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Feeling Happy
an update on me! and yes, i am home now!!



I
Iguess you all are wondering whets going on so I will try to tell you.
first I want to thank everyone for the great gifts, cards, pictures,
letters and words of encouragement. it really helped me ..first let me
tell you what happened to me...I will do my best but typing is now hard
as I can no longer use my left hand.. so hunting and pecking with one
finger on my right hand...

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was June 20, 2005,I was at my computer and my youngest son heard a
crash...he ran to check it out and found me on the floor biting my
tongue almost off. .he ran to get my daughter and neither knew what to
do so they called Bo at work who told them to call 911 and he was on
his way home.

the
hospital (I do NOT) remember any of this...they found out I had a
stroke, heart attack and a blood clot in my brain (a aneurism) that
burst. ((I then had to have 2 brain surgeries. the doctors told my
family they didn't expect me to live...then while on the operating
table (9 hours later) I got a grade 4 bed sore on my left butt cheek..
they were more worried about saving my life then moving me.. (go
figure!) so now I have a huge wound on my butt that hurts terrible. I
have a nurse who comes 3 days a week to change the dressing on it...the
stroke damaged my left side...I have a hard time hearing, and seeing
out of my left side now. .and my left arm and leg are very weak...they
put me into a self induced coma for 2 weeksafter the brain surgery...

am having lots of memory problems now...and using the computer is a lot
harder now for me.. so bear with me...I have to have a cat scan every 3
months now (my dad died from a brain aneurism)...when they were ready
to release me from the ICU ward at the hospital they weren't sure where
to put me.. they thought about a nursing home but I through a fit and
refused. so I was put into a rehab centerI the one thing I
worried about the most and still do, is that my best wont be good
enough. had physical therapy for 8 hours a day...it sucked and was very
hard and I was so lonely. but my wonderful husband came every day for
lunch and dinner and the kids came often also. and lots of friends came
also to help me pass the loneliness. and I was always on the phone :)

have learned when u have a near death accident like I did you become
alot more emotional. that is so true. I love my husband so much. he has
been amazing through all of this and takes such good care of me...I
can't believe all the problems he and I had a year ago. I have a hard
time when he goes to work now...

had my birthday in the hospital. my most memorable for sure...my sister
made me a cake and my mom and kids brought me Chinese food and I got
great gifts...little did I know this would be the last time I ever saw
my mom alive again...she passed away 2 months later. the cancer won the
battle. AT the rehab center I had to beg like crazy for them to allow
me to go to the funeral. I finally got to go. I miss my mom so
terribly. She was too sick to come to the hospital to see me again..
and they wouldn't let me leave to go see her..

This is the last picture taken of my mommy and me and my daughter...a week before my accident and before my hair was shaven off too! (and before my 100 lb weight loss too)


o
a word of advice.. Call your mom and let her know how much u love her
very often because you never know when it will be too late. while in my
coma I had lots of night -mares ..they were so weird..

lso
while in the hospital, Bo bought us a new home and the family worked so
hard and moved us into it. I love my new home so much. I am so happy to
be home with my family and pets and in my new home. My husband is great
and We are both so in love once again. He takes such good care of
me...my parents would be so proud of him. I was able to return home
Thanksgiving. I had 7 therapists coming to the house every day from 7
am-9 pm daily until I said no more. I wanted too enjoy life with my
family and my new home.. I was sick of it and very tired. I now do my
own therapy at home and am slowly getting better. I still need help but
not that much. I use a walker to walk now. and have a wheelchair I have
to use rarely. so, I still have a ways to go but each day I do more and
more...

hate not being the old me. It has been a huge adjustment for the whole
family.. But Bo and the kids are great and I love them all so much.
I was approved for medicaid which is state aid and every day they
send a girl (her name is Tonia )to help me with things surround the
house while Bo works.. she is wonderful and a huge
help to me. (she cleans my house and cooks for me) At first I was
hesitant to get any help but her and I get along great. the
greatest thing is if anything good could of come out of all this. was)
I have officially lost 100 lbs. I have so many clothes that fit
now. it's so exciting.

remember coming out of the coma and seeing Bo
and the kids looking at med asking me if I knew who they were. .I
thought to myself, "why the heck wouldn't I know who they were" they
were my family that I loved and adored. the doctors weren't sure if I
would remember anything. .thank GOD I do...

ur
insurance company rents me my air hospital bed monthly because of the
big sore on my butt! I can't wait until its healed so we can put our
king sized bed back up. i admit I miss sleeping/snuggling with my hubby
LOTS! (wink)
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hey had to shave my head so now its coming back very curly. .i look like little orphan Linny LOL

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alentines
day is Bo and my 9th anniversary. I wish I could think of something
special to do or give him for all he does for me...
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gain thanks everyone for the great love and support.
I am trying to read journals again but I have a hard time seeing/reading small fonts.
A special thanks to Debbie for keeping everyone updated. .her and i talked on the phone several times during my recovery time...she's a wonderful friend, I just wish we lived closer!
!Written by lindainspokane Blog about this entry
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I would love to hear from you, and see how you're making out. You are missed.
Jimmy -
Linny
I have away from reading journals for sometime now, I quickly glanced through yours. I was very shocked at what happened.
I am so glad that you are getting through this and that you have the maximum support from your family.
I want to Thank You for your advice on Talking to Mom too! We have been in an arguement for the longest of times and we just made up.
Thanks again
Take Care
Angela -
Linny, Like so many others I have missed yor journal enteries. I have been away from Aol for a year now, But am back, and one of the first journals I tried to find was yours. I am glad beyond words to see that you have survived and thrived. I am so thankful to God that you are still here amoung us. God Bless you.
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Lindsa, Just stoped by to see how you were - I remember talking to you husband when you were in you comma- glad you went back home. thought I would stop by to see how you were, CHERYL
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9/30/06 2:46 PM
Lisa
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