My Hugs Journal

I hope everyone is having a good night.I am doing ok here,hanging in there,the best way I know how,even thoe there are days when I dont even feel like myself.First of all,I need yals help into finding me a name for my Bestfriends Dog a Pug,for my Webkinz site.LOL.I cant come up with anything,neither can my Bestfriend.So,I am thinkking of something and if you all can think of something to.Thaks a bunch.I have to ask you guys some things.How do you motavate yourself into doing things you need to get done,but you feel so out of sorts,you dont feel like doing anything?If you all have been there,let me know,how did you all get out of it?

Yawwwwwwwwwwn,I am getting tired,but,to tell you the truth,sometimes now,I am kinda afarid to go to sleep,after the scare on Friday,its not like it happed before the Tornados,I guess this one was diffrent.Made me wake up.We are susposed to have Thunder storms tinught.I hope it just rains.I thought I had more to say,but,I guess I dont.I am so tired,I am going to go to sleep.I hope I can sleep.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.One more thing,I am going too do some shoping,I want get a few clothing,but,thiinking of getting something for my room.I want to change it arounf,like I always say and dont do it.Maybe change is a bad thing for me.LOL.

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Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a nice MOMS DAY.My Mom isnt feeling to good.She didnt go to church,this moring or tonight.Gary and I gave Her a card with some money inside.So,she can go shoping or do what ever She wants.She is taking my Nephew out tommrow for His Bday which was May 7.Dont ask me when mine is,which will be this Tuesday.I will be 36,I am getting old.I dont have any plans.How ever,Gary will be taking me to my favorite place.To the Outback.I love that place.Than on Wed,He will take me shoping.I need some new jeans,thoes short ones,that you wear for the summer time.I like thoes.I do need a pair of good tenis shoose.Than I can get a few things for the cruise in Sept,which I cant wait.I never be on a cruise before.So,something to look foward to,than I go to the beach with Gary for a week.So,I have 2 things to look forward to.

I can tell you one thing,Frida night,when all thoes Tornado warnings,that scared me,because about every place in Maryland was getting hit by them.I bought my sleeping bag,a few blankets,pillow and my LapTop down in my Moms room and slept,well,I didnt sleep.We stayed up wathing the news till the warnings was over.I was not about to go back up to my room till I knew it was ok.Because I wouldnt have been able to hear the sound going off or anyone calling me from down stairs.It was scary thoe.Va got hit pretty bad.They kept changing the time from 12:45 to 1:45.But I didnt go back to bed till almost 3.My room is high up.We have gotton hit before,well,our stoor got hit bad a few years ago.I remember that night as well.Anyways,I thought I would share that with you all.It has been raining off and on since Friday.I am ready for some sunshine.I hope you all have a nice evening and a nice night.Be safe and warm out there.Oh yeah,something is worng with my alerts,I keep on trying to set themfor the Entry Alerts,but,I keep getting the comment added alerts.So,looks like I wll have to go manulaiy through my list.Be back later.

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I want to wish my MOTHER and all the MOTHERS A very special HAPPY MOTHERS DAY WEEKEND.And thoes DADS out there who our being MOMS to.Make it a special day for them.Make them feel loved,let them know you love them.My Mom knew I didnt have alot of money since I am not working.So,I bought Her a very pretty table cloth and a package of Orange tick tacks.LOL.I think I will make Her a necklace.I am trying to finish up the scrap book,it shouldof been done,but,I was being lazy,I guess.I also want to thank all of thoes J-laners whos been a Mom to me and always being there for me and giving me advice.I just hope you all,all of you,have a wonderful HAPPY MOTHERS DAY WEEKEND.

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Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good night.I am doing ok here.I was just thinking about something,sosmething that Chat2missie said,I belive I think it was Her that said,I should get rid of old letters,if I get rid of them,it will help me to move on.DO I burn them?How do I get rid of them?I think that has been bothering me alot.I dont know why.I caan tell you I need to get rid of alot of things in this room.Old things I dont even use or wear.Maybe since I have time on my heands,I can do theeses things.Since,I know my dad wont let me go back to work.I will be home within one hour.LOL.My legs are weak and can only take so much.But I also think I can do a little excerise with them,because,sitting down a long time,isnt good for them.So,I think I am going to go through my letters tonight.what about the old pen pal letters I have?But I dont even write to them.Wish I had there addys,I would.I do wish I had one addy thoe.My Bestfriend back in highschool.Her name was Laverne Hawkins.Used to call us Laverne and Shirly.I miss Her so much.Even back in school,we would take turns staying home.I hate to it,I think we did.LOL.Even one time,we had a bad snow storm,we both ccame,we was both there that day.The Teacher said,one of us should of stayed home.LOL.I didnt get home till 10 that night.But it was fun romaming around the school.I had a huge major crush on this guy name Nick.He was sooooooo cute.while someone had a crush on me.LOL.Anyways,if you all have any adieas on how I should do thid.Let me know.Have a good night all.Be safe and warm out there.Peaeout.

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Its me again,let me just say,I had a bad day all around.First starting with the worng day,I wouldnt have been upset if the app was just right around the corner,it wasnt,it was like an hour from the house.But thats not all.I was in a crying mood all day.Mom asked me if I started,you know?Women stuff.LOL.No,I havent,yet,I think I am on the brink of starting.LOL.I was literly crying all day.My day went all worng,than,I thought I had lost my check,Gary and I was on the way to the bank,than go back to the house,me crying all the way to the house.LOL.I left it on the counter.Than when I get to the bank,I put my check in and I could only take out 300 and have to wait to take more out when my check clears.Man,I had it rough today.All I want to do now is just cry and go to bed.I cryed going to Target,but was ok when I went in.LOL.llHow ever,Gary made me laugh on the way home,so,I feel some better and I bought me a Large Choclate Malt.Yuuuuuuumy.

Ok,I have to tell you about the the laugh I had.Gary was telling me He had a little accide on the way to work later Sat moring.He heard this loud banging noise on His truck,I am laughing as I am typing this,I guess you had to be there when He told me this.Gary thought something horible was happening to His truck,so,He stoped on the way to work,He was almost late.His Suspender was hanging outside His car door.LOL.I laughed so hard.I guess I needed it.Anyways,I am going to catch up on alerts and play some Webkinz.Peaceot.

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Good day all,

I hope you all having a better day than I am having.I sure did made a real big bobo or what ever you cal it.I told you all I had a Doctors app this moring at 10:45?Well,my Dad and I went all the way to Baltimore,John Hopkin Hosiptal,we get there and I got the worng date.Its written on my calander.But,it was for Thursday.I was so upset when they told me I got the worng date.My Dad isnt a happy camper.I am just going to leave home alone.I had to canel Thursdays app,I knew He wouldnt be able to take me.Maybe that way,by the time May 22 comes up,He will kool off?Maybe I can get Gary to take me,I was going to see if Gary can take me Thursday,but,I just went ahead and cancled it.Let me tell you guys something.I am going to go to Baskin Robins and get me a large Choclate Malt,maybe even 2,and save one for later.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

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Its me again,ok,I cant think stright because I am trying to strighten things up aroud here,like my letter stuff,tons of stickers I have,just things I need to throw away,but,dont have the hear to and I have no use fo them.LOL.Tell me all,how I should go about this?Because it really does need strighten out.Let me tell you all,I have a contianer,a whole one filled with mostly letters from Highschool and maybe some old pen pals,whish I had there addys now.For some reason I cant seem to ever throw it away.I just really want to clean things around.How do I go about that?I also have theeses cute wall thingies that I want to put up,and I want to put some up in my bathrrom.If my cell was working,I would take pics and let you all decied for me.LOL.What goes good in a bathroom diffrent pretty colorfulflowers,or diffrent pretty colorful fishys?Why does your head hurt when you get to thinking like this,wanting to get things done and than you start worrying about so many other things.I am always thinking something will happend to me if I dont get something done,that is about my bills.I know,I went off the subject.OL.I am behind and cant seem to catch up.

Why is it,am I always worrying about something?I know,I am always talking about worrying.I think when I go talk to my Therepyst on the 15,I might see if I need something a little stronger.I dont know thoe,I am already taking Serquil300mg,but I feel its not helping me much with my mind.If you all know what I mean?Do you know what I do to a letter sometimes,when I am writting one?If I dont like it,or it gets messed up,I will rewrite it,over and over again till its right.LOL.Does that make me insane?I want to seem to get everything done,but,sometimes I stress out so much,it dont get done.One more thing before I go.Can I still use the 41 stamps for writting a letter?I dont want to watsethem.Peaceout.

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Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good Sunday.I am doing ok here.I guess I cant complain to much.I am so addicted to this dang puter.LOL.I cant seem to get off of it.I know I should.But,I dont have much else to do around the house.Well,I should do some washing.But,dont feel like it.LOL.Guess what guys?I got a check,a very nice one,it will help out so much. didnt think I was going to get one and I was waiting for it everyday to come and it came on Sat.I will probllay have to wait till Tuesday or tommrow after noon to put it in the bank and take some out for my pleasures.LOL.It was all the nice back pay I get to.It will be nice to have some money on my hands.I feel so poor with me not working and having a pay check every Friday.

I have alot I want to do with the money,alot is comming up this month.I do want to pay off on some of my Doctor Bills,which isnt alot.Dad says,it is,but,I dont have that many.Some people need to stay out my bis.If they know what I mean.They dont have the right to talk.Anyways,with that said,I really dont have much to do.How ever I do have a Doctors app tommrow to see the Surgen about surgey.I just want to get this over and done with.I dont even know about work till I talk to the Doc tommrow.I know its to soon for me to go back to work.Because its so hard for me to even get up from my bed to walk anywere.My legs and my feet hurt all the time.

I have been so addicted to Webkinz world that I cant seem to get off of it.If you dont know what it is,its a Website were you buy theeses cute little anaimals and you adopt them onto the Website and it all comes to life.Its like you need everything for your own house.You take care of them.I have 5 of them.I am going to get one more and not get anymore for a while.I am going to get one for me and my nephew for His Bday on Wed.Theres alot of Bdays this month,including mine.I will be 36,I am getting old.LOL.I probllay wont do much on my Bday,maybe go to dinner with my Boyfriend.My Bday is May 13,first Moters Day is May 11,I think.I also have my Sis on the 23rd.Shes older than me.I am thr baby.well,my Couisn is the baby.He is more of a Brother than couisn.Ok,you all have a good day.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

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Hi all,

how is everyone doing?Good I hope.I am doing ok here.Not mucb going on around here.So,I figure,why,am I worrying about so much,when in reaility,it wont get you anywere.I say,whats the point in worrying?I am just starting to relize that.That doesnt mean,I dont worry,of course,you all now,I do worry.But,I am trying to cut back.LOL.I try to keep mysself busy.I have a Doctors app on Monday,that is a biggie,thats my Surgen,we will see when I will finally have surgey.To be honest with you all,I dont think my Dad wants me to have it done.Why,I dont know.Other than that,not much going pn.I still am worrying about my job,all the Doctors tht I have been seeing,tell me that,its not a good  idea if I go back.But,I dont know.Maybe if I only go back for 4 hours a day for maybe 3 or 4 days.Just a thought.But thats a ways off.

Why cant our lifes be like a fariy tail?With happy endings and nothing to worry about?I am glad my Serquil300mgs is working.I wouldnt know what I do without it.I have been on my Website called Webkiz,it is so neat.Anyways,I am going to get off of here and eat dinner and settle in for the night.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

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