Journeyz Destination

This weekend was kind of bitter-sweet for me... I had a wonderful visit from my daughter and son-in-law, and my two sisters along with my nephew and his wife came over as well... We had a terrific dinner prepared for them... however... I was not able to be the one to make it, as I had planned... My husband had to end up doing it all... while I stood by and supervised.  This was very disappointing for me.  I usually don't have too much of a problem making a tuna sandwich or heating up some canned soup... but when it comes to making a home cooked meal... forget it.  I found out that I am not able to do it.  I'm unable to bend down and get the pots and pans... unable to chop up an onion... (my hands don't have quite enough dexterity or strength to do this) unable to fry the hamburger (this requires me to be able to reach my arms outward, I can bend my arms at the elbows, but not stretch them out)... I can empty out cans of food (e.g. pineapple, condensed soup) but unable to stir mixtures... unable to four and grease the cake pan... Well, you get the idea.  This was so discouraging for me.  And my husband, although cooperative, did not volunteer to cook the dinner as I did... but, he ended up having to do it all.  I think he realized that this was our future and it kind of hit him a little hard.  I feel kind of odd writing about this... I don't want to complain about my life... I have a lot to be thankful for... but, I was really looking forward to fixing dinner for everyone.  I also worry about my future.  But, as the saying goes... Yesterday is gone, tomorrow hasn't happened yet, all we have is the present.  And at the present I can still walk, talk, breath and love... So, that is what I am going to focus on.  Aside from the dinner (which by the way turned out to be delicious), we had a wonderful visit with everyone... lots of laughter.  And they all loved my chair! They were going to high-jack it and take it home! LOL All in all I had one of the best weekends in a long time. 

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• #3 Comment from valphish 
  4/15/08 3:19 PM | Permalink

  You know, Beck, I don't even cook much anymore at all.  I figure out easy ways to prepare meals.  It isn't worth it anymore.  But then it is just me and sometimes my boyfriend.  Cooking fatigues me so and is just too painful.  I understand you completely.  I like to eat "raw" foods and foods that are easy to pop in the microwave.  Is your hubby someone who likes his food always prepared, homecooked?  So sorry about your pain.  You can email me if you ever want to talk.  Hugs, Val xox
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• #2 Comment from breakaway1968 
  4/15/08 9:50 AM | Permalink

  Don't feel weird talking about that here because that's what your journal is for.  I know it helps to rant in mine at times!  I just feel so much better getting it out.  PLUS you have friends here who will understand and tell you that things are gonna be ok!  I like how your looking at things.   The right here and now...don't worry about the past or even the future right now.  I'm so happy that you had a wonderful time even tho you had a rough weekend personally.  
• #1 Comment from lv2trnscrb 
  4/14/08 11:19 PM | Permalink

  it seems like a wonderful weekend; spending it with loved ones is always so very special!
  
  I'm so sorry you didn't have a chance to prepare the food; it must be hard to lose your ability to do things like this as well as a little bit of your independence
  
  betty