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I'm feeling a bit better. That was just the oddest feeling ever! I know eating fresh fruit is good for you, but you need to eat something else too. LOL The last couple of days that has been my diet. I absolutely love fresh fruit salad. Peaches, pineapple, watermelon, grapes, strawberries, blueberries, cantaloupe, honey dew. YUM!! They say five for five. LMAO... I don't think that is what they meant. I had the salad for lunch on Thursday, and then a light dinner of a sandwich. Friday it was my lunch with crackers, and dinner. Then this morning I finished off the bowl for breakfast about 11. I was in the middle of doing laundry and all was good until I started back up the stairs. I felt light headed and started to shake. I sat my ass down on the steps and put my head between my knees. My Mom taught me that trick. Not sure how or why that gets rid of the dizziness, but it does. I felt good enough to come up the stairs but I just wasn't right. I felt like I was having a panic or anxiety attack. Wouldn't really know as I don't experience them, but that is what I imagine it would feel like. I felt like I couldn't breath or move, yet everything was twitching. Then, of course, fear sets in making it even worse. I tried to do an entry to calm myself but I couldn't focus.

I was honestly feeling it was my sugar out of whack so I got some bread thinking carbs would help absorb things. I ate 3 slices of bread and had milk. Milk? OMG! I never drink milk unless I have chocolate cake or brownies, but I thought it would help. I went and laid in bed. I put my head near the window so I could feel the breeze across my face in hopes that it would help me get my breath back. I laid there scared to close my eyes. I thought for sure if I fell asleep I wouldn't wake up. I did eventually calm down and closed my eyes. I could hear the cars driving by and every few seconds I could feel the air across my face. I didn't think I fell asleep, and didn't seem like much time had passed when I got horrible scent. It made my stomach flip, and I felt like I was going to toss my cookies. I couldn't open my eyes and I couldn't move. My legs felt like they weighed a thousand pounds. The smell was getting worse and the rumble in my head sounded like I was at a NASCAR race. Then I heard a horn. It was then I realized I had fallen asleep. I have no idea what I was dreaming but the guy next door was working on his car. The smell was that of gas and exhaust as he revved his engine. GRRRRRRRR I have no idea why I couldn't move. Probably because I wasn't really awake, but in a dream state.

I turned my head from the window and stayed put for a minute. I wanted to see how I was feeling. I seemed to be doing much better then earlier. When I looked at my clock an hour had passed. It felt like about 10 minutes. I got up and cautiously walked around the house. I was feeling better, but I was not sure of myself. I was suppose to go shopping to get some things for tomorrow but decided I best stay put. I didn't want that to happen again while I was driving. I fixed some mashed potatoes thinking more carbs would be good. LOL Nice excuse, eh? Yes I did have some hamburger too. No fruit! I feel better, just a little unsure of myself if that makes sense. Almost 'foggy' but wide awake.

I'm hoping to drift off to a sound sleep and feel 100% tomorrow.

My sister decided to have a little get together at the cottage tomorrow. Hot dogs and burgers on the grill. I am supposed to drive my parents and my sister. I'm hoping to get up early, get the shopping done for a taco dip and be able to get out there. Time will tell. I hate to miss it, to let others down, but I don't want to do something my body can't handle. Funny though, not even sure it's my body. I think I'm just emotionally spent and I think all the natural sugar just got things out of whack. We can hope, right?

I hope everyone had a great Saturday and wish you all a great Sunday!

Hugs

Tags: dream state, anxiety attacks

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#40 Comment from pprrrr39
8/11/07 3:41 AM | Permalink

Awwwww D ....sorry to hear that you were not feeling too good. I have those all the time.... evil things, wouldn't wish them on anyone.

Get some rest and take care
hugs Jayne
#39 Comment from iamddannyboy
8/9/07 11:46 PM | Permalink

D, I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. It's no fun not feeling right. If it happens again promise us you'll go get checked out.
#38 Comment from jeadie05
8/7/07 9:29 AM | Permalink

I have been having these attacks too ,you need to get some rest ,I do hope you feel better soon ..love Jan xx
#37 Comment from siennastarr
8/7/07 12:58 AM | Permalink

If it was anxiety, than I can totally relate! I used to get those things so badly that I couldn't go anywhere for the longest time. I won't go into detail, but if that is what it was, get a handle on it now, because they can become completely overwhelming! Hopefully it was just your lack of eating the proper foods that caused it!

I do hope you feel better!

Hugs and love
Jackie

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#36 Comment from cherry2sweet2eat
8/6/07 5:03 PM | Permalink

you have to eat right. I got sick once because all i ate was one thing the whole day then like u i got dizzy and shakey and when i did eat i wanted to puke.

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