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Merry Christmas
It's done...........Ahhhhhh goes Rebecca's last breath of Christmas duty. Everything is purchased, wrapped, decorated, cleaned. I've yet to place a reason for my procrastination this year. But I do regret it.
I usually follow the Womenfolk tradition, day after Thanksgiving shopping, which I did this year, and then by the following weekend I usually have these items done. All shopping done, tree up, house decorated and all presents fully wrapped and hidden strategically throughout the homestead. Then I can kick back, bake cookies with the girls, attend Christmas parties, etc., etc., enjoy the spirit kind of time.
This year it was a struggle for me all the way around. It wasn't a Scrooge bug or anything drastic for my reasons. I don't know if it's been the bit of extra I've placed on my shoulders to uphold my household and my Parents. Bless my Father, he's amazing in the outdoors, this includes an amazing backyard, front yard, perfectly trimmed tree's, koi ponds etc..........but inside the house, well he falls into the stereotypical male, helpless.
For those of you who follow my journal my Mother is doing good in the scope of someone battling breast cancer treatment. She's really looking forward to the middle of Jan. when she can stop doing these treatments every single day. I spent 5 hours over at her home today cleaning it from top to bottom. She really wanted to still have her annual Christmas Eve party and I know her, if I didn't get my butt over there she would have scrubbed an already spotless 3000 sq. foot home.
She ended up laughing at me today because everytime I would finish a room I would look to her for a further inspection, approval. After the 4th room she looked at me and said "You know Rebecca, your not 11 anymore, I trust your doing a great job!" Good point :o)
I was contemplating it today, this Christmas disinterest this year. I've yet to put a finger on it's reasoning and I'm hoping by tomorrow I'll be washed in those wonderful feelings I associate with Christmas. Maybe I disillusioned myself early on. I thought this Christmas would be so much more special this year in the face of all my family has dealt with this fall. A death by cancer. Two wonderful woman battling breast cancer. I thought it would place a more profound meaning this year, a higher level of spirit maybe? Maybe the emotional stress of it swiped my cheery feelings without my even realizing it. Perhaps the magic is just lurking around waiting for me to see it.
I do feel better now, tonight, the night before Christmas Eve. Better late then never? I hope so! My fingers just felt the need to type about it a bit I guess. See if an answer emerged to my minds pondering.
I do wish to send the very best of this holiday season to those here in Journal Land. I've only been around for a few months, but already have found a warm welcome of my thoughts and a special connection with other journalers. The mind is a wonderful thing to explore and each day we all are privy to something unique and extraordinary. I'm thankful for this medium and the chance to share what I have to offer from inside.
Merry Christmas
Be Safe and Treasure the Magic of the Season
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To your family and you I wish you a Very Merry Christmas. Know that even though your spirits are lagging, the season will find you. Your friends will support you and your family will love you. Just remember you don't have to do it all! Keep your peace of mind and remember this is a time to be thankful.
May you have a wonderful Holiday!!! -
Merry Christmas to you and your family!
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Merry Christmas!
Michele -
Happy Holidays to you and yours... And Wishes for a Bright and Shining New Year!
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12/27/04 10:34 AM