THOUGHTS from The HEADoc

Why  ?

The most appropriate answer to that question is probably the reply given by President Clinton when asked why he did what he did with "that woman." "Because I could," he replied to a probing reporter. I started posting almost 4 years ago because I could, and never really expected that many people would take interest in what I write. I really just needed a place to vent and explore and express my ideas from time to time. Other than my work, I have shown more commitment to this journal than any other project I've undertaken. My writing style is intentionally original and at times incorporates controversial ideas which on occasion may evoke emotional response from a commenter. I know my perspective on life is unique, mainly because of who I am and what I do for a living. When I feel passionately about something I will fight with everything I have to win the cause. Most people I associate with either love me or misunderstand me or may be in transition.

Validation of oneself is crucial but can be detrimental or meaningless if the validator is invalid. I think with my journaling I have sought validation, in a sense. There are other ways besides blogging to vent and to express oneself. So validation has been a source of motivating me to continue posting here. I was thrilled and in disbelief when Author Neale Donald Walsch actually read a few entries and used the word "intriguing" to describe his opinion. Last month Blog Burst and Reuters posted my In Treatment and Intervention article nationally in their entertainment section. Didn't get a lot of clicks but it did feel good to be accepted as a legitimate writer instead of just a novice. Sometimes the thrill of the chase is much more exciting than the capture. Strangely I feel less motivation than ever before to continue posting. I'm really not mad about much anymore. There were several personal crises over the past couple of years but they have only made me stronger and helped to clarify where to go from here.

At times I have tended to displace my frustrations on to politics. The Bush Administration made that quite convenient as an option. I think most people capable of critical unbiased thinking have seen for themselves how bad this President was for the country, in general. Due to the ending of an era I must redo my Satire Page. I think I'll focus less on politics, unless McCain wins the election in November.

I guess my reason for this post is to state that I will probably be making fewer posts in the future. I don't want to shut completely down at this time. I still have a lot of thoughts.

Posted on Sun, April 13, 2008 at 12:23PM by HEADoc in Weekly Entry | Post a Comment | Email | Print

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• #2 Comment from thegirlnexdoor77 
  5/6/08 12:36 PM | Permalink

  Well..I sure hope you do continue to write....but I too have evolved and handle crisis and things a tade bit more privately now...some has to do with the fact that I have family that reads...and some because my desires in life have changed...when you stand back and see your life sometimes it changes things...that as well as sometimes just the lack of energy to do a post when giving it a moment in the day seems to help change the need to have made a post...I started my J to help myself or as a way of crying for help to if no one other than myself...and I must say although I have my moments many of them for the most part it made me a stronger person...I wil also add that your journal has helped me more than you could ever know..Thank you for the time you have put into it.  TerryAnn
• #1 Comment from suehertz 
  4/15/08 9:56 PM | Permalink

  I have been waiting for your entries, I dont think you know how many people read you and not comment.  I am not comfortable commenting in journals, but I sure do enjoy yours.
  
  thanks