Hold On World I'm comming Through!!

Im not really sure why I decided to write about this memory. Im not even sure why this memory popped into my head this morning I wassitting here just minding my own busness looking at web sites online when suddenly out of nowhere a mind picture of a barn style white house with black shutters and a picket fence appeared in my mind.  I remembered riding the school bus and the one girl that got off the bus at that stop every day. She had a name im sure lol but for the life of me I cant remember it. I wasnt in her class at school. Her house for some reason conveyed safety and happiness and I remember feeling warm feelings, happy and calm feelings when we stopped and let her off the bus each day.

Why this memory should surface and what cased it to surface from being filed away many many years ago is beyond me. Mybe I just needed that safe, warm, happy feeling this mroning. Life can be brutal and friday was pretty brutal feeling to me. Im not sure that I have anuthing to verify the validity of my feelings. Nothing tangible anyway. There is a hostility brewing at work between teh old hands who have been there for a couple of years and the new hands that just began to work int eh last 6 months or so. I am caught in the middle of said hostility as one of the "new hands" works asmy assistant and I am one of the "old hands" who is friends with people on both sides of the coin. I dont like being in the middle. I dont like having my thoughts grilled by either side. I dont like having to listen to one side  peck the otherside to death with hurtful comments that arent made to each other but pass from one side of my ear to the other because everyones telling me how they feel and I didnt even  open that door or offer that shoulder for them to cry on.

 Maybe its because Im feeling unsafe since the wreck and since Im having to drive the "junk mobile" as my son calls it. I am going  car shopping today by the way and I cant wait!! I want so bad to find something TODAY!!! My classes at the college start back on Tuesday, and I really cant drive teh "junk mobile" to down town. Its just not safe with one light not working and the back glass gone and plastic covering it and things protruding from the side and under neith the car that rattle and vibrate and make all kinds of scary noises.

 I am just spectuating on the reason that the memory of that house popped out into my consious memory after 30 years of laying filed away and  forgotten. Maybe I just needed a bit of that safe, calm, happy  feeling today.

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• #3 Comment from littlelady1699 
  3/4/08 1:24 PM | Permalink

  hellllllloooooo
  
  
  Are you ok?????
  
  
  
  Patty
• #2 Comment from littlelady1699 
  2/2/08 1:32 AM | Permalink

  Just wondering what you are up to these days.....hope you are ok?
  
  Patty
• #1 Comment from mcknansmom 
  1/12/08 12:12 PM | Permalink

  most likely, yes, that is what you are needing.  that sense of "all is well with my world".
  
  I find just telling everyone enough is enough at work sometimes helps.  
  
  take care and good luck with the shopping
  tina