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Subject: It's Grey's Time!!
Time: 8:43:00 PM EDT
Author: linnpooh
Mood: Happy
It's Grey's Anatomy Night!!
I can't believe it's been a week since I've posted.....YIKES!!! It's not because I've fallen off the wagon though, I'm still being a good girl. I've just got too much on my plate right now and have a puppy under foot getting into everything!!! Tonight is Grey's night....I wonder what will happen between George & Callie? I saw on the previews that Derek & Meredith are going to stay "broken up" yet still have sex. I'm not happy with this, and you'd think by now the writers would understand that we want the whole thing with those two! We want a loving relationship where they work together to solve problems and stay together....not just meaningless sex. Oh well...we'll see how it goes!
It's been a good week diet wise, I've stayed on plan and kept up with making sure I eat fruit & veggies again. We're getting ready to fly to AZ (with my parents) to see my niece get married, Mandy is in the wedding so we will meet up with her there, too! After....her, Marv & I are going to The Grand Canyon and on to Vegas for a couple of days while my parents visit with my brother. If you remember, in the past when we went to Disney, I spent weeks of prep time looking up menus and planning every bite of food that went into my mouth. To be honest, when I got back home after the second trip of planning.....things were never the same for me. After 10 days of depriving myself constantly, I almost exploded when I returned home......maybe trying to make up for everything I felt I missed, I'm not sure. But I can actually pin point that as the spot where I lost my motivation.
So, this vacation is going to be different. I'm not going to throw caution to the wind and eat everything in site because "hey, I'm on vacation"......but I'm not going to say no to absolutely everything and have salads the entire trip, either! I will simply make the best choices I can, limit my portions, and not snack all day long just because it's available. I'm going to eat a very filling breakfast, maybe a salad for lunch and a nice dinner....limiting portions. I'm also going to eat a piece of Julie's wedding cake because for almost two years I never had a piece of birthday or wedding cake and I always felt so bad about it. I will use my head in choosing....if I want it, I will have a small piece, but I won't eat it just because everyone else is. I think learning to figure out how these things effect what and how much I eat is very important. We leave on Oct 19....so I have a little time yet before I need to put my plan into action.
I went shopping for clothes for the wedding and dissolved into tears. I can't believe the size I was down to and had I kept going....I could have worn something fabulous. But instead, I'm having to order clothes on line and wear things I don't like because it's all that will fit me. When you are only 5 feet tall and weigh what I do.....well, they just don't make clothes for those proportions. I have no one to blame but myself that I'm back to not fitting in seats, having to ask for belt extenders, and huffing & puffing when I walk just a few feet. I'm very sad to say I'll probably have a wheelchair again in Vegas....as it's just too much walking for me. I'm very depressed. Why would I do such a thing to myself after experiencing the freedom of living like a normal person for a while? I so enjoyed going on rides with Mandy & Marv, and once again, I have to sit on the sidelines and watch. I'm trying to keep my chin up and just go forward though, so I'd so appreciate your prayers that I can stay with it and be more forgiving to myself about all of this. I know I let a lot many down, and having to face people every day as they discover I've gained it all back hasn't been easy.....the look of horror, and then pity, on their face is more than I can take at times. Just keep praying for me!
The good news is.....Abby has no cancer of any kind!!! YEAH!!!! The Histopathology showed a tumor like growth that was some sort of skin disorder, maybe a hair follicle grown the wrong way. The only thing that matters is that she will be with us for many years to come, and that makes me very happy! Here is just a short bit from her along with some photos.
Abby's Adventures.......Vol # 5
Hi, it's me....Abby! I'm feeling very good these days and I mind my Mom about not biting at my incision while on her watch! I get my stitches out on Monday and then I can finally get my bath and my Cocker cut at the groomers....I'm way over due! I still have to wear my tee-shirt when I go to bed at night because I get a little naughty about biting at it when Mommy is a sleep!
Who Me, Naughty????
I've been working on my training and this week we are working on "off" when I get up and grab things off chairs and tables. Personally, I think it's very fun and don't understand why I can't do it. I also like to beg while my family eats, and my Mommy says I'm some kind of word like "obnoxious".....although I can't imagine she thinks I'm anything but cute :) She is training me to lay on my rug while they are at the table and I'm doing pretty good....I liked jumping up and down on them, crying, and panting much better, but I guess the rug will have to do!
I love playing with my toys and my Daddy said it's looks like a hurricane went through the toy box.....I think it looks fine, here are the pictures, what do you think?
This is how Mommy leaves it each night after she picks up:
This Is It An Hour After Getting Up!
This is my Mom's favorite picture of me this week....I do look cute, huh?
That's it for me...make sure to hug your pets this week and buy them a lot of treats and stuff, okay? Love, Abby
I'm done too, as Grey's is almost on!! I'm taping Ugly Betty tonight so I could get this journal done....I'll try not to go so far between entries again. Have a good week and stay happy & positive, I'll try to love myself more....you do the same!
Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves.
~Dale Carnegie
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Hi Linda, sorry I haven't been around in awhile. The first thing I have to say is... that Abby is the cutest puppy I've ever seen, and the picture of her with her little t-shirt on just clinches it! ADORABLE. : ) The second thing is... thank you for finding it in your heart to begin again, because it makes me feel like I can, too. -Becky
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Linda,
I hope you have a wonderful trip, enjoy the wedding and Vegas. You are a wonderful, loving person please remember we all get ourselves into situations from time to time, but its how we grow, (not talkinging about sideways, as I have done myself) learn and become better people for it. Just look at all you have learned from this experience. You will reach your goal and you will be able to maintain your goal because of all you have learned about yourself and what triggers your eating. Remember you are loved by the Lord your family and friends for the person you are, not the person you want to look like.
Yes, I know that it would make you happers but its not a requirment for our love.
many Blessings, Love & hugs to you and yours.
Abby is a Doll
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Linda,
I hope you are feeling better today and I hope you have a wonderful vacation. Give sweet Abby cakes a bunch of kisses for me. I am so proud of her for being so smart and working so hard in doing all she is asked and being so OBEDIANT! What a smart girl. She must have a very patient mom working with her!!!! ;)
I hope your cough is all gone by the time you leave for your vacation. My thoughts and prayers will be with you!!!
Hugs to ALL of you!
Love,
Jen -
i am loving Grey !! can't wait for this week. I want you to know that you didn't let me down. Losing weight is so hard and I surely know how easy it is to get side tracked and gain some of the weight back ~ You know the good thing ~ you got back on track and YOU are here now and doing great. You are a awesome person and I love you..
take care,
Dondie
10/14/07 9:05 PM
Hope everything is going well at the Abby's family house. I know you're getting ready for your trip and I hope you have a wonderful time. Weddings are such hopeful times. Just bask and enjoy (and hug Mandy lots).