Fairie Land

Life is a winding road

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 04:08:44 GMT

Wow... so it's pretty weird to look back on old entries here. Let me catch you up real quickly. I am no longer married. Well, that's not true. We haven't filed the dissolution papers yet, but very soon. Daryl is in Afghanistan. After he got back from Iraq he volunteered to go back overseas. A lot of things went down when he came home, but the short story of it is that we were no longer in love with each other. Honestly I can say now I don't know if I was ever actually in love with him. We just got along so well, it was like living with my best friend. We never had that butterflies in your stomach/ sparks type of relationship.

So while Daryl was gone I became very close with all of my friends here in Ohio. Particularly one was always there and his name is Ben. After I realized my marriage was over and was pretty devastated he offered to take me out all day to get my mind off of it. I hadn't eaten in 4 days, and I don't think I had stopped crying either. That day I ate a huge meal and had a smile on my face the entire day.

Fast forward to 7 months later! Here I am. It's been an amazing 7 months, and I wouldn't trade any of my life experiences for anything. Last week I found out I am pregnant. Ben and I couldn't be happier! I'm having a baby! I have a lot more to write about here. lots of emotions and hormones running through me lately, haha! I just wanted to get on here and see if anyone was still around. So if you're still there give me a holler!

Hi there

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 17:26:36 GMT

Wow it's been forever since I have written an entry here. So much has happened it would take a long time to update everything, buuut I will try. My best friend and pretty much sister came to visit me from California. She had a blast and loved it here, I was so happy. It was my birthday week while she was here so we partied it up for that, and on her last night we had a Pimp's n Ho's birthday bash at Jen's house. I'm sure most of you have seen the pictures on myspace, but if not that's a link there to it.

We are halfway through Daryl's deployment and now I am just focused on making it go by as quickly as possible. I am feeling like I am totally done with the drinking and partying. It was fun while it lasted, but I need to grow up and start dealing with things. The other night I was drunk and just completely broke down and realized I have been holding in all of my emotions since he left. That is not healthy, and obviously drinking every night regardless is unhealthy. I bought a cheap mp3 player and I am going to start running, and I want to quit smoking SO BADLY. Besides the fact that I hate it, Daryl hates that I smoke too. It would be nice for him to come home to a healthy non smoker. It is going to be really hard to switch gears all around and learn how to sit at home at night without being sad. The nights are the worst and the drinking with my friends helped me forget how alone I really felt, but of course that all catches up with you in the end.

Daryl was promoted to 1st LT! Yay for him. I am so proud of my man. Here are some pictures from that... they are kinda big so I am just leaving you guys the links:

http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e210/krissykay0583/Promo5.jpg

http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e210/krissykay0583/Promo8.jpg

http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e210/krissykay0583/Promo13.jpg

http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e210/krissykay0583/Promo14.jpg

He looks so cute in all these pictures, I just want to jump on him. LOL... we were joking on the phone yesterday, that at the airport we were just gunna have to do it in the bathroom the second we see each other.

Hmmm not much else I can think of right now... I did dye my hair really red again and got a haircut finally. Which including some bangs. I really like it! Here are some pictures of it:

Sorry I know they are huge. Anyhow hope everyone is doing good out there, I haven't been reading any J's in a long time either. If you guys wouldn't mind, post me a link to your J so I can update all of my alerts! Thanks xoxo.

peeing my pants

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 00:20:18 GMT

ahahahahaaaaaaa.... you guys have to watch this... this is amazing!

Britney and Kevin: Chaotic Baby Edition

Cops and Lobsters

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 20:50:41 GMT

The other night at work was cops and lobsters ( haha, cops and robbers, get it?) It's when the Xenia police come in and they help us out with our tables and they talk to them and try to get donantions for the special olympics. Mostly they just get in the way, but it was fun to joke around with all of them. Only half the night was over and every single one of these strapping young cops were huffing and puffing and they were like we don't know how you guys do this!!! Hah, vindication for sure. So just so ya'll know... my job is harder than a cops, lol. So towards the end of the night this older lady came in with her daughter... she comes in a lot and always orders a scoth manhattan. A few times she has gotten totally wasted and another she fell out of her booth she was so trashed. So I get sat with them and Gail ( my manager) tells me she can only have two drinks max. So I'm like no problem. This lady is ooold, but she is hilarious. She was like goddamn right I want a manhattan, after I asked her if that was what she wanted... haha and then about an hour later I asked if she wanted another.. I tried my best to space it so she wouldn't want another one and I wouldn't have to tell her, I'm sorry ma'am but I am cutting you off. So anyway she says hell yea I want another baby. LOL... she was great, I feel really bad for her. Especially after you hear what happened next. I walk out and her daughter grabs me and says call 911! So I call and come back out and all the cops are surrounding the table.. I'm like wtf is going on? I go over there and the lady was having a stroke... she was trying to talk and move but she couldn't. It was pretty scary. The ambulance came and took her away, by the time they got there she was talking a little bit so I am hoping she is alright. So yea much excitement at red lobster the other night. Other than that not much going on. Same old same old... of course this wouldn't be a journal entry with tons of retarded pointless pictures. Till next time xoxo.

Watch out... us RL emplyees don't mess around.

Jen's guitar playing lover boy

I didn't even know my face could do that...haha ookk

That's just dirty tom

Um paper towels excite me?

and so do mirrors apparently

Bonfire wooo

I'm Undefined

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 03:04:55 GMT

Aol gets on my nerves so much. It always just closes while I am typing my entries. Anyhooo... like I was typing before that annoying interruption. Last night was my good friend Mike's last show. He is moving to England, I am gunna miss the guy! I am all obsessed with my new toy ( camera) so I took a ton of pictures and video. The first video of the show you can't see much of anything, but it's cool to hear anyway.

Here it is*

They are crazy screamo/hardcore music... which isn't really my thing... but I have to support my friends, of course! Plus when your drunk it's a lot of fun to jump around like an idiot to it.

Here is a picture of me and Mike after the show.

Doesn't he kinda look like Johnny Depp in Pirates of the Caribbean? lol... One of his tables once asked me " ma'am could you please get us our waiter?" I said sure what's his name? They said " Um the one that looks like a pirate" Lmao...

After the show we went to the Sante Fe and just hung out. Here is way too many pictures from that.

I have a big forehead... I want to get bangs.

They are so tough...lol

You can pick your friends and you can pick your boogers... and your friend's boogers?

And of course two more videos taken after way too many drinks.

Here*

and Here*

Justice is served Bitttccchhh

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 23:47:27 GMT

GUILTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was all worth it.

Geezus

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 18:41:39 GMT

Wow, who knew you could pack that much into three days. The flight there was fine, got in to San Jose around 9. My mom and brother picked me up. It's an hour drive to Pacific Grove from there and they were fighting in the car pretty much the whole way. Understandable though, they have been the ones there dealing with most of the stress of the trial... plus my mom is a horrible driver but refuses to let Corey or I drive EVER, lol. I was sooo tired and feeling really bad. I got some kind of respitory/sinus infection before I left. I went to the emergency room right before I was supposed to drive to the airport and it took so long just for him to tell me that, so I didn't even go to the pharmacy to get the meds he prescribed me. Mom gave me some theraflu and besides the fact that I had one little min poodle, one dotson mix, and a cat all wanting to lay on top of me I slept really well. Had to wake up at 7 to be at court. OF COURSE I forgot the shoes I specially bought for court day. ERRRR I hate that. So we had to run to payless and get some nice black shoes. Fun times... made us 5 minutes late. Luckily the whole trial was running late so it was fine. The DA took me into a room to tell me what to expect on the stand. Yes people, up until 2 minutes before I was supposed to be on the stand, I had no idea what they were going to ask me. My mouth was so dry it felt like sandpaper, my hands were shaking uncontrollably and I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest. My mom and I had to sit in the witness room and she was doing worse than I was. We weren't allowed to talk about the case at all. Corey had already testified the day before and I wanted so badly to know what they asked him and how he did but it could cause a mistrial. All he told me was that he got the jury to cry, yay sounds good to me. So I get called into the courtroom and it looks just like it does on tv... lol. Still shaking like a leaf at this point, I have no idea how I got the words out. I still can't talk about what I testified because the case isn't over yet. Probably will be today. My mom's therapist was in the audience? would you call it an audience? I don't know anyhow, she said I did a really good job. I hope so, I was so scared I can hardly remember anything I said. Dia looked so smug up there. My mom told me that Phyllis ( her therapist) said that when Dia testified he lied his ASS off about absolutely everything. More on that later when the case is overthough. That night I went over to Bekki's house and watched American Idol. Brooke ( lives in san diego) was in town too, yay! So we met up with her and Ashley and had a lot of fun. It felt really good everyone being together again. Of course I saw a few other people from high school. Can't go out in that town without seeing everyone you know.

My girls are so pretty.

So I get home around 1am after the drive home from Columbus. Come home to find that my birthday presnt from Daryl is here! He got me the nicest digital camera! It even takes video! I love him so much. LOL he always ends up giving me my present at least a month early, he can't help it. Anywho it's been a crazy week and it's not even over yet. Glad to be home, but feeling really sad to have left california. I feel so grounded there, I can;t explain it. So many emotions boiling over right now and I don't know how to contain them all. I am looking into talking to a professional soon.

I will let you all the know what the jury decided as soon as I find out. Let's hope they don't fall for his lies.

Other side of the world

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 03:42:25 GMT

I don't know if I mentioned this already, but Daryl got a video camera at the BX in Iraq. he was finally able to send me some clips. I can't hear the audio on it on my computer because I needed some codec thing, but guess what!!?? When I uploaded it to youtube I could hear it!! I was so ecstatic to be able to see him and hear his voice. Sooo thought I would share it with you guys... my hunky and now bald hubby in Iraq:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84S2x_4fDzk

Ever since I got to watch it with the sound I can't stop smiling. FOUR MORE MONTHS!!!!

This is not normal...

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 23:16:26 GMT

So I knew I had to work lunch today so after going out last night I came home at a decent time and got about 7 1/2 hours of sleep. Granted it was crappy sleep, but I always have unftiful sleep at night. Still, it's a decent amount of sleep no matter what. So I go to work, it's slow, I get cut at noon. At this point I haven't eaten anything yet. I go home watch t.v and tell myself after this show I will head out and get some groceries. Well I end up passing out... don't even know how it happened, but the next thing I know it is 7 o' clock. That's right I slept an entire 6 1/2 hours on my couch. Now it's about 7:20 and I'm not hungry, yet I haven't eaten jack shit today. I think I am seriously depressed. I mean I know I am feeling down, but people who don't eat and people who can sleep for those extended amounts of time...what I am saying is, those are the symptoms of depressions. I am honestly not hungry, and usually by this point of the day if I haven't eaten anything I would be a ragin monster. I just feel subdued and I want to go back to sleep =( Should I go to the doctor or just hope when all of this shitty crapity crap drama goes away I will be fine?

The child is gone

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 23:01:15 GMT

So many things I can't talk about on here going on right now. It's a huge mess, and I am huge mess. I am struggling to keep things together... I had been doing so well and the circumstances have pushed me all the way back down.

Days like this, I don’t know what to do with myself.
All day - and all night.
I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath.
I say to myself.
I need fuel - to take flight -

And there’s too much going on.
But it’s calm under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion.
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion.

Is that why they call me a sullen girl - sullen girl.
The don’t know I used to sail the deep and tranquil sea.
But he washed me shore and he took my pearl -
And left an empty shell of me.

And there’s too much going on.
But it’s calm under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion.
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion.
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion.
It’s calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion