From the Edge of Dementia

MONDAY. 

I was dreading today, and I woke up sinking...  but I can't continue this pattern.  I've got to pull myself up by my boot straps and continue on.  The truth is I can't do a goddamn thing about what happened last week.  It's done.  I can only move forward and hope for the future, whatever that might hold.  I can only learn my lessons and try to grow from them. 

However, I got a link in my inbox today that I had to snicker at.  For any of you that visit this blog in October know, I have a morbid sense of humor.  My daily dose comes from a newsletter I subscribe to called Morbid Fact Du Jour.  This morning it included a link for these:

This sort of thing is right up my alley (although now might not be the right time to draw attention to that).

Anyway, on a MUCH lighter note...  As I mentioned last month, I had been working on calming and growing in spirit and one of my exercises has been working through the ABC's of spiritual growth (From Spirituality and Health magazine).  I wrote them all out along with the accompaning "exercises" on little squares of paper which I put in my Spirit Bowl, drawing one each week.  Last week, I drew "Shadow" which was dealing with all your dark crap.  I find it interesting after the fact that my "darkness" emerged lashing out at the world.  Considering whatI did and how I handled things, I decided I didn't do the S letter much justice (since I'm sure my end behavior was not what they meant as the objective), so I threw it back into the Spirit bowel.

This morning I drew (of all things) JOY.  Here are my exercises:  Celebrations, Dancing, Drumming, Singing, Laughter, Smiling, Rejoicing in another's good fortune. 

I laughed out loud at the irony of it. 

Still, I'm going to give it a try.  I might actually have a chance given that it's Christmas time.  Today I start full force on Christmas projects.  I suppose over the next couple of weeks I'm going to find out whether Christmas is really as magic as everyone says it is. 

For now, though, there's a hot tub waiting for me.

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