WATCHING MY SISTER....DISAPPEAR

Grief is an on going process. You never get finished as I have realized.

I find myself back at the door of anger.

Peggy is gone but still here. Missing but present.

I hate what this disease has done to my beautiful sister.

I hate what this disease has done to me.

Sometimes, I feel numb when I think of Peggy and other times....

I'd like to shake her and say...Wake up, stop it!

Life keeps moving forward and I find myself right back at

another of the revolving stages of grief.....Anger.

It is like living in the movie "Ground Hog Day".

I am glad you cannot know or feel how angry I am at you tonight, Peggy.

I am just tired, tonight.

Tired of knowing you are there but you are not.

I love you today anyway, Sister.        

Mary Louise

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• #12 Comment from magogos 
  2/20/08 9:38 AM | Permalink

  You- and the whole family-continue to be in my thoughts. Margo
• #11 Comment from motoxmom72 
  2/19/08 6:57 PM | Permalink

  So sorry life is rough for you right now.  
  
  Saying prayers for your DH as well.
  
  Hugs,
  Gina
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• #10 Comment from pprrrr39 
  2/19/08 6:42 PM | Permalink

  I am so very sorry to hear about your sister, my thoughts and prayers are with you all.
  
  Good luck with your husbands surgery
  hugs Jayne
• #9 Comment from ceilisundancer 
  2/19/08 4:30 PM | Permalink

  Well written.
  
  I, too, wish she'd be there as herself, fully.  That all who suffer from dementia, could return to being fully themselves again.
  
  My father had dementia, caused by his many mini-strokes.  My uncle has Alzheimer's.  I'm not familiar with Pick's, and will look into it.
  
  I'm sorry to hear that your sister has this.  Please stay writing, and sharing.  -- Robin
• #8 Comment from sugarsweet056 
  2/19/08 4:05 PM | Permalink

  I know you must be having a terrible time right now. I feel so bad for you re your dear Sister, & now I hear about your Husband. Please know I'm praying for you & your family. May God bless.
  Keep faith & believe.
  Sending up a prayer & lighting a candle for DH.
  Sugar
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