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Feeling Chillin'
Happy Mother's Day!

t is Mother's Day weekend. For the past few years my daughter has taken me out to brunch for Mother's Day. She wants to do it again this year and also wants to take my Mom, her Grandma, with us. I don't know if Mom will be able to go though. It still takes a lot out of her to go out and she doesn't eat very much yet either. So we may just to out for brunch and then come home and get the boys and Bo and go out to see her. I always buy her a nice plant or a bouquet of flowers. I like to get a combination of tulips and trumpet iris's. They look so pretty together. But then a live flowering plant she can put outside. So, I will just have to decide when I go and look. I feel so blessed to have such a special Mother. One that loves me and would do anything in her power to help us. When I read about other people that aren't close to their Mom's it breaks my heart. I don't know where I would be without my Mom's love and guidance through the years.

have also been blessed to have a very special Mother-in-law. She is such a neat lady and loves me also. They have taken me into their family with open arms. My ex MIL wasn't as nice. In fact she didn't come to our wedding because I wasn't Catholic and the wedding was in my church which was a Presbyterian church. It always hurt my ex-husband that his mom was this way. So when I got remarried and Bo's Mom was so nice to me I truly felt blessed to be a part of my new family.

o Happy Mother's Day Mom and Mom Sandy.

oth Bo and my youngest son, Willy, have really bad colds. I normally don't get colds because I take antibiotics 24/7. But not this time. I now have their cold. I hate when I get them because I get them far worse than most people. Due to the fact that my immune system is really low. It is my chest and I am coughing up blood and lots of other crud. It' really disgusting to say the least LOL. I just hope that this time it doesn't turn into pneumonia like it has in the past when it is in my chest.

or those interested I updated my Recipe Journal this week with how I make BBQ ribs and hopefully I will be adding another recipe this weekend for my version of potato salad.

HINGS THAT REALLY IRRITATE ME:
- Bo goes into our bedroom to do something and then comes back to the living room and leaves the light on.
- The kids and BO especially will get a cup or plate out of the cupboards and then leave the cupboard wide open!!!
- And in our kitchen we have 2 throw rugs. Bo CAN NOT walk on these rugs without messing them up. Why can't he just pick his big, dumb feet up???
- And last night was a doozy! The kids were all gone so we went out for Chinese food. I asked Bo to put the leftovers in the fridge. He opened it and asked where he should put it. I told him in the bottom drawer. He responds by saying they didn't fit in the drawer and told me to do it. I ignore him thinking he had done it, but, a little while later he looks at me and asks me when am I going to get up and put the food away. I glance out in the kitchen and the fridge was wide open!!! Can you believe that? He just left it open?? What an idiot. I get up take the food and put one in the top drawer and one in the bottom drawer and then slam the fridge shut, wipe my brow, and say loudly, "Whew, that was really hard!" MEN!!!!
- For my final irritation in this entry...I am now officially ticked off! This past week I have gotten 3...get me 3...emails from people on AOL that I have no idea who they are...they are those kind of emails that at the end say "if you mail this email to 5 people within a certain amount of time you will have good luck...10 people you will have really good luck etc...you know the kind right? They must just open the member directory and pick a bunch of names they don't know and send them to them. Well anyway, I got another one tonight from someone I didn't know and so I replied back to them this:
"DO I KNOW YOU? WHY in the HECK are you mailing me crap if I don't even know u....STOP IT..................NOWWWW!!!!"
I have had enough of these. So from on if I get more from an unknown person they will get the same response!
ednesday was my doctor appointment with my kidney doctor. After going over all the blood work I have taken in the past couple of months he said that my levels are off but not near as bad as he was afraid they were...he wants to keep a close eye on them. He did say that he thinks the reason I am getting all these sores and blisters isn't because of my kidneys but because my Behcet's disease (or syndrome as it is also called) is getting worse. I amnow taking 2 antibiotics daily rather that just the one. I have to take them 24/7 so I am constantly on antibiotics. They don't know really how to handle this disease since it is fairly new in the states. They still don't exactly know what causes it but they do have some ideas. By the sounds of it the Behcet's disease can be blamed for lots of my problems. Some of the symptoms are:

kin infections, sores (I get these all over my body and they are terrible. The ones in my mouth hurt the worst) , arthritis, confusion, memory loss, depression, fatigue, lethargy, eye problems (which includes blurriness and dizziness), exhaustion and more. I have all of these. And the latest symptom that I have just started getting is numbness in my left leg. I just noticed it the past couple of days. I can't feel right below my left knee. I poke and prod and feel nothing. It is totally numb. I just hope that it doesn't go any further than the knee area. This is something that I am going to have to let my arthritis doctor know about when I see him. Since he is the one that treats me for it. I haven't told Bo about it yet but I will this weekend.

hursday was the day that I went to my new counselor. I really liked him a lot. This is how the appointment went:

e skimmed through my life so that he can get to know me better. We talked about my ex-husband and our marriage, about losing my dad and little girl so close together (they died a month apart), how Bo wishes I was the same person I was when we got married, how I'm too nice (I have a hard time disciplining the kids). He then asked if I was ever abused as a child and my relationship with my parents and sisters. I told him that I had never been abused as a child (but did tell him that my ex got abusive towards the end of our marriage) and my relationship with my family was wonderful, that I love my family very much. He wanted to know if I ever have the desire not to be here (commit suicide). I told him NO, never. I could never do that. He also doesn't think I should be doing so much for Bo and the boys and that I need to concentrate on me more. For an example...waking Bo and the boys up every day and making them hot breakfasts every day. He feels they all should have to do that on their own. That they are able to do that. He thinks they have gotten too comfortable with me taking care of them. But this is the way I was brought up. My mom always made us hot breakfasts and woke us up. I then cried really hard when I told him how I'm having a really hard time with my kids growing up. But then he brought up a really good point. He said if I am strong enough to bury my baby girl and dad within a month and go through all that grief then I am strong enough to let my kids grow up. I told him that I am a real softy and that everyone walks all over me. He said I need to stop letting that happen. He also asked if I ever get angry and I told him that I do but I keep it inside and get very quiet when I am mad. It seems like the hour went by very quickly but I do feel that he is going to be able to help me a lot. I made 3 more appointments.

ow that he has gotten to know a little about me, each week we are going to pinpoint just a couple of things and deal with them rather than everything all at once. It makes sense to me. So, each week I will update you on how that weeks appointment went.

Sites of the Week:
- Jennifer over at The Last 50 Pounds is doing the March of Dimes walk and she needs to get at least $350 in donations to be eligible to do the walk. So if you have a healthy child go over to Jennifer's Journal and donate to the cause. It's for the MARCH OF DIMES who helps those precious premie babies and for babies born with birth defects. Even if it is just $5, every dollar counts. I have donated and feel awesome for doing it. And here is the link to just go and donate and she will be notified that you did. (Click the picture)

- This site is plain stupid, but you have to see it! The guy puts gas into his car and goes into pay while it is still pumping. Comes out and forgets the hose is still in his car and gets into his car and drives away! The pump gets pulled over and the pump goes up in flames. I think this is the Stupid Site of the Week! It is called: Forgetful Man Sparks Gas Fire.
- This is a MUST SEE! It is so freaking funny! I laughed so hard when I watched this video. For any moms that have nursed or are nursing their babies you will love this. It is adorable! Upside Down Mom! (It is graphic in the sense that you see the Mom's breasts)
- Survivors of war take major risks on the roads after returning home. This is just plain sad.
- Check your reflexes. This is really fun little game! My best time was 0.184 A Rocketing Rabbit!!

his week I backed up both of my journals. After hearing that AOL has been deleting some on accident (or was it?) I decided to do it to mine. I didn't want to lose everything. I found out the quickest and easiest way at Journey to Peace's Journal.

Dumb Laws of the Week:
In Alabama it is illegal to play dominoes on Sunday.
In Alaska it is legal to shoot bears, BUT waking a sleeping bear for the purpose of taking a photograph is prohibited.
In Arizona hunting camels is prohibited. (So Kara put away your gun LOL)
In Arkansas there is a law that says school teachers who bob their hair will not get a raise.

"THE READERS POLL"

The Last Question I Asked You Was:
Have you cut down on your driving
since gas prices have sky rocketed?

Yes - 8
No - 16
My Next Question Is:
I would like to know how many of my readers are Mom's since it is Mother's Day weekend.
So, are you a Mom or Mom to be?
Yes
No

ave any of you planned on taking the day off from work (or school) to go and see the opening day of Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith? Opening day is May 19th. Our family is so excited. We finally get to see how Anakin becomes Darth Vader and also about how Padmé hides the fact she gives birth to Luke and Leia from their dad. (Darth Vader). Bo has taken the day off from work and I told both the boys they can stay home from school that day so they can go also.

riday morning I told Bo that I wasn't going to make him breakfast. He would have to fend for himself. So right before he is leaving for work he tells me if I follow him he will buy me a breakfast sandwich at Subway! So of course I followed him in my car. What a good sandwich. French bread with provolone cheese, eggs and bacon. Very tasty indeed. Maybe I will tell him I am not making him breakfast more often!

ell, I think this is enough for this entry. I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend and if you are a Mom my wish for you is that you have a VERY



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<--------------------Written by lindainspokane Blog about this entry
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I am a mommy to two! I really like what you did on Kara's "about me" section...how do you do that? You are so talented and I love all the graphics you use! it looks like it takes a long time to do an entry? take care and have a great week!
~Kristin -
FIRST TIME HERE, YES IM A MOM.
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Your journal has the most beautiful graphics I've ever seen. Wow.
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Linda,
I read this entry as soon as I got the alert, but I didn't have time at THAT moment to comment, so I saved it for later to go back to. Unfortunately, LATER got even LATER and here I am FINALLY! LOL.
I want to thank you DEARLY for putting my site on your journal with a link to my march of dimes walk a thon donation page. Because of you and your entry, I raised the final $35.00 and got to my GOAL!!!!! My walk is this Saturday and I am very excited. :) Rain or shine, I am there with my big behind!
And to answer your question...I am a mom times three!! :)
Thanks again for all your support. I look forward to your NEXT journal entry!!!
Hugs,
Jen



5/19/05 1:15 PM
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