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Hearing the hum of the modem
BITTERSWEET
Six months since my last posting. Since moving back down to the big city, I've been working almost nonstop putting our new home together, dealing with all of my father's personal business and health issues, and fitting into the rhythm of life in a place I haven't lived in for over a decade. It hasn't always been easy, and it has always been tinged with homesickness for the Mojave, the only true home I have ever known.
At long last, I have found a comfortable, homelike, quiet place for my father, and will be moving him soon, praying he will be as happy as possible there. It will be a huge load off my shoulders if all goes well. I love my dad dearly, and it has been heartbreaking thinking he might have to stay where he is now for the "duration". Now, we have a brighter future to look forward to for him, and this gives me great joy.
Part of the move has been reconnecting with several old friends and seeing them fairly regularly. That's been nice, though people do change over time, and this can be unsettling. I was very happy to reconnect with someone important in my life yesterday, and look forward to getting together soon. For some of us, the tried and true is what really matters, and the world may change, but we know what matters most to us, and nothing will ever change that.
I saw a wonderful movie last night called, "TO WALK WITH LIONS". It is the dramatized story of George Adamson of "Born Free" fame after his and his wife Joy's celebrated rehabilitation of Elsa the lioness to freedom after being raised by them from an orphaned cub. While extremely disturbing and sobering, this account of the life and legacy of a great man of tremendous heart and courage will always be inspiring to me. Adamson's stated raison d'etre was to try to stem the tide of "the genocide of wildlife"; and, while his murder by poachers ended his own personal efforts to do so, his assistant and others continued his work and legacy, protecting, among others, the lions Adamson loved all his life. The film is a fine tribute to the life of a "Lord of All the Land", as Adamson referred to the beloved lions he befriended and protected; and it serves as a cautionary tale for those of us viewing, that it is up to each and every one of us to do our part to protect all living beings. With that in mind, the George Adamson Wildlife Fund was set up; I have not researched the website yet, but am hoping it is up and running and easily accessible.
I'm thinking about cleaning up the back yard and patio here, and putting in some flowers and maybe a privacy hedge on the south side of the property. It's a tiny yard, a far cry from the 2 1/2 acres I loved in the desert. But we must do the best we can with what we have, and be grateful for every blessing given us. I know I am, and in seeing the big picture of how things are for most in this world, there are many, many blessings to count.
My Mojave home went on the market yesterday. It must be, I know. But I can't help remembering the beauty of the land, the joy we felt there, the many, many animal friends I made there and will always remember, and the "what if's" that will never leave my mind. As it stands, I can only pray that whoever buys my beloved home will love it as I did, and will actively work to protect the indigenous plants and wildlife as well as the other animals who have always found sanctuary on our land.
May all of you who celebrate tomorrow as a holiday have an enjoyable one; and may all of us who remember our own history keep it as a day of remembrance of our sacred circle, our spirituality, our deep love for all life, and our ancestors who made the ultimate sacrifice in attempting to protect all of the above.
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I hope your father will be happy in his new quiet place ~ I hope also whoever buys your property will love it as much as you did ~ Have a wonderful "Thanksgiving Day" ~ Ally x
4/29/08 8:21 PM