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Hey everyone, I just wanted to do a fast update since I am at my cousins house and still in Alabama. I will not go into explain much but just telling what has happen....the hub is still making it as well in Iraq as he can. He has encountered somethings that goes beyond my own mind but I understand this is war and somethings you just have to do. Ok since I last reported anything I decided to divorce the hub. BIG question I am sure is WHY...well he let me down. He said it could never happen but he ended up hooking up online with some females. Some he even decided to call up on the phone. Anyone that thinks for one second that these guys or even gals over in that war zone cant do things against ones marriage is fooling themselves. I know that it doesnt happen with everyone and trust me I never thought it would happen in my marriage but it did. I know that these internet sluts that show their boobs and more off on a web cam to some Soldier are just trash but those bitches came into my marriage (invited of course by the hub) and tore my world apart. The hub has begged for my forgiveness and even though at this moment I still have not given that to him, I am praying very hard for guidence. I love him and that didnt stop over night and sure I wanted to get revenge but I dont think anything I could ever do will stop the pain I feel in my own heart. I heard the stories before he left but he assured me it would never happen to us....IT DID! He isnt a bad man he is just a man....a man that enjoyed watching nasty ass women take their clothes off on cam and talk dirty to them. Those bitches give women a bad rap! Makes me sick! So try saving a marriage when you are thousands of miles away....it isnt easy. I have set a deadline that I will either have my marriage or end the damn thing. I wont give that date away since that is the time the hub will be home and gone on leave. MySpace IM is where he found most of the women and one was even a freaking ARMY WIFE whose hub is deployed to Iraq himself. This bitch even made plans to come to the base and meet my husband and stay at the hotel next to our home. My hub will be home before hers. Where they are based isnt very far from where we are. And I thought we was suppose to stick together.....she asked him how he was going to get by with spending time with her without me finding out and he told her he would tell me he was working late. He told me that he only said what she wanted to hear so he could see her do things on cam. What a stupid woman she was....hope her husband catches her slutty ways! So anyways you could say I am still very bitter over all this. There is so much more that I dont have time to go into. I have my final dental surgery on the 9th and I hope to be headed home anywhere from the 15th to the 20th of this month. I will be back up and running then. So please pray for me to make the right choices. Pray I wont go home and show my husband how much my heart is hurting by making his hurt worse. Hugggs!!!
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damn doll...i'm sorry it happened.
that really sucks. trust is the hardest thing to regain...and even harder to give back once it's been taken for granted.
so sorry.
you take care of yourself.
~Bernadette -
I'm so sorry. I wish you well with this and am praying for you.
Traci -
I am sorry this happened, it will take a long while for the pain to ease. I will be praying that you make the right decision.
Best wishes and prayers
Barbara -
I guess my first question is did he confess or did he get caught? It certainly strains a marriage either way, but I'd be more inclined to believe that if he confessed, he really is sorry and interested in fixing things between you. It takes time to heal, but I have seen marriages face much worse and come out the better at the other end. I wish you well. Estela
5/6/08 5:48 PM