Jen's Journal

I knew it was a good idea to get a laptop... besides that everyone else has one but me, so we bought a Dell 2 months ago. It's normally a $2200 one, but we got it for $1200. Ya, alot, but, I put it on credit and should have it paid off in about 4 more payments. Instead of the $39 a month they really want.

Ok, anyway, I don't have time to talk about that. Our power went out last night at 4AM. I've had barely any sleep. I feel sad and sick.

The eye missed New Orleans... and is right now over Bay St. Louis. I called my Dad this morning. He said he can't get ahold of Cuz. He hopes that he is ok... He lost contact with him at 8 last night. He was going to call him every 45 minutes... so now it's been like 12 hours. The house won't be fine no matter what. I had thought MAYBE, but it's got a tin roof, The roof for sure is gone... which means that EVERYTHING inside is ruined. The boat is either in the house right now or somewhere else...

I will either leave for Mississippi tomorrow or Wednesday. My parents will be going up Wednesday. Everyone is of course going to rush to get back in to see what's left and hopefully there will be something for people to come back too.

And my dad didn't say anything promising about rebuilding... That makes me sad. How does one pick up and rebuild and for what? I don't mean it like that... I mean for someone like my Parents. With the increase of Hurricanes why pick up and rebuild? The property value probably just dropped... Not only will my parents home be ruined, but ALL the homes will be ruined. People are going to feel broken in Mississippi tomorrow.

I remembered on the phone this morning with my dad how Gulf Breeze looked. It looked like a BOMB went off. Literally. Peoples homes with huge holes in them... personal property littered everywhere... it was a tragic scene and now, I am really not prepared to see what I am going to see... and there is no way to prepare yourself. You hope for the best even thou you know it's gone, but when I am standing there in front of the home you grew to love and cherish and all that's left is rubble, and wet trash, and grossness... You just can not prepare for that. What if there is nothing left at all? What if it's just a lot? With nothing to search thru, and nothing to salvage... I hate you Hurricane Katrina. You suck. You are like the worst thing that's ever happened to me...

I guess all of my plans have changed... Moving right now must not be in the cards for me... the house I liked... most likely gone.

FAH Q KATRINA!

I have to sign off now... wearing down the battery. We are here, reachable by phone or cell.

Jen

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• #2 Comment from longhotknight 
  9/1/05 8:37 PM | Permalink

  never give up jen. i know at a time like this that all seems lost. i dont know you nor will i ever meet you. but i can say witha honest heart that i will pray and hope for you everyday. my brother in law lives in new orleans and the videos i have seen are deeply disturbing. but at a time like that i cant help but think of what my grandfather used to tell me as a young boy...."anyday above ground is a good day......."      best of luck and my prayers go with you
  
  
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• #1 Comment from apacheauthor 
  8/31/05 10:21 AM | Permalink

  Jen, I don't know you but your post made me think, are you okay?  From what I see on TV.....I just pray you and your whole family are somewhere safe.