Honee's road to a new me

11:59:58 PM EDT
Feeling Grumpy Just doing a quick check in.  I brought a pedometer the other day. I haven't put it to too much use. TOM is paying me a visit this week, so that means not too much walking.  I have read that walking or exercise can ease cramps. It's the total opposite with me.  I have horrible cramps. They basically ruin my days.  I have to take medication and I don't like taking meds, personal reasons, I will get into that a little later.
But if anyone has suggestions on how to ease cramps, I would be grateful. I stepped on the scale today and it said 340, but I know that is because of TOM.  It will be over in a few days. I hope everyone is doing great.
Cheryl


Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 5 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

11:26:11 PM EDT
Feeling Irritated

I am very upset right now.  As some of you already know and some of you don't know. I have guardianship of my nephew. I have had him since he came home from the hospital.  Long story short, his mother didn't want him and neither did my brother.  His mother already has 2 kids that she doesn't take of. The only time that she wants to be bother with the baby is when she wants to be with my brother.  But when she is mad with him, she always texts me on my phone talking about she wants her baby back. But when they are on good terms, she only wants to see my brother.

Fast forward to yesterday. I get a letter in the mail from the Court saying that she wants to terminate my guardianship.  Now don't get me wrong, I think that kids should be with their parents. But when I know from personal experience that they will be mistreated, no they shouldn't be with their parents.  But anyway, we have a court date in September. What is really making me mad is that she lied on the paper.  She said that she now has a job as a medical assistant and she has a stable home for him.  First of all she never graduated from high school and never went to school to be a medical assistant. And she just moved to Georgia in June.  And also she in Detroit for two weeks in July, so how can you have a job.

She always says she wants her son.  But she has not seen him since April!!!! I know that she is going to say that she didn't come see him because I told her she couldn't come over my house. I have never told her that she couldn't see him. That just will be her excuse. Because my sister lives right around the corner from me, and her mother doesn't live that far from me.

Now let me get into way I said that she can't come over to my house.  There has been a lot of stuff that had been going on between her and my brother. Now I don't get into others relationships, but when ever she was mad at him she always tried to find a way to do some mean things to me.  She would play on my phone constantly. Go around telling people I that I kidnapped her baby. How could I kidnap her baby when she wanted to give up her parental rights? And it was a lot of other stuff. But the straw that broke the camels back was I had been getting phone calls saying that they had got my cell phone number of a chat line. Then I was getting calls saying that they got my number off My Space. Then a girl called saying that her boyfriend told her that I had AIDS!!!! Yes please excuse my french, But that BITCH made a My Space page saying that I had AIDS!! She had used someone else's picture but she had used my cell phone as the headline.  She all you had to do was to put in my cell phone number and the page would come up.  Not only did she say I had AIDS, she said that I was having sex with my brother and I was bisexual and I was having sex and giving it to men and women!!!

I was so upset I couldn't even say anything to her. I text her and told her that she was no longer welcomed in my house. and that was that.  She still used to come to see my brother, but never her son.

I am trying to stay positive about what will happen at court, but you know how some judges always side with the mother.  I am just so sick of her. She doesn't even want him, she is mad because she wanted my brother to come to Georgia with her and he wouldn't go.  And she is also mad because he has new girlfriend. There is a lot more to say on this, but I am tired of typing, I will continue tomorrow.

Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 3 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

12:58:54 AM EDT
Feeling Surprised OMG!!! I was over to my friend house tonight and we were watching the video from her wedding 2 years ago. And OMG!!! I looked like a whale! Mind you I was matron of honor. I couldn't believe how I looked. But I look at it like another motivational tool. I am not the same size as I was then, and I will never be that size again! I still have that dress and I am going to try it on when I reach my second small goal.


Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 2 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

7:58:54 PM EDT
Feeling Quiet Hello to everyone who dropped by and showed me love. I really appreciate that. I haven't been able to post my weight or pictures. It has been a hectic week. I joined a group on Yahoo called Thin Chicks.  I feel welcomed and at home. There are alot of motivated people there. They are like family. The have weight loss challenges, music and movie trivia. They offer motivation thoughts and tools.  I don't mean to keep saying they, I guess I should say we, since I have become apart of them.
Since I haven't taken the pictures I will post my weight. Monday when I weighed myself I was 339 lbs. Today I took a sneak peek before tomorrow I am 336. YEA!!! ME! My short term goal is to lose 10% of my body weight. My ultimate goal will be to be in Onderland. I am not rushing it, because it didn't take a minute to put the weight on and it's going to take more than a minute to get it off.


Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 4 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

10:19:09 PM EDT
Feeling Confident
Hearing Low by Flo Rida Well I am back at it again. I have been looking and thinking about my life and my health. It is now time for me to take control of both of them.  I have really missed the friends that I have met thru the journals. I didn't meet that many but I've missed you all just as well.  Monday is the big day when I start on my new road. I know the journey will be long and hard, but this time I am in it for the long haul.  I am tired of making excuses and letting time and life pass me by.  I want to feel comfortable in the clothes that I wear and feel confident when I look in the mirror. I am tired of just shopping at the Avenue. I can't even go to Ashley Stewart.  I want to go anywhere that I choose.  I'm not saying that I want to be pencil thin. Because I know that I could never be that. ( I wouldn't want that if I could have it!) I want to be out of the 20's. Even though I can't be a teen, I want to at least wear them. LOL!
Tonight I am going to get up the courage to take pictures of myself now and post them in my journal.  I will put them up Monday when I post my weight. I am going to post my weight loss or gains every week. Cheryl


Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 4 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

2:22:23 AM EST
Feeling Quiet
Hearing The Humming of my computer I was just catching up on some journals. I haven't written in mine, because I haven't made any progress.  In all reality I have taken a turn for the worst.  I have gained about 25 lbs. the last time I checked. I have a lot going on and nothing at the same time. I haven't had a baby in 15 years so getting back into the swing of things has been really hard.  He started walking last week.  He looks so cute. He looks like a mummy.  He walks with both hands in front of him and he leads off with his left foot. So it's looks like he walking to the side. He really is a hand full.  He still doesn't sleep all night. So I am really missing out on a lot of sleep. He is waking up now so I will finish this later


Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 1 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

2:59:12 AM EST
Feeling Chillin'
Hearing I hate that I love you by Rhianna and NeYo

I would like to wish every one a Happy New Year.

I don't know if anyone reads my journal, but I am back in the running to lose all of the excess me. Today starts it off.

I don't normally go out for New Year's Eve.  I started going to church.  I had already made up in my mind that I am going to lose weight. Now I am determined to do it.  My pastor said that this year is a new beginning.  And I had been feeling the same way.  He said anything that happened last year, to leave it there. And that's what I plan on doing.  All of the bad habits are all gone I know that I can't stop everything at once.  But I am going to try like hell!

Starting Wednesday my church is starting a 21 day fast.  So I am going to give up something.  I don't know what it is yet but it will be big.

If anyone still reads my journal I want to start a weight loss challenge. I have alot of weight to lose and I need motivation.  So leave a comment whom ever wants to join me.  I have a very long journey and I don't want to go on it alone.

I am going to start writing in my journal more often now.  At least every week.  I am going to post my weight tomorrow.  And I am going to work on what exercises I am going to do everyday.  I am going to start back on Weight Watchers. I probably do the Fat Smash for a couple of weeks.

Cheryl

Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 4 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

2:04:22 AM EDT
Feeling Chillin'
Hearing I found myself by Ciara

Hello everyone, it's been a minute since I've been able to read and write in my journal.

I am happy to report that I have full guardianship of my nephew.  And boy is he a handful.  His mother hasn't acted a fool anymore because she knows that I don't have time for games.  She still tries to act like she wants to see the baby.  But that is a bunch of BS, she still just wants my brother.  I keep trying to tell her to finish getting her and education and get a job. And stop trying to chase a man.  But you can't tell someone something who thinks they know everything.

I hope everyone is doing wonderful.  I will read journals later.  Because I know that he will be up in a minute.

Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 2 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

9:50:58 PM EDT
Feeling Chillin'
Hearing Feel for you by Joe

How the hell do I have baby mama drama and I am a woman? Well as those who read my journal, know that I am a new auntie.  Well the girl who had the baby by my brother wanted to give the baby up for adoption.  I told her that I would take care of the baby.  She said that she wanted to give up her parental rights to the baby. 

Anyways, after she had the baby, she stayed at my house for 5 days.  I didn't see any harm in her spending time with the baby. On the 5th day, I took her home.  The very next day she called and said that she wanted to come back over. But I wasn't home.  So she said that she would come over the next day.  She called my brother about 2 am and asked what he was doing and he said that he was about to go to bed.  So she takes it upon herself to come over anyway.  By the time she gets there my brother had another girl over there(she and my brother are not together) She blows up at my brother and asks who the girl is and why is she over there.  And then she starts interrogating the girl.  They began to have words.  I come down stairs and tell both of them that they have to leave.

Then she goes outside and begins to make a scene.  She arguing with my brother about why did he lie about going to bed.  Then she calls me on the phone saying that she wants the baby back.  Because she doesn't want other women around her baby.  I told her that no other women would be around the baby because I don't play that.  The she starts to cry she just wants her baby. And I told her that she is not about to put the baby in the middle of all that drama. I told her why would she try to take a baby home when she doesn't have anything for him there.  So all in all she got pissed with me because I didn't send the baby out.  I just hung up the phone and laid back down.  The she called back and said basically I am stealing her baby from her.  Then she tried to say that my brother had been denying the baby and he didn't want the baby.  But I told her neither one of them did. By this time it is now 4 am.  I told her that I would call the police if she didn't leave and she said that if they came the only they would do would be to give her baby.  I told her how could she prove that the baby was hers. (She left all of her papers in my house).  To make her leave I had to go outside and practically threaten her. I told her that if she call me tomorrow that I would bring her the baby.

Well you all know that I had no intentions on taking him over there. She called and asked could she have him back, I told her I would call her back.  Needless to say she hasn't said that sentence anymore. She was just blowing smoke.  She has 2 other children that are never with her.  When she first started seeing my brother, I never knew she had kids.  She has a 5 year old daughter and a 1 year old son.  I've seen the daughter 3 times and I saw the son 2 times.

She doesn't call me anymore.  She calls my brother trying to make him have sympathy for her.  I don't know why he doesn't just tell her off. I know that she's just had her baby and I realize that.  But she thinks that she can say whatever she wants to say.  When they were arguing she was saying that she hates him and she hopes that he gets shot again and dies. Over the last couple of months she has been showing her true colors.  I used to feel sorry for her, I always thought my brother was been mean to her. But now I'm seeing her in action.  She calls the cell phone company and gets his phone turned off. She gets numbers off his phone and calls the girls and tells them all type of stuff. She plays on his phone and tries to call my house all types of night.

But anyway getting back to now.  She had her friend call me and tell me that the baby had a WIC appointment Monday which was yesterday.  So yesterday I took him to the appointment, they told me that I could not come without her.  So the place was right around the corner from her house.  I call her house and blow my horn and she never comes to the door.  When I leave then she calls on the phone and says was I in front of her house and I told her yeah because the appointment was today.  I asked her did she have any clothes on and she said no.  She would reschedule the appointment.

Later on when she talked to my brother that shedon't know why I came over there.  Then she told him she wanted to see the baby she told him to pack up the babies clothes(of which neither one of them bought ) and bring her, her baby(mind you my brother doesn't have a car) So who do you think she thought was going to bring the baby over! 

I am tired of typing today so I will finish tomorrow.

Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 3 comments: Show Recent | Add your own

1:12:29 AM EDT
Feeling Chillin'
Hearing Enjoy by Janet Jackson I just wanted to post pictures of my nephew. Isn't he sooo cute! On this picture doesn't he look like a little stinker. He was making a big stinky!

Written by mshonee1202 Permalink | Blog about this entry |  Add to del.icio.us |  digg this This entry has 2 comments: Show Recent | Add your own