~~ Life with Linny ~~

Around 3 pm yesterday the doctor came in to check on me. He wanted me to stay one more night but I really didn’t want to. I wanted to come home. To my family, my dogs, my own bed. He looked at my stomach and was concerned it was still pretty red. I told him that I would agree to take any antibiotics he wanted me to and I would call my family doctor today and get in to see him. He finally gave in and let me come home last night. I was so happy.  We had to make a couple of stops on the way home. I stayed in the car though. We stopped and got my anitibiotics also. When we got home all I could think about was having a cigarette. My whole family came unglued. Told me how dare I even think about smoking with all I had put them through over the weekend. I know I need to stop smoking and I plan on it. But right now isn’t the time. I have so much stress with everything that is going on in my life and all my worries about what to do. I snuck down to the garage and let the dogs outside since it was raining so badly I had an excuse. I hurried and had one while they were out doing their business. And again before I went to bed I let them out one more time and had another half. I am finding I can’t smoke very much now though at a time. My throat is raw from the tube and my tongue and mouth is all ripped up. I guess I bit my tongue a bunch during all of my ordeal. I have the best medicine in the world though for mouth sores. (Its called Kanka and I get it at Wal-Mart) It numbs it and puts a protective coating on it. I get mouth sores all the time from the behcets disease I have so keep this on hand at all times. But, those sores aren’t anything as bad as what I have now from biting my tongue. I am still coughing and spitting up a small amount of blood but the doctor said that that won’t last that long.

I slept very badlast night. I kept having to get up and put medicine on my tongue. I guess maybe I should have stayed one more night in the hospital. They told me that it was the smartest thing I could have ever done was coming to the ER when I did. If I had stayed home and fallen asleep I would have died.

So, again thank you for listening to my story about my weekend. It was a weekend that I hope I never, ever have to endure again.  And also a BIG thank you to my dearest friend in the world, Debbie, for letting everyone know what happened to me and putting the word out to everyone. Also, for all the calls she made to me and Bo to check on how I was doing. I love you so much Debbie.

I hope everyone has a great Monday…my alert says I have 145 journals to read! So, I will be busy the next day or 2…I may not comment for a couple of days until I get all caught up again. I hope you all understand….specially since I still have to make an appt and go see my doctor today also. I will keep you all posted as to any thing else I may find out. Again, thank you.

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