ain't that nice!

school is out for all my kids now.  Tomorrow ought to be fun with all 3 home and no food in the fridge.  Guess we will need to go to the grocery early.  I have been on a whirl wind the last couple weeks.  Kandace got so many awards on awards day it was awesome.  She also made straight A's.  I am so proud of her.  Next year she will be a 5th grader.  Man that baffles me having a kid in the fifth grade.  wow my 30 something's are coming to a screaming halt.  My babies wont be in the same class next year Tori is old enough now to move onto kindergarten, keke however, will have to do another year cause she isn't old enough yet.  All my kids have done 2 years of head start. 

Not to leave ya'll on a sour note but things have not gotten any better between J and I.  I am actually at a lose with him.  I can not get thru to him.  I am to the point where I am about to do something drastic I fear it will change our lives forever but also I feel I have no other choice.  I am going to have to break his heart for him to respect mine again.  I know I am taking a chance but I would rather lose him forever than go on the way we have been.  I sleep on the couch more often than not.  we barely eat dinners together anymore.  we haven't been out in months, but he goes out with his friends and i go out with mine.  which is not something I want us to give up but we really have to make time for each other or we will drift farther apart.

 

ok I don't even want to talk about it any more

thinking on going onto bed.

 

I will try not to stay gone so long next time

missed ya'll

kidzmakeucrazy at 11:32:12 PM EDT Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 1 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

I have added some new entries in my other journal.

Here's the link if you don't have that one on alerts.

 

http://journals.aol.com/thisismis72/MissysMidgets/

 

Thanks.

Missy

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she had a crazy party with about 16 kids

they had a great time and she loaded up on gifts

and even got a few new bruises......

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A friend of mine took me to the gamblin boat for my birthday

 no we didn't win big

but we had great fun.

 

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OMG!!  it has been FOREVER.

I have missed all my good friends here in J-land.

where to start??

uhmm,,, my back/neck are doing better.

and that's about all that is doing better.

I wont lie and say i have been to busy

same shit different day

I just haven't felt like cramming cyber space

with a bunch of complaining. 

so lets see we got thru Christmas

and the new year was fun

my oldest daughter turned 10

I turned 36

and my youngest turned 4.

 

days keep turning into weeks, then months then years

and they seem to be going faster and faster.

 

J and I still don't see eye to eye on alot of things

and it seems we waste more time fighting than making up.

I told him yesterday with tears in my eyes that I am just not happy anymore, I don't know what I am going to do about it.  All I know is my life is passing me by and all i want to do is cry.

i know it sounds selfish but I told him if he can't be the man i want i don't want him at all.

he did stop drinking whiskey, but he is still drinking beer all the time.

we had many battles about the whiskey and he finally found out i was serious after the night i kicked the coffee table across the room spilling all the drinks and ashtrays and whiskey in front of his friends.  i also told him 1 more time and i would call the police and have him escorted out of his own home.  I am not putting up with it.

ok enough about all that

see I can't come here with out complaining.

 

 

 

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I did.      check it out...

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9596339524

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He said I was acting like a 4th grader,

lol

I said

"you started it"

 

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I am not happy about it.  J knows how insecure I have been about them.  Heck I even kept it from my sister till Thanksgiving day.  J's family loves to play poker at any get together's.  Well for the last year or so I haven't played cause I couldn't read the cards on the table.  well I brought my glasses but didn't put them on till I HAD too to play cards.  well J was an ass and called me four eyes.  I was immediately hurt. but then he did it again I was shocked, so shocked that my hand came up and caught him under the chin.  I know I embarrassed him, but no more than he embarrassed me...  We got into a huge fight that lasted the whole way home.  Once we got home I went to bed with Kiera and ignored him pretty much ignored him the whole nextday, we talked abit when I told him I was about to call one of my friends that he claims I have none of and see if we can stay with them till I get into the projects.  He said he didn't want to break up.  I told him it wasn't up to him anymore, I was tired of being the butt of his jokes and I was about to get the last laugh.  I also told him he was in trouble now cause my feelings are shut off to him.  I am no longer going to treat him like my babies daddy, from now on I am going to treat him like the asshole he is.  I am so pissed right now.   I feel like everyone I counted on in my real everyday life is just here to get what they can get.  I have had issues with J's sister, then drama with my sister, bad thoughts about one of my close friends and now more bullshit from J. 

At least I still have my online friends. 

I know someone is ganna leave me some love. 

Please!!

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we all did

 

my girls from grade school

 

My old friends from grade school decided we needed to have a slumber party.  During dinner Tina mentioned matching tattoos.  It took some talking into for 2 of the girls but in he end 5 of us got matching daisy tattoos.  I love it.  I am going in Feb to get 3 lady bugs round the daisy they are for my 3 ladies that bug me..  For Christmas me and my sis and going to get similar tats, her's will mean little sister and mine will mean big sister, we haven't decided on any designs yet.  I love my new tat.  and it is where I can easily see it, YIPPIE.  I am so looking forward to getting the others done. 

 

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I have managed to get out a couple of times to hang with my friends

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