My Hugs Journal

Monday Happenings.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 22:43:11 GMT

Hi everyone,
I hope you all are having a good day.I hope everyone had a good 4th of JULY weekend.It was a quiet one here.Just my Mom,Dad and I.I could see the FireWorks from my bedroom window,but didnt watch them all.It was my medicine that made not get out of the tub.I now know to take my medicine at my regular time.Oh yeah,I am an Aunt again.That will be number 16 Neices and Nephews.My Sister N Law from London is now pregnat with Her 6th kid.We are all happy for Her.Nothing else much going on here.How ever I did found out that my Health Insurance wont be ending till July 3oth,that is good,hopfully I will get my exestion till I go back to work on Sept 30th.It is hard for me right now paying for all of my Doctor Bills.I hope you all have a nice week ahead.Be safe and kool out there.I have a question for you all.How do you relax during your day?Whn you get depressed,how do you find ways of getting yourself out?Yes,I know its wintet Tinkerbell,maybe it will kool everyone down.LOL.I have another question,how do you become cheerful?What does it actullay mean to you?Yes,I am fully of questions and I need answers.LOL.

Worried.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 01:41:14 GMT

Hi eveyone,

I hope you all is having a good night,I also hope you all had a good 4th.First of,before I start I just want to say thank you all for the good advice.I will tell Gary that we need to start doing things diffrent.But He does already know that.He just told me that today when He poped in for a munite and He also told me that I should get a younger Boyfriend,I sai no,I dont wan anyone else but Him in my life.I just dont Him,but I love Him.He gives the best of hugs and kisses.

Anyways,I thought I would tell you that for a moment I thought I would had to yell down staris to get my Dad to come and help me out of the bathtub.It scared me,everytime I would try and lift myself up,I had to lay back down.I almost started crying,becaus I couldnt get out.You might think it was stupid for me to saying I was crying,but it really did scare me and I couldnt get out of the tub.That has never happend to me before.I think it was the medicine I am taking.serqil600.I dont think I should take it anymore.Maybe I took to early,but I took around 7 and I usllay take about 8.I had to nearly crael out of the tub.I was shaking so badI feel it may get worse.I am just tired right now,feel like I dont get any rest.I dont allow myself to.I mean,I may lay down like I did all day,but I still havent felt I I got any rest.I am stil shaking as I am typing this entry.Well,I am going to try and relax and ttry to sleep.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceot.

Staurdy happenings.

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 19:11:04 GMT

Hi all,

I hope everyone is haaving a good 4th of JULY weekend.It was just a quiet one here.Not much going on.I did how ever,last night I saw a few fire works from my window.I didnt think I would see them,but,I did.Nothing like they were when I was little.My Sister had fun in New York with Her family and some friends from church.She said there was about a thousand people there watchinf the fire works.Maybe next year I could go with Her.I have always wanted to see the fire works in New York and I also would like to see them down in Dc.Not much going on today.Mom and I went to Kmart and bought a few things.She knows I am not getting paid right now,so,She helps me out and Gary to.So now I am home,I may take a little nap,even thoe I woke up late,I am still tired.But I anted to ask a few questions.

Ok,I want to ask you all,how do you make things intresting in your lives?How do you make your lives less boring?I want to do diffrent things with Gary,He does to,but,we seem to do the same things anymore.He is always working.But we need to spice up both of our lives.we are always going to the Doctors or to the Dollor stoor,not that I love going to the Dollor stoor.I love going there.Its just we need to do something diffrent.I need to make my life a little more intresting.But is there a way to do that?So if you all have any questions,please,I would like to know.Also,do you all have any questions on how I can excerise my legs?Yes,I know walking,maybe there is a good site if anyone knows of one.Anyways,I am going to get off of here and ly down for a while.I hope you all have a good day.Be safe and cool out there.Peaceout.

All is fine.

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 22:55:51 GMT

Just wanted to let you all know,all is fine.I called Gary on His cell phone and He asked why I didnt call Him and I told Him what the lady said and He wasnt very happy and I am not very happy either.I told Him to have His cell phone on Him tommrow,because,I am not calling the stoor.I have no clue why She did that.Be safe out there and watch some fire works for me.Peaceout.

HAPPY 4th of JULY everyone!!!!!

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 15:56:08 GMT

Hi everyone,

I hope everyone is having a HAPPY 4th of JULY.Me,I am not happy right now with Gary,unless I hear from Him,which I havent heard from yet and I usllay do.I called the stoor and ask to speak to Him like I usllay do and He told the lady at the desk to me He was gone for day and She asked if I wanted anythin else and I said no.At first I was like,no,He has to be there,I thought She was teasing with me,but,She wasnt.So,now I am waiting for Him to call me.If I dont hear from Him,I am speaking to Him.Unless Hes got a good excuse.Usllay He would call me first if I didnt call Him.So,we will se what happends.I am going to get off of here and lay down.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.I am pray it doesnt rain for you all whos having Bbqs,hot dogs,pato salad,deserst,all the yummy food.Peaceout.

Thursdays Happenings.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 17:48:15 GMT

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good day.I am doing ok here.I haent felt like writting much in here.Even thoe its only been a few days.Not a whole lot going on and nothing much going on for the 4th of July,which is tommrow.We usllay have a get together,but,not this year,which is good,beause something is always going on.It will be nice just to do nothing and relax.Ok,I am always doing that.Haha.LOL.My Sister and Her family will be in New York to see the fire works for the first time,not the first time in New York,but,seeing the Fire works is the first time.I kinda wish I was with them,but,someday,maybe I will go there.I never been to New York,that is one of the places I want to see.I want to see the Statue of Liberity.Other than that,nothing else is going on.

When I was little us kids would be able to sit on on our roof and watch the Fire Works,to this day I was also able to watch them from my Bedroom window,but,cant do neither of them anymore since the Trees are getting longer.Also,when I was little us kids and Mom and Dad would go to the park to watch them,the good ole days.I also remember when I was a baby,I was scared of them and I would hid under my Moms shirt.LOL.I wonder if every kid was scared of them?Anyways,what is everyones plans for the 4th?I hope everyone will be safe were ever they go,because I know the cops will be out and about,which is good.Safety is very important.I know one thing I need to today is to clean my room,its getting out of hand,but,I dont feel like doing it.I sure wish I was on vaction.Anyyways,I am going to get going and get some things done.I will try and write more later.I do hope everyone will be safe out there this weekend.Be kool out there.Peaceout.

Kinda wishing it was Sept30th already.LOL.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 17:53:55 GMT

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good day.I am doing ok here.I guess its been a few days since I written in here.I havent had much to say.I been worrying about my Health Insurance,among other things.But,I think I will be ok.I am trying to get an Exestion after July 13 when my Isurance will end.I think I will get it,because I am going back to wrok on Sept 30th.I am going back for only part time.I am actullay looking forward to going back to work.I ould use the money.I tlked to my Boss and She says I wont be doing anything heavy and She wants me to sit down and take my breaks.That is good.Before I go back,I will need to get my hearing checked,because,I am having a hard time hearing and my ears always feels like they are cloged up.So,that is a must.

Anyways,not much else going on.I been tired lately,because I havent been sleeping right.I will have to get back into the swing of that before I go back to work.Because,most likly,I will be going to work early in the moring with Gary.He goes in at 6.I will problla be like 6 to 12 or 6 to 10,something like that.Last night was a good night sleep I had in a long time.Which felt good.We usllay have plans for the 4th,but this year we dont.I wish I ws going with my Sister to New York,they are going there for the 4th.They will have a good time.Anyways,I need to get off of here and get cleaned up before Gary comes and get me.Looks like its getting ready to rain here.I think we have had our share of rain and storms and tornados.Have a good day all.Be safe and kool out there.Oh yeah,there is a new tv show comming on tommrow night with Molly Ringwald as the mother.Looks cute.Peaeout.

Stressed.

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 23:36:06 GMT

Right now,I kinda feel like I am a big mess.Mom and I arent talking and I dont know why.She threw the bedspread I gave Her a long time ago in the kitchen floor.We havent talked since yesterday moring.I try saying sorry,so,I dont know what I did.I hope Sept gets here fast,because,I am seriously thinking going back to work.I havent been feeling good today.My stomach has been feeling very tight and very hard for me breathing.I feel I am going to have a panic attack.Theres to much tension in this house.My room is a mess,I am a mess, dont want to go to the Doctors on Friday to get my Pap done.I am thinking of cancling.I have a Doctors app tommrow to see my Pain Doctor to sign papers.It is right at a Hosiptal,so,if I get sick I am right there.LOL.I am freaking outI dont even want to be me right now.Wishing I ws someone else,wishing I wasnt even here.

I am ready.

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:04:39 GMT

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good moring.I am doing ok here.I just relize something.I feel that I am ready to go back to work,I think I need to,I feel I need to get away and get out of the house before Mom and I do not speak to eachother.I think we are both driving eachother nuts.I know that my Doctor would tell me I am ready,because He wanted me to go back on June 30th.I want to talk to my Boss,because,I want to take my 2 vations in Sept.I feel I am ready.I dont want to be home anymore.I text message my Sister to see what She has to say.I am waiting for Her to Text me back,than I will call my Boss.I think getting out would do me good.How ever,I may wait till late Sept.But I do know if I call my Boss now,She will want me to come back next week.LOL.We will see.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Monday.

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 16:27:12 GMT

Hi all,

I hope everyone id having a good Monday.I am doing ok here.I called the Health Insurance to make sure whats going on and they told me my Insurance would end July 13,but,I can get a contuie till 12 weeks after July 13,I wish I could have one for Oct1,but,I cant have one for Oct1.So,I plan on going back to work probllay sometime late Sept,for only part time,3 days a week for only 4 hours,I think I can do that.I will have to try.I think its time for me to go back to work.I will talk to my Doctor about taking Thereapy to help my knees and taking an anit drug to help with the swelling.I can get a contiue but I wont be getting paid.My last sick leave check will be this week.Maybe I can start trying to get on disabilty.I will have to look into that.Its very important for me to keep my Insurance.I could probllay try to pay for it,but,would be to costly.Unless I can talk to my Boyfriend to help me pay for it.We will see.What do you all think I should do?Should I go back to work or what?Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.