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Spring Brings the Tulips!
nyone else out in J-Land that is sick of winter? I want spring to come so badly. One day it looks like it is here. The sun is shining and the birds are tweeting. And my tulips and daffodils are starting to bud...but then I woke up 2 times this past week and it was snowing out!!! And HAIL??? What is with that??? Yesterday I got pelted so hard it hurt me LOL I guess that is the reason for my theme this entry to be 'TULIPS'. Tulips are my favorite flower. They are so pretty and springy. They come in so many colors and styles also. I also finally did something fancy with my 'About Me' section. It was so nice to be able to add as much as I wanted without getting that error that AOL only allows 1000 characters or something like that.
went and looked at scooters this past week. The one that I think I want to get is candy apple red and gorgeous. I gave my doctor the paper work to fill out so that the insurance will give approval on it. The guy said that even when the insurance company approves them they only pay 80%. It is a rare day that they pay for the whole thing. Darn! It will be around $400-500 out of our pocket. I haven't a clue where we will get the money to pay our 20%. I guess we will cross that bridge when it comes. He let me test drive it around the store and it runs like a dream. Top speed is 10 mph. Watch out, here comes "Hot Rod Mommy Linda!"
ednesday I called my doctor and told him that the past few weeks I have been getting little blisters up and down both of my shins. They were very concerned and made me an emergency appointment for Thursday.
hursday came and I went to the appointment. The doctor was quite concerned. He told me that he is thinking it might be one of two things. The first they might just be part of the sores that I get on my body from the disease I have called Behcet's Disease or it could be because my kidneys aren't doing their job correct. He said that might explain why I am so swollen up and am peeing so much. My kidneys are getting rid of some but not all and doesn't know what to do to get rid of the excess fluid and is coming out on these blisters. Confusing, I know. But anyway they took lots of blood to do different tests on my kidneys.
riday morning the phone rang and it was my arthritis doctors office. They got my tests back (that was quick!) and the doctor was NOT happy with the test results. They have ordered a few more different kidney tests and they told me where I could go to get them done that was closer to my house. So I plan on doing that this next week a soon as I get the paper work they are sending me. He also told me to get into my family doctor and see him so that both doctors can work together on this.
o I called my family doctor and told them what was going on and have an appointment with him Monday afternoon and and I also asked him if he could recommend a good counselor for me to go to. He gave me the name of 3. He said for me to call the first one he gave me to start with. That he feels she is the best of the 3. She is also able to prescribe medicine like many of you had told me was the best type of counselor to go to. I called and got ananswering machine and left my name and number and within a couple of hours she called back. She sounds very nice. The only thing that I am a a bit concerned about is that she has a very thick accent and so I am going to have to really listen closely to her. She told me what she wanted me to bring and to write down a few things about how I am feeling lately. Before we hung up the phone she said to me (in a very strong polish accent), "I want you to remember this Linda...'Life is Good'...I want to help you to see this, yes, 'Life is Good' Linda". What a wonderful way to think about life. I sure hope it won't take long and my visits with her will make me feel so much better about everything. Being depressed sucks. Oh and my first appointment with her is Monday morning. (Monday is going to busy for me!)
o and I are still fighting terribly. Well, he's yelling and I am crying I should say. He picks Cassie up every Tuesday at 5:45 pm from one of her college classes. That class is downtown and she doesn't like driving down there since the parking is terrible. Since Bo works about 5 minutes from where she goes to class he picks her up. Her boyfriend drops her off but can't pick her up since he then goes to work. Anyway, this is time that Bo and Cassie tend to talk a lot about serious things. Tuesday Bo told me that he didn't want to hurt my feelings but Cassie had just told him on the way home that she isn't having her friends over as much anymore because she is embarrassed about me. The way that I am always in grungy, big, baggy sweats and baggie shirts. That I don't care about my appearance anymore. He began to tell me more of what she said and I was crying so hard that I told him I didn't want to hear another word. I went to bed very early last night so that I wasn't up when she got home. I left a note asking her to leave me a schedule of when she would be home. I am in a state of mind right now that I really don't want to see her AT ALL. Until I can feel better about what she said. This hurt me clear to the core. She left a response with her work and school hours on it and wrote that it's not going to help me to hide in my room...sure whatever.
s I lay in bed last night I started thinking about myself. I am a very caring, loving person. I love my kids friends and will do anything that I am able to for my kids or their friends. I have probably a bigger heart than most of my kids friends. I guess that's why it hurts so bad that my daughter thinks so terrible of me.
y Mom is doing really well. She is recovering much quicker than I thought she would. I call her every day and let her know how I feel bad that I am not able to help her every day like both of my sisters are for her. She told me to stop worrying about it that she totally understands and all that she wants is for me to get better. I also talked to Bo's Mom yesterday and she also told me that she was really proud of me for taking the first step of getting in contact with a counselor and making an appointment that can help me to get better. Why is it that both of my Mom's care so much and are so proud that I am taking these steps and my husband and daughter treat me like crap...like they can care less that I am taking these strides. I know it isn't much. But at first I am going to have to take baby steps to get better. After all I didn't get this way over night.
hange of topic now. Time for happier things. This is one of the funniest things I have heard in a long time. Click here to here an ACTUAL 911 call. (Don't worry, there are no viruses with it! LOL) I can't believe how stupid can be.
nother site to go to that is totally mesmerizing is HERE.
e spent the weekend just hanging out around the house. I spent all of today (Sunday) working on the web site of the company I work for. I added a lot more new books to the site. Bo and the boys went out target shooting for a couple of ours this afternoon. I enjoy just having the house to myself at times.
his is spring vacation week for the boys. I am looking forward to them being home and just spending some time with them. It seems like the older they get the less time we get to spend together.
ennifer from 'A Pickle for Your Thoughts' little baby boy, Zachary, is home from the hospital so we should all be thankful for that. Also, the other Jennifer from 'The Last 50 Pounds' little girl, Kaitlynn, had tubes put into her ears and she is doing a lot better. Such wonderful news for both families!
"THE READERS POLL"
The last question I asked you was:
Do you do anything special for Easter?
Yes - 14
No - 5
Do Passover - 2
My next Question is:
Do you get your nails done at a salon?
Yes
No
Do Yourself
suppose this is all that I have for today. I hope that everyone has a great week! And PLEASE be thinking of me going to the counselor for the first time in the morning! I am very nervous.
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Hi Linny! Love your beautiful gorgeous entry! Tulips are among my favorite flowers! My answer to the nails question is that I do them myself. I use lots of nail art sometimes too like stickers and diamonds lately. Not real diamonds of course. I usually make a fun time of it and paint my little 4 year old Courtney's nails too. Can you believe she will be five in a few weeks and goes to kindergarten this August 1st! I will miss her! I have an entry all about kindergarten woes of registering Courtney and Aaron's current struggles I just made so it's on the mind. I am so glad you found a nice counselor. I think there are just those times in our lives when we all need someone to talk to. She is right... Life is Good! I am still learning that at times. Those of us who have had more than our fair share of tough times have a bit of trouble with this concept though- LOL! So I totally understand what you must be going thru! So sorry about your daughter's comments.... but I think it's great you wear comfortable clothes... I get up everyday and go thru the whole routine... but sometimes I wish that I didn't because then it does get to be stressful at times to keep up with everything and try to look all nice too just so I can clean my house, keep up with bookkeeping, go to Walmart or Home Depot or Lowe's and scrub floors when my cleaning staff needs me! Goofy I know!! I need more days of pony tails and sweats and t-shirts and no make up. I think hubby would actually appreciate the days when I dress up more!! You have a TON of doctors girl!! Look out for Linda on the Scooter!! That would be so much fun! I wish I had one! Hugs,
Lisa
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Linda,
Thanks for visiting today and I enjoyed your comments
Also, I know I have said this a couple of times, but I LOVE the great graphics you have in your entries. The sparkling pink tullips and the simple pale wildflowers are gorgeous!
It makes me feel good when I stop by!
Cyndy -
Hi Linny,
Seems like things keep on keeping on, don't they? I do wish the spring weather would stay consistant, but then I really don't want to deal with another drought this year either, so I do welcome the rain. Between the docs and your family it seems you have much to think about these days. Try not to let it get the best of you...easier said than done sometimes, I know, but it is possible.
My answer to your question: Yes, occasionally.
~Dona
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Hi Linny,
Thank you for the kind comments that you make on my journal about Peggy.
I love the way your journal looks! You do an excellent job! WOW!
You said that I am a strong woman. Someday's..I don't feel so strong! (smile).
Peggy's body will deteriate and has already started. She will go to a nursing facility within the year. It is so sad because she is so young and most ALZ patients are old.
After reading your journal, I think that you are the strong one!!!
I will keep you in my prayers.
The scooter sounds like a good thing! Love candy apple red!
Are you not able to walk well?
I hope you can get it soon.
Thank you for caring about Peggy and Me. I miss her so much!
Mary Louise
4/16/05 2:13 AM
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