DRAGONS THOUGHT'S

may 16 2008

Fri, 16 May 2008 11:06:14 GMT

well were do i start its friday.i guess i will start with the week went out to lunch with my daughter on wed's had a great time i am very proud of her she has come a long way.she is a great mother and a vantastic daughter.out of all my kids she has been there for me when ever i have asked she never says no.i guess i would like to see the other kids more often but they have there own life going on so i respect that.with the health shit im going through i would like to see them more often i ask....been missing mom haven't been able to morn her death yet but im trying ........went over to my mother in laws and redid her front porch on wensday gave me a feeling like i was doing it for my mom did it for her mothers day gift....got to see angelina too was great i am still in love with here i guess or it might be i just still love her dont quite know how to view it yet ....well got to get to work so i will write more later ...

jan 09 2008

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 14:28:51 GMT

Well its wensday the 9th 9am time to start the day....yesterday myself and mickey went out on the bikes for a ride oh my god what a day it was 68 degrees out and sunny what a ride i haven't had a day on the bike like that in so long ..went to rush scottsville and all over...ending up at club soda for a drink where i met a girl name kate 49 yrs old cute and not a drunk or druggie we will see if she calls??? i got a drug test on friday and this is my last one before i get sentenced next week on the dwi case got a new judge and i here he's a prick so if i have to i am going to do weekends...dont want to do probation... will take what ever i get so am hopeing for the best . got to go get ready to start the day will write more later ......

jan 1 2008

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 01:29:18 GMT

well its new years day and i am sitting around doing nothing but writeing this note ...patty sent me a email today was good to here from here dont know whats going on with here she sounded depressed in her email.... guess her boyfriend isnt doing to well is in the hospital again....wish there was something i could do but guess not a this time she will call when she needs to talk ......talk to angelina today tooo she was just hanging out at the house....its 8 pm and im going to go and get something to eat thats all i have been doing today is eating going to get fat again hahaahaha ........... write more later ...

december 30 2007

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 17:51:27 GMT

Well its been 2 1/2 years sense i wrote anything so here goes......today is sunday and have to go to mens group...back in april 07 i got into a bike accident and was injured bad had 140 stitches broke my nose and jaw 2 fingers were really bad right down to the bone .....ewhen i was in surgey the only 2 people that were there with me was Angelina and lydia her sister dont know if i would have made it through it if it wasn't for the 2 of them....when i woke up they were right by my side for 10 1/2 hours of putting me back to gether ....i guess i allways new that angelina would be there ....i love her so much i wish i could take all the hurt i gave her back and was still together i miss our life together even after all these years .......well must go on if it was to be it would be .....Got to be there for the grandkids and family thats what is inportant to me in life right now .....

MARCH 4 2005

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 13:21:28 GMT

Well its march 4 2005 and cold as hell out there , i know spring is close and it will be warm soon .dont know where my life is going everything i touch has gone to hell and dont know how to fix it...I try to help in ways i cant do with my health and i do even when i cant buit it just dont seem to be enough ..went to the doctor yesterday OH WHAT A FUCKIN FEELING have lung problems again dont know how much longer i can hang on it hurts and pain pills are not cutting it as much as they use to...i keep looking for a glimmer of hope but i know there is none....today is rays birthday and tomorrow is kristina's b-day going to try to get to see them both today if i can need to get to see my dad need to talk to him today if i can find the time .Some times i get to doing somethings and they just dont come out right my girl whom i love more than anything tells me my life is drama and i wish she could understand but i dont think she does i try to do things for her i havent done for anybody else i love her more than anybody i have ever loved.But ya know what they say some times ya have to do whats best no matter what it does to you or for you ..I must have missed something in life dont what it is but i will keep looking till i find it .Must go for now will write more later john

11/30/03

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 21:50:38 GMT

WELL IT'S SUNDAY AND I HAVE BEEN SICK ALL DAY WISH I COULD SHAKE THIS FEELING I HATE TO BE SICK. FOOTBALL SUCK TODAY AS THE PATRIOTS WON AGAIN WHICH PUTS MIAMI DOWN AGAIN AND WE NEED TO PIC IT UP...I WAS GOING TO GET THINGS DONE TODAY BUT ALL I DID IS LAY AROUND AND DO NOTHING SOMETHING I RARLEY DO.. WILL WRITE MORE LATER.........

11/29/03

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 02:37:11 GMT

WELL THANKSGIVING IS OVER SO I THOUGHT I WOULD START TO WRITE WHAT THE DAY WENT LIKE. COLD 29 DEGREES SNOWING,AND BLOWING.WELL TIME TO EAT ..............