move out soon enough.  
• #10 Comment from ceilisundancer 
  5/12/08 4:04 PM | Permalink

  {{{{hope4meeeeee}}}}
  
  Perhaps they can find a place close enough by that you can still help be with your first grandchild on a regular basis, whether babysitting while she works, or if the toddler is in daycare, on weekends sometimes, with the mom / boyfriend, or not, and some dinners during the week type thing.  You've started a close relationship, you can continue it if you're close enough by.  My daughter still maintains a close relationship with her grandma / my mother.
  
  I'm relieved to know that her pre-cancerous cells have worked out, PHEW.  BTDT myself, and I know it can be deadly, so PHEW!
  
  I don't know if you're on medicines for your bipolar.  I have heard that doctors can help with that, but I don't know how tricky it is to get your system regulated.  I do hope things work out.  -- Robin
• #9 Comment from mleppard06 
  5/12/08 6:02 AM | Permalink

  hello, i have come via call for support it sounds like you need some support here. Firstly, it sounds like your daughter has found a special man, who is willing to care for your daughter and her child, he is also standing by her with his child, a good start. I watched my sister take advantage of my mum for a couple of years she and her partner and child lived with her when he couldn't  keep his job, it tore my mum apart when they fought and they left to live with his mum 100 miles away but it was for the best, you have to let go and aloow her to stand on her own two feet, she has to make her own mistakes and learn from them so that she can grow as a person, what you need to do is be there for her when she needs you,  help and support but don't control. it is the hardest thing for a mother to do and it will hurt but they have to do this themselves. Prehaps you could offer to still look after your grandchild while your daughter works this would save her childcare costs and when baby no. 2 arrives she may wish to return to work and you could have the two children. Have patience you will see agrown women energe in time who can face the world because of you. take care i will put you on my alerts and watch out for you, mrs t xxx
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• #8 Comment from carly0042 
  5/11/08 9:08 PM | Permalink

  Ohhhhh, such an upsetting entry especially for Mother's Day. I sure hope this whole thing works out for your family. I am not one, but I know how deep a grandma's heart flows especially for that first grandchild. I just hope for your sake they move close by. Stay strong.
• #7 Comment from rjet33 
  5/11/08 5:03 PM | Permalink

  I can add anything better than what has already been said.  I can point out what a blessing Navaya has been.  I have had a hard time letting go of my own children and my son told me the other day, "Mom, you raised us to spread our wings and fly, now you have to let us fly."  It's very hard.  I know.  I do, however, agree that this is a blessing in disguise.  You know how much you already love Navaya, now you will have two grandbabies to love.  They aren't leaving the country.  I am sure your daughter will let you see them anytime you like.
  
  Hugs and prayers,
  
  Susan
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